Thank you,
@momo1995 , for your thoughtful comments. You have inspired me to post this rambling and excessively long comment. All feel free to ignore it.
In my writing, I feel very like a comment made many years ago by Bob Dylan (Though I don’t dream of writing on his level). “I don’t write the songs. They are there before me, and I just copy them down.”
Often, I don’t seem to control the plot: it controls me. I introduced Amanda in Singapore II as a foil for Barbara, someone for her to be jealous of and make rude remarks about. Barb’s dislike of cheerleaders is well known, and the humorous side of her character is most evident in her fits of jealously (“It’s all about Barbara!”). Once Amanda was invented, she was an obvious romantic interest for Jeffrey (who has all the beautiful girls throw themselves at him) and had a role in helping with Barbara’s defense. After introducing an inexperienced 19-year old, sexy girl, it was fun to contrast her with the mature 36-year-old sexy Barbara.
@Barbaria1 's catty comments encouraged a more and more sympathetic portrayal of Amanda. Somewhere along the way, without planning it, I transformed Amanda Jones into a kind of little Nell Trent (
@Migoz2 will know what I mean - however, "almost fourteen" Nell would result in me being banned from CF) of the story. I’m afraid that all the buildup of her innocent virtue probably induced me to make her a victim of those two brutes.
However, I don’t want my readers to misunderstand my feelings. As I was writing a full three posts worth of Amanda’s brutal assault and rape (not to mention Jimmy's earlier disgusting actions at the reception), I was disturbed. It was evil and wrong! I had confessed this before to a friend who tried to help by saying, it’s just fiction. And, of course, none of it was worse than countless stories on CF. That is true. I am proud of what I wrote. But please know that I felt as bad for Amanda as any of you did. Remember, she is my creation! I should also mention that I have had similar feelings over some of the terrors I have put (and will put) Barbara through - even though she makes such a nice victim, and the person she’s modeled on is a cruxgirl who enjoys such stories.
As to Amanda's future (and Barbara’s?), time will tell. I can share my “philosophy” of the Singapore Trilogy (in three or four parts?). While Barbara, in the beginning, got herself in trouble by humorous character flaws, she is now caught up in a system and a culture that inexorably drags her towards a horrible fate, while torturing her on the way. The overarching theme is the hidden corruption in the society, renowned for its efficiency and low crime rate, leading to a kind of Manichean world of powerful forces of darkness and overwhelmed fighters for the light – such as Frost, Hodges, and Amanda. I.e., a normal CF story world. In this world, the weak and innocent are always in peril, while the Queen of Evil (RBG) always gets her way.
BTW, I planned Jimmy’s heart attack death weeks ago based on a reader suggestion (sorry, I can’t remember who to credit) that he die while having intercourse with Barb. I did not steal the idea from an excellent other story that recently concluded on CF.
Sorry for running on. Now back to regular programming.