Part 1 – episode 5.
“Aurore d’Artois!? You? Good joke, Luisa, but do not treat us as idiots!”
“But it is true, believe me! I am Aurore d’Artois!”
“Luisa, you clearly need your memory refreshed! Let’s give her more water!”
“Noooo!”
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Aurore d’Artois! Really, that’s me, that’s my real name! I told you, Luisa Schneider, born in Saverne, is what’s on my passport. But that passport is forged as hell and was intended for someone else who resembled me a lot. But they don't look that closely on Chaos, so I could live almost twenty years with my other identity, that of Luisa Schneider. But then, I ran out of luck.
Aurore d'Artois, me, alors, was born forty-something years ago in Compiègne, in the Kingdom of France, but I have spent my childhood in a country town named Courtrai, somewhere in the former county of Flanders. I do remember Courtrai as a somewhat sleepy town under the smoke of its breweries, its spinning and weaving mills and its brick industry. A town with charming narrow streets, paved with cobblestone, typical of the area. And with a nice park with a playground, where we my three brothers and me liked to play. There was a memorial stone that recalled a battle from the year 1302, when the Knights of the King of France had crushed and butchered a revolting peasant army. Afterwards, the King"s army had looted, massacred and burned down Courtrai. That army had been commanded by a certain Robert d’Artois, a direct ancestor of us, but my father remained rather modest about that. To knock down a peasants' revolt is considered hardly a matter of chevalry honor, it’s just a duty that has to be done. Furthermore, the diplomat he was, he did not want to hurt the feelings of the local population. Many men in Courtrai used to carry a knife in their pocket, after all.
When I was twelve, we moved to Rome, where my father got a new assignment. I looked forward to live in the Eternal City. But it became a disappointment. Rome, the capital of the Papal States, turned out to be the oldest prison in the world. Stringent rules forbade everything, including anything that was allowed. Such was certainly the case in the vicinity of the Vatican, where my father had his post. Even worse was the severely severe girl’s college I was sent to, a boarding school. For me, these were a six years during clash with discipline and rules! ‘Mademoiselle/la Signorina d’Artois’ was hard to boil, and it often went the hard way, on both sides.
On my eighteenth, after graduating at the college, further directions were set out. In order to increase my ‘market value’, I was allowed to go to university. I was allowed to go to Paris, to the Sorbonne. I was allowed to study theology. That was a very easy study, so easy that many of my male family members obtained that degree merely for the prestige, together with their main study. But the years on the college had strengthened my will, and I insisted to choose my study myself. Finally, my family conceded. I got my choice : state management sciences, at the Sorbonne. I was allowed to enter the Institut Pâpe Clément V, a school with an international reputation, with many of the best servants of the King among its alumni. But quality had its price. Forget a student’s life! Students lived in the college buildings. Rules were severely severe. There were many restrictions. Students had to be back at 10 p.m., for instance. Three infractions to the rules, and you were out and lost your study year! Another prison without bars! There was nothing left but studying hard! Maybe the rules were a luck, because the curriculum was voluminous. I have spent many nights finishing yet another paper with a too short deadline! They say it was a way to prepare the students for real life work experience in the King’s administration. Add to that, that the school expected from its students…to study theology too! And they implemented a stringent sports scheme. The King expected from his (future) high servants to keep his(her) body in good health and shape!
But after five years I had made it. I had focused on international politics, silently hoping that I would have a chance to work in the service of the King, on foreign stations, just like my father. Hoping that I might get the chance to do so, as a woman in that man's world. My father had already warned me that I should not make too many illusions, and he actually tried to dissuade me, as I would merely encounter disappointments. But deep inside him, it seemed to make him proud that I wanted to follow his footsteps, and he gave me the chance to try it. My parents proudly attended the great promotion ceremony at the Institute in Paris. I had the impression that they were satisfied to have admitted me to do my choice. At the end of the ceremony, my father came to me and he told me that he, and actually the entire family, had plans with me. He would unveil them soon. But not yet there.
The next day, they left. I still needed a week in Paris to finalize everything. Emptying my room in the Institute, some administration about my degree and things like that. My parents and my brothers would now leave for Krainburg, in Slovenia, to the family estate of my mother’s ancestors. I would follow soon. Father would reveal his plans there. I was highly curious what he expected of me. I saw two options: either something with my degree, or either he would propose me a 'good' marriage partner. Or both. I was actually hoping especially the first, because I had put my mind on doing something with my degree and to get started. And I was hoping, since I was the age of majority in the meantime, to get some choice in the course of my own life. But in this society, and in this family, that was not obvious. If my father would start talking like 'Aurore, you are now coming of age, and you have had your way with your studies, but now it is time for duties…’. But as yet, he had given no signs of that, so I kept hoping.
I had to travel to Slovenia via Rome. Since I officially still resided there with my parents, I had to go pick up my visa for Slovenia at the Embassy of the Holy Roman Empire at the Papal State. Everything went smoothly. My visa was ready in the Embassy. The next day around eleven o'clock in the morning I would take the plane to Laibach, a flight of an hour and a half. But shortly after I had checked in for my flight, a message 'retardé' appeared at my flight. First an hour, then two hours, then three hours waiting. It was already two o'clock in the afternoon, when the message ' annulé ' appeared. Back to the counter of the airline, I had the choice, either a flight via a stop-over in Vienna, a travel time of at least five hours, and with the departure hours only at half past five in the afternoon, or either the same flight as originally planned, but the next day. I choose the second option, warned my family about the delay and went back to our villa in the city.
Accepting that such things happen – safety first - I decided to enjoy the beautiful evening, and ate outside in the garden. After diner I took a rest, looking forward to a stay on the manor in Krainburg. As it was often the case, the cats of the neighbors were keen on my presence (and on the presence of food). I loved to have them around. Looking at them took away my last feelings of stress from my afternoon on the airport. But then, it must have been around a quarter to eight, something strange happened.
Suddenly both cats jumped up at the same time, with a loud shriek. Hissing, and with their hairs upright, they rushed into the nearest tree. They remained sitting on a branch, skittish and alert. I wondered what had scared them. I tried to calm them and to talk them out of the tree, but in vain. They kept sitting, over an hour long. I stayed in the garden until dark and then I went to sleep.
The next morning I heard the startling news. The previous evening, Slovenia had been hit by a massive earthquake, which was felt as far as Bologna, and which had been registered by the Papal Seismological Observatory in Rome. The time: around a quarter to eight. That had scared the cats! Communication with the area was disrupted. The state of emergency was proclaimed. The airport of Laibach was badly affected and temporarily closed for all traffic. So, for the moment, I could not leave.
There was no option but to stay in Rome, waiting for news. I tried through the Embassy of the Holy Roman Empire, which was however also overwhelmed with questions and which knew really nothing more than what the scarce messages from Laibach told. I also took contact with my uncle Benoît in Paris. He advised me for the time being to stay in Rome and to wait for further news. According to him, it had no point to go to the affected area, since I would only get in the way there. He would try to use his own channels of information.
Both Laibach and Krainburg, lay close to the epicenter of the earthquake. In both cities, numerous houses and buildings had collapsed. The death toll of the earthquake probably ran into the thousands, most of them in the cities. But the estate of my mother’s family lay on the countryside. Perhaps it had also been affected but that would be easy to verify. Hopefully no one was hurt under the rubble. It had also been good weather that evening in Slovenia, so with some chance they had been outdoors at the time of the disaster.
The days passed, but there was no news from my family. The disaster faded away from the news headlines. What was left was a mess. After ten days, the authorities had given up hope to find any survivors under the rubble. After three weeks, the toll was expressed in dead and missing. Both numbering thousands. Including, it was gradually becoming clear, all my family.
How and where they had disappeared, no one knew. One thing was certain: that morning they still had been on the estate. The main building was badly damaged, one wing had collapsed, but under that rubble, bodies of some unfortunate personnel had been found. The servant’s dormitory had also collapsed, with a lot of victims. As a result, none of the people who had survived, had seen my family alive, less than twelve hours before the time of the disaster. We neither found no outsiders who had seen them in between.
How could people disappear without a trace like that? Apparently, weird things happen during earthquakes. Victims could still lie deep under debris, out of reach, to be found only after decades, or to get recovered nevermore. It seems to happen sometimes that deep inside rubble piles, slow fires break out, consuming buried bodies completely. They could lie buried under one of the myriad of slope failures or mudslides initiated by the ground vibrations. It could also occur, as one told me, that the quake opens deep, long scars in the ground over lengths of hundreds of feet, swallowing everything on or near its path, just to close afterward. It would be looking for a needle in a haystack.
One day, the Ambassador of France in Rome came to me, along with the Ecclesiastic Legate of the Embassy, to inform me of the fact that my family was now officially reported missing. At the same time, they brought me a kind of condolences, after they had prudently made clear that in reality the chances were really very low that they would be still alive. A few days later an official church service was held in Rome that was midway between a commemoration and an expression of hope, a prayer that they would be still alive. I was sitting at the front row of the Church, along with my aunts and uncles and cousins, the Ambassador and the Legate, another associate from the Embassy, a representative of the Crown and one from the Pope. But although I appreciated their presence, I felt actually not involved. It was too official and too formal. I was happy it was over, as I had another perception of ‘mourning’. I just had been wondering all the time what was the sense of ‘theology’ in all this, and what could religion help against such a catastrophe. Nothing! No Ambassador, or Papal or Ecclesiastic Legate could bring my family back, by fulfilling their official duties!
Meanwhile, I had also heard that the King had appointed a successor for my father in Rome. This meant that I could no longer stay in the villa. With the help of my cousin Robert, the removal was organized. I returned to France, to Compiègne, my birthplace, where my father still owned a house. His sister, aunt Marguerite, helped me to accommodate, and she regularly visited me during the first weeks. It was then, I suddenly felt an overwhelming sense of loneliness. It was only then, that I fully realized the enormity of the disaster. They were gone, all! Disappeared! We would never be together again. They had vanished, together with all our common memories! A tremendous feeling of loss and emptiness overwhelmed me.
(to be continued)