Entropy321
Condemned
Hello, I'm just making this post to introduce myself to the community, I'm a 21 year old male living in the central US. I've had a strong interest in the crucified women 'fetish' for many years, probably since I was around 15. I wasn't raised a Catholic, but rather I went to various churches such as baptist and methodist over the years. I am still a religious person, but in my own way (I've developed quite a distaste for organized religion as a whole). My crucified women fetish isn't one that is based on a blasphemous concept (as some people like it), but rather it sprung from my interest in BDSM that developed in my early web surfing days (actually my interest started much earlier, but the fantasies really flared up once I found out other people actually liked it too). The way I generally see it is an intense, extreme, and emotional form of hard (very) bondage.
Anyway, I was very suprised when I first learned of the crucified women fetish being shared by others, mainly through Hufkens website and the crucified women message board before it was shut down. I never posted any messages back then, I remained a lurker even though I really did want to discuss this interest with people that actually shared it. Once the CW yahoo group died, I gave up any research on kinky activies for about a year, until just the other night I started searching for this stuff again. I was amazed to find a link to the cruxdreams website, and this message board. I signed up for the cruxfoundation board as well, but I'm still waiting for moderator activation.
I feel really strange at this point in my life. I've always been a loner, never really had any relationships or romances. I have hoped to find myself a mate that shares my views on religion, and kinky desires. I am afraid however, of trying to do this. I feel I won't be able to find what I'm looking for without exposing myself, and I really, really don't want that to happen. First I thought there was nothing worse than having a porn addiction uncovered, then I thought there was nothing worse than having a BDSM fetish uncovered. Thankfully, even though there were close calls, I never got tagged with either, but now I have something even worse...a sexual fetish that most of the people I know would consider blasphemy of the worst kind.
It's very confusing, and upsetting at times. However, I would like to continue to learn more, and hope I can join in with this online community and interact with people who share the same, highly unusual, interests I have.
-Entropy, whose real name is not to be known.
Anyway, I was very suprised when I first learned of the crucified women fetish being shared by others, mainly through Hufkens website and the crucified women message board before it was shut down. I never posted any messages back then, I remained a lurker even though I really did want to discuss this interest with people that actually shared it. Once the CW yahoo group died, I gave up any research on kinky activies for about a year, until just the other night I started searching for this stuff again. I was amazed to find a link to the cruxdreams website, and this message board. I signed up for the cruxfoundation board as well, but I'm still waiting for moderator activation.
I feel really strange at this point in my life. I've always been a loner, never really had any relationships or romances. I have hoped to find myself a mate that shares my views on religion, and kinky desires. I am afraid however, of trying to do this. I feel I won't be able to find what I'm looking for without exposing myself, and I really, really don't want that to happen. First I thought there was nothing worse than having a porn addiction uncovered, then I thought there was nothing worse than having a BDSM fetish uncovered. Thankfully, even though there were close calls, I never got tagged with either, but now I have something even worse...a sexual fetish that most of the people I know would consider blasphemy of the worst kind.
It's very confusing, and upsetting at times. However, I would like to continue to learn more, and hope I can join in with this online community and interact with people who share the same, highly unusual, interests I have.
-Entropy, whose real name is not to be known.
