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pamelamask
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Two days ago I had my first experince being crucified. I made two videos of this and posted them to my youtube account. These videos are part of a kinky but not too serious series on my fantasy of being incarcerated.
Anyway, I have been researching crucifixion over the past 2 months, and reading the accounts of others who have experienced it, especially on this forum. I've been getting closer and closer to actually doing it. The day before yesterday I planned everything out, and even told one of my online friends that I was going to do it that night, and that kind of committed me to it.
I was flush with adrenaline most of the day in anticipation. I went to work very late that evening, long after everyone was gone. I arranged a temporary cross in the warehouse. I used special leather wrist restraints designed for suspension. I attached hooks to wood supports to funtion as a cross beam. The hooks would affix my arms to the crossbeam via the metal D-ring on the cuffs, and would allow me to get down on my own when I had had enough. On the back of the vertical wooden upright, I attached a screw that would support a short length of chain, about 1.5 feet above the floor. This chain was attached to leather ankle restraints, binding my feet to the cross.
When everthing was set up, I got dressed for the show. Then without procrastinating I started filming my introductory video, in which my character learns of her fate (to be crucified). That introductory video is posted here (for now anyway):
Immediately after filming the introduction, I set up the camera in front of the cross and set an alarm clock to go offin 25 minutes. My goal was to stay on the cross for 20 minutes. This was my first time ever being crucified. I had only read accounts of what the experience is like. I didn't want to "test" things out first. I wanted to have my first experience be complete and also on video.
It took me a few minutes to mount the cross for the first time. I stood on an upturned bucket, and struggled to get the chain attached to both of my ankle restraints. This caused my legs to get fatigued, even before the crucifixion. After managing to get my ankles secured. I stood up and clipped my wrist restraints into the hooks on the cross beam. Then I waited for the alarm clock to tic down to 20 minutes. When the clock reached 20 minutes I lowered myself and pushed the bucket that I was standing on away. This is at 1:18 of the video. I was crucified! Here is the video of my very first cricifixion:
(Its a good time to view it now, before I continue my recounting of the incident...)
My first immediate impression, hanging on the cross, was that it really wasn't bad. I felt no immediate pain, and my ankle restraints and the attached chain allowed me to support most of my weight with my legs. I was actually relieved and felt sexy and happy with my situation. I was thinking that I could easily make it to 20 minutes, and I thought maybe I had overestimated how tough this would be.
Within thirty seconds I started to change my opinion. My legs muscles started burning from supporting my weight. Still not terribly uncomfortable, and still felt erotic and sexy. Somewhere between 1 and 2 minutes on cross and I was in real pain. I was shifting my weight between my arms and legs in a continual process. There was no way I could do this for another 18 minutes. The pain I was experiencing was not what I had expected. Its hard for me to describe. It makes you feel completely helpless. Its hard not to panic.
I kept watching the clock. I tried to distract my mind from the pain and exhaustion which was inescapable. From other accpounts I had read, I expected that I would feel compelled to "dance" on the cross. I now knew exactly what this was about. I didn't realize how much I was squirming until I watched the video.
At around 6:00 in the video (after 4 minutes 40 seconds of crucifixion), as I am writhing on the cross, my left wrist restraint abruptly and unintentionallhy comes off its hook and my first crucifixion ends. I was disappointed that it ended prematurely, and I hadn't found my limit. I was probably not far from it though.
After concluding that video for my website series, and resting for about 3 minutes. I decided to mount the cross again. I started the video camera again, and set the alarm clock for 15 minutes. I would try to stay on the cross for 13 minutes (leaving 2 minutes to mount the thing.) The video of this second attempt is shown here:
The second video speaks for itself. I went as far as a could, at least having given myself an instant escape mechanism. Also, not to make excuses, but the initial crucifixion sapped much of my strength, and also left me more than a bit "scared" of the cross (for lack of a better term).
Please leave comments or suggestions, I would appreciate your feedback.
Pamela
Anyway, I have been researching crucifixion over the past 2 months, and reading the accounts of others who have experienced it, especially on this forum. I've been getting closer and closer to actually doing it. The day before yesterday I planned everything out, and even told one of my online friends that I was going to do it that night, and that kind of committed me to it.
I was flush with adrenaline most of the day in anticipation. I went to work very late that evening, long after everyone was gone. I arranged a temporary cross in the warehouse. I used special leather wrist restraints designed for suspension. I attached hooks to wood supports to funtion as a cross beam. The hooks would affix my arms to the crossbeam via the metal D-ring on the cuffs, and would allow me to get down on my own when I had had enough. On the back of the vertical wooden upright, I attached a screw that would support a short length of chain, about 1.5 feet above the floor. This chain was attached to leather ankle restraints, binding my feet to the cross.
When everthing was set up, I got dressed for the show. Then without procrastinating I started filming my introductory video, in which my character learns of her fate (to be crucified). That introductory video is posted here (for now anyway):
Immediately after filming the introduction, I set up the camera in front of the cross and set an alarm clock to go offin 25 minutes. My goal was to stay on the cross for 20 minutes. This was my first time ever being crucified. I had only read accounts of what the experience is like. I didn't want to "test" things out first. I wanted to have my first experience be complete and also on video.
It took me a few minutes to mount the cross for the first time. I stood on an upturned bucket, and struggled to get the chain attached to both of my ankle restraints. This caused my legs to get fatigued, even before the crucifixion. After managing to get my ankles secured. I stood up and clipped my wrist restraints into the hooks on the cross beam. Then I waited for the alarm clock to tic down to 20 minutes. When the clock reached 20 minutes I lowered myself and pushed the bucket that I was standing on away. This is at 1:18 of the video. I was crucified! Here is the video of my very first cricifixion:
(Its a good time to view it now, before I continue my recounting of the incident...)
My first immediate impression, hanging on the cross, was that it really wasn't bad. I felt no immediate pain, and my ankle restraints and the attached chain allowed me to support most of my weight with my legs. I was actually relieved and felt sexy and happy with my situation. I was thinking that I could easily make it to 20 minutes, and I thought maybe I had overestimated how tough this would be.
Within thirty seconds I started to change my opinion. My legs muscles started burning from supporting my weight. Still not terribly uncomfortable, and still felt erotic and sexy. Somewhere between 1 and 2 minutes on cross and I was in real pain. I was shifting my weight between my arms and legs in a continual process. There was no way I could do this for another 18 minutes. The pain I was experiencing was not what I had expected. Its hard for me to describe. It makes you feel completely helpless. Its hard not to panic.
I kept watching the clock. I tried to distract my mind from the pain and exhaustion which was inescapable. From other accpounts I had read, I expected that I would feel compelled to "dance" on the cross. I now knew exactly what this was about. I didn't realize how much I was squirming until I watched the video.
At around 6:00 in the video (after 4 minutes 40 seconds of crucifixion), as I am writhing on the cross, my left wrist restraint abruptly and unintentionallhy comes off its hook and my first crucifixion ends. I was disappointed that it ended prematurely, and I hadn't found my limit. I was probably not far from it though.
After concluding that video for my website series, and resting for about 3 minutes. I decided to mount the cross again. I started the video camera again, and set the alarm clock for 15 minutes. I would try to stay on the cross for 13 minutes (leaving 2 minutes to mount the thing.) The video of this second attempt is shown here:
The second video speaks for itself. I went as far as a could, at least having given myself an instant escape mechanism. Also, not to make excuses, but the initial crucifixion sapped much of my strength, and also left me more than a bit "scared" of the cross (for lack of a better term).
Please leave comments or suggestions, I would appreciate your feedback.
Pamela
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