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The Pictgirl Against Rome

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When Circiona wanted to speak when she was ordered to lay down onto the cross. She is afraid and excited in the same time when she feels the rough wood against her back and while she is rubbing her feet against the stipes. The shackles are removed from her hands for the sake to stretch out her arms. When the young boy, for whom it is the first crucifixion job, placed the nail into the palm, Circiona said before a senior soldier was going to correct him:"Not there! I will drop down as the palms cannot hold my weight. Think a bit! The wrist is the right place!" The young Roman boy still hesitates. Circiona shouts:"Come on! Let's get over with it! I will have to die anyway. I do not hate you for it. Do not bother when I will cry and shriek. You want to get a man, do you not?" After having said this, she thought that he will be harrassed if he fails. Even as a prisoner awaiting the cross, you can help others. What strange!


The boy did as she said, even if he is visibly uncomfortable doing it. Waves of pain spread through the upper body when the hammer falls down to drive it home. It seems that she shouts out some of the pain. The boy hesitates again and Circiona again pushes him to do his job while others are holding her down. Again, waves of pain shoot through her upper body. After that, she tries to come to terms with the pain. During the hammering, she thought that she cannot stand it any longer. It so hurts! But now, she is nearly disappointed that no further blows folllw. When Caldina was full of jealousy, she had called her a pain slut as she has never been heard crying of pain. But in this agonizing pain, she has cried of pain. Yes, sje thinks, she has no disease! To make fun of her, a soldier asks her where she wants her feet. She moves her feet where she thinks they are "comfortable". As a senior soldier has become a bit impatiemt, he orders the boy to hold her right foot in place and hammers down onto the spike. Aaargh, it hurts so much!! Then, the same happens to her left foot. Aargh!! How agonizing the pain is, she is not swearing or begging for mercy. After some moments, she thinks to get used to the pain. It is not that bad after the nailing is done and the first shock has passed. She tries to move her hands and feet and follow the spells of pain. As soon as she is coming to terms with the agony, she notices her cross rising. The sliding into the hole to fix the cross lets her pass out for a moment. When she comes back to consciousness, she is wondering if she is still alive. Yes, the waves in a sea of pain does not let any doubt! Breathing has become hard work. But not for long as a sedile to rest upon is added. The centurio has decided to place sediles as straight timbers that reach a little bit beyond the crotch. He likes to link agony with art. And near suffocating victims like fishes on land are not what he imagines as the beauty of crucifixion. He thinks of crucified prisoners as a piece of artwork. As well, onlookers have become more squeamish than in former times. Yes, crucifees have to look as clean and beautiful as possible. Last but not least, this gives us another day of survival if not more. As a mocking, Circiona has gotten gold-plated nails and a crown onto her head.


Now, it is Caldina's turn. Circiona gives her words of courage. Caldina as well follows orders like sheep to get sheared. She even manages to give the soldiers a smile. Circiona asks to place her with the face towards herself. The soldiers are wondering why she still has a wish. As soon as her cross is fixed, Circiona gives her a smile on her face otherwise wreathed in pain.

When it is Drust's turn, he is begging for mercy and crying like a baby which causes the boy to go away. Caldina then shouts to Drust to calm down and behave like a warrior and towards the soldier boy to go back. But it did not help and Drust begs and cries without end. As well in this case, the senior soldier does the hammering while he orders the boy to hold down the limbs to be fixed. The next warriors to be crucified are begging for their lives, too. Some are vomiting out of shock and panic as well as losing control over their bladder. The boy is ordered to fetch a bucked of vinegar water and a sponge to clean up. The soldiers are remembering what their centurio has always said at camps:"Crucifixion is art. The prisoners must look as clean and beautiful as possible. Talk to crucifees to hold up their minds which will give us further hours of enjoying the art. You can play with them emotionally. They are in your hands...". The bitter vinegar is to keep off insects and birds.

After all crosses are firmly fixed and more silence comes about, Circiona speaks to Caldina as her afony allows. But she has at any rate to forgive Caldina to die in peace, if one can call it this way in this setting. She says:"Dear Caldina and Drust, I forgive you! Let is die and sacrifice our lives together in mind. I would hug you if I could. You are sorry as I see."

Caldina does not trust her ears and answers:"What a lovely girl you are! I have been such a bitch and you are suffering because of my treason. You do not deserve this ordeal. I do so much! I am thankful to suffer now for my sins. But you are innocent!"

Circiona:"It is ok by now. Let us die in friendship."

Drust:"I deserve the ordeal as well. Please forgive that I am a coward. But I srill love you, my dear! We will see again each other in paradise. It hurts my mind that I have betrayed my own wife and trine."

Circiona:"I love you, too. Speaking gets more and more hard. Let us trie to look each other in the eyes and smile if we can. I love you all and our dear Pictish people. Let us pray to the Christian three-in-one god that he forgives us our sins and takes our mind."

When Picts and Celts came along, they spoke words of comfort and touched the crucifees when a soldier was watching who did not strictly follow Roman rules to not act caringly. It is hard enough to keep off Pictish troops to take them down from the crosses. Many Romans, even if not all, coming along shouted curses and harrassments. Some crucifees cursed back, but Caldina and Circiona did not at all like it. They are caught in their Roman mindsets and manipulated for all of their life. Circiona and Caldina are drifting between passion, euphoria and pure agony while their bodies are glistening in sweat and driplets of blood from the nail wounds. Even a few Picts and Celts coming along are caught by the beautiful agony of some victims. A few are thinking of cruxplaying with ropes. But nevertheless, it is a scary spectacle. Some victims are murmuring rhymes delivered to them by their forefathers. Yes, Caldina and Circiona, strange as it is, have nice moments on the cross, feeling the cool wind onto their skin cooling a little bit down the agonizing pain, observing the landscape aroumd them. They have plenty of time to watch every detail near their crosses. The night has something scaringly nice. While haluzinating, they see their villages in front of their eyes, dancing fairy princesses and sweet tunes. The horrible pain reminds them that they are still alive. To let the pain flow through the bodies and dancing on the cross mean passion of sacrifice. At some points, it seems that they cannot stand the agony one minute longer. But what should they do? The nails are holding them firmly in place. They are gruesome, but grant a hold to lean on. They hold them between earth and heaven in the floating air. After some time looking back, it is unbelievable what they had endured and still alive! On the cross, the water handed on sponges seems so precious!


A few soldiers are ranting about the fucking empire when no loyal soldier is listening and pity the Picts. Should they flee into Pictland? Will they be welcomed by them? Perhaps, the young boys should go into Pictland to live free of Roman decadency. May the Empire implode like loyal sheepish people and Crassus-like animals fear it so much. Our cultural and technichal achievements will certainly live on. The fucking assholes like Nero, Caligula and Diocletian. A few boy soldiers thought if they could take the prisoners off from the crosses and piss of to Pictland. But this will make the asshole Constantius Clorus and governers take horrible revenge until Roman Britain implodes. Circiona, Caldina and a few others pleaded to them not to do something mindless. Every martyr will bring the end of Roman decadency one step forward. These soldiers are ashamed of their comrades who enjoy the fucking spectacle and even shout vulgar harrassments and sexually abuse prisoners.

When a warrior has died, the centurion ordered to pull out the nails as iron is to worthy to let them oxidize on the crosses and to put him or her onto a pile. If Picts come to take a body with them to bury them, let it be. We do not want to give even more reasons for more troubles. We live in difficult times. On the one hand, we cannot abandon crucifixions because we will be flooded with criminals and barbaric tribes. We are at a turning point of the empire, yet. If we act like in the years around 70 AD in Jerusalem, we do not know what will happen. We have no control of the Barbarians outside the empire. Could it not be that Romans flee to the Barbarians and fight on behalf of them? Arminius the Cheruscan comes to my mind who had turned against the empire after having served in our army.

Only a few years later, the son of Constantius Clorus became emperor and favoured the Christian faifh. He abandoned crucifixion as Circiona had dreamt while imprisonned in the castel. The soldiers, among them those ranting about the empire, announced him as new emperor in the hope to get rid of decadency. The loyal Romams put hope into him that founding the empire on the Christian faith will save it from imploding. The Empire lived on decade after decade, but Roman Britain did not survive until the Western Empire collapsed alltogether.
 
Back in our days, in York

The scripts of York's monastery are subject of study in York's university. They concluded after having read the scrips accurately that the girls Cirxiona and Caldina had adrenaline rushes on the cross caused by extreme settings in life. The assumption that these girls and others were heavily masochist minded can as well be concluded. Masochist feeling people are not limited to our days as we see. There are well parallels with bungee jumping of our days. Some professors of history are sure that the Western Roman Empire would have imploded few years after the death of Constantius Clorus if his son had not been announced as the new emperor. The scripts show as well that some Romans in Britain themselves were fed up with the empire and integrated into the Britons. The hope of uniting the empire by the Christian faith was fulfilled.
 
By now, I have put together this story into one Word-Documemt. If somebody cannot open it, let me know. If somebody wants to add pictures, she or he is allowed to do so! It wood even be great. I have enclosed added one small part that is not to be found in my posts above.

Greatings, Alex
 

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