Forgive me, but unfortunately it seems to me that I can't imagine and describe well what I could feel and think in the situation that has already occurred in the story. I also don't want to repeat what others have already described so well. So, very briefly and imperfectly, what first came to my mind - which may not always match the mood of the story, but my story before was not always consistent with what other participants described.
Referring partly to the fragment of Piraland # 904, shortly after placing the cross with me vertically ...
The Beginning …
I am here, everything hurts ... although I know that it is only beginning to hurt ... the cold coldness of fear permeates me throughout ...
I have never been scared in this way ...
My body is shaking and trembling from the inside, I feel my muscles so tense, terrible pain in the wrists and feet ...
I try to take it, control it, but I know ... I know ... I can't stand it, I can't bear it ...
Only for a moment ... to hold out …this minute ... maybe five ... I know that it will come ... God .. just soon ... in a moment ... this most terrible pain, unbearable ... approaching ... I know it, I feel it approaching! ... in my wrists !, feet! ... ...
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I feel cold fear, I shiver from the inside ... I don't feel that the day is hot, although I know it, my thoughts are clear and I see everything clearly ...
I'm on the cross, high, I'm naked, I'm crucified … I bought a ticket, they brought us here - everything that was here before - was it supposed to be like that ?? .. crucified, crucified! ... terrible cold and hardness of metal in my feet and wrists and I straighten my legs, clenching my knees, one to the other with all my strength, and half-raised, with my head at the height of the cross of my cross ... it's me, it's I …
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... I look consciously and I see them all, they are still ahead of me, they gathered before the cross with her ...
the one who did it all ... before which I was there in the villa, who received me ... now I am also before her ...
we are all before her ... CHRISTINA .. a large inscription above her head ...
People parted and there is no one between her and us at the moment, only empty, stony, sun-lit earth. She hangs before us ...
before us crucified in front of her ... naked as we all ... and we all stare at her! ...
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I look at her, I look to my left, to right ... I see everything so clearly! ... I clench my knees, pain, cold pain in my feet and wrists, my body is trembling, God! ... I am bare, crucified, on a high cross like in a church, in the middle of them all, between two women, fully nude, beautiful, intentionally terribly, obscenely, shamelessly, outstretched on their crosses, ... and She, Christina, in front of me .. She is looking at me ...
hurts my head wrapped with a strings, cold fear, my body shakes, all my muscles are tense ... it hurts, it hurts! ...
I know that I can't take this pain, I can't take it ... did I want it ... did I want it?
... I slide down ... my arms tens fully outstretched, my legs are spreading sideways and I hang limp and the pain in my hands becomes so terrible that I open my mouth and moan in pain, and I hear my voice, my moaning ... and still I'm conscious I see and feel and think ... and I feel unbearable growing pain ... I shake my head and look at it all ... why, why me! ... everybody moans, everybody writhes on the crosses, ... our voices and moans overlap, someone wails in a high voice ... nude bodies, so many nude bodies, women, women and men ... bare cunts, nodding boobs, sticking out or hanging penises, hairy and smooth crotch, testicles, arms, legs, eyes, faces ... ... I recognize them, we've been together all the time ...
and you can see their pain, surprise, astonishment, fear ... what have we done!, what they did to us!...
.. I don't want, I don't want it ... what did I do! ... ..
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... she goes under my cross, stops, and looks at me ... and I lower my head and look at her, below me, her hair, her face, her eyes ... I would like to tell her that it hurts so much that I don't want to be here ... and she reaches out her hand, high, without hesitation, and grabs my genitals, grabs my limp member, and moves it, quickly, mechanically masturbating me ... and I look at her from above hanging, limp, my thighs are wide parted, inert ... I see hand that rapes me, I see my penis becoming an erection ... as the semen begins to flow and dribbling down from it ... only after a moment waves of excitement, cold chills explode in my brain ... ... ... I howl in pain, I run away from the woman's hands masturbating me, in ecstasy and in pain my body rises up ... and there high, arched forward, I wail in arousal, spurting sperm from a protruding member, shivering, stinging the air in frictional movements ...
.. and I fall down ... my back, my head into the pole of the cross leaned ... and Eulalia looks at me from the side, her lips shiver, legs tremble at the side of the cross with bloody from nails feet, her breasts, like domes, protruding forward, nipples hardened ... ... ... and she turns his head to the sky now ... her face in profile, her mouth open in effort, ... Gabriella moves, constantly, as in a strange dance twists and waves, ... she opens her legs, closes, as if claps with them, .. her breasts are shaking, nodding, with swollen, redden, big nipples on its tops marking these movements ...
… and I am among them, crucified,.. the seed flows down my thigh, on my knee, drips down ... I can't take much pain anymore ...
below, under me, there is still the one who raped me and she laughs covering her mouth with her hand ... Marlen, stands next to her, she says something to her ... I weaken ... I slide down to the end ... ... in front of me Christine is hanging outstretched on the cross ... in fullness of her mature femininity ... she has dark eyes and long hair ... her thighs are wide, inertly parted ... her crotch fully exposed ...
I'm hanging in front of her ... inert, with my penis sticking up ... staring at her breasts, large nipple halos, at her womb of dark hairy, ... staring into her open vagina ...as a gate wide open ...
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.. the voices, moans of suffering on the crosses around me, ... pain, how much it hurts ... I can't stand this pain! ... I can't stand it!! ... is this hell prepared for us ???!!!