Raiden
Condemned
I share you an electro sex game I prepared for myself during almost 1 year. I played it some months ago, but not really enjoyed it.
This long text is my confession about my shameful past.
The game is totaly insane and dangerous: DON'T TRY IT.
If you want to play with electrical pain just use e-stim hardware made for this case and use it wisely.
Some history:
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I've always been obsessed about belly buttons and nipples, playing with mine in some self-bondage. At 17, I found the base game on an internet forum that suggested to apply an electrical current between the belly button and the nipples. As I read what was proposed, my heart began to beat faster and faster as the game was appealing me. And against all comments talking about the dangerousity of it, I tried.
I soon found myself electrifying my navel and my nipples with an 12V AC electric current from a domestic charger and had a powerful orgasm with the special pain and fear it made me feel. It was a great, pleasurable experience, truly intense as I knew it could be very harmful for my body (and even becomes fatal).
Even though I'm a straight guy interested in girls, I got also a fetish about twink torsos, looking at shirtless young men pictures found on the internet. I was full of shame about my two secrets. The shame grew and made me having difficulties to get or keep a girlfriend. I NEVER wanted to harm anybody (except me). I NEVER considered myself gay, as my fetish was only about pictures of growing strong torsos that can remind me mine.
I was trapped by the game and the pleasures it gave me. I played it approx. twice a month, sometimes more, little by little exploring, varying everything that can be: power, more or less salted water, belt around the chest, tried DC current (inverting it was OMG). I was getting some habits practicing the game, scenarios of judgment and sentence about my shameful secrets, playing with electric timers (viewing or not the countdown), sometimes restrained. It always remained a single, simple constant: my belly navel and my nipples were the only inputs to my body.
I was the subject of my dangerous experimentations. Thinking about my fragile navel and nipples been electrified and burned in pain made me so hot at any time, anywhere. The best moments were finding the idea, then preparing the game, and then waiting for the pain to come, helpless. I was like hypnotized, away, ready to endure my punishment.
During the game, I loved to look at twink torsos, appreciating the great variety of all those wonderful belly buttons and nipples, enjoying that my torso was one of them. When timers were involved, being busy to look at these perfect body details, hardly worshiping them as I knew that my electrical sentence will soon come was so pleasurable to me.
I knew the huge risks of domestic electricity, even reduced by a charger, but this just added intensity to the experiences. Ignoring the huge risks, daring myself, I sometimes used a timer without even testing the settings at first. I was feeling myself as a subject body tested against pain. That was my sentence for being obsessed, trapped by the game and by such body parts on such beautiful torsos.
When hardly electrified, my belly knot bulged a little, my nipples became hard and warm, and often, they peeled as they were burned. I enjoyed so badly playing the game, but that was toxic for my mind and really dangerous for my health: one time, my right nipple was bleeding for 3 days (from the little tip hole), an other time it was my navel that oozed for some days. I even electrified myself with a timer set to 3AM for a long shock of 1 minute (couldn't set less) while restrained, spreadeagled, asleep in my bed (I was 20). Some of my experiments severely injured me. However, I always returned to the game as it gave me huge pleasure and very intense orgasms, sometimes making 1 or 2 months breaks.
At 23 I broke up with a girlfriend I was truly in love with, big crush of mine, because I had lot of shame about my habits, thus inducing erectile disfunction. As I wanted only to live a normal life, I decided then to take care of myself. Seeking help from a psy was a good starting point. I told him what I did to myself ("injuring myself" and the torso fetish, no more) and drawbacks I got from it. That was a liberation. I started to take care of my body and my mind.
Soon, I started a nofap reset which saved me from this insane game. I was doing my reset with some liberty, as I wanted to get this nofap habit for life. I allowed myself to jerk off on softcore normal girls pics once a week. But after some time, I felt the need to prepare one last great electro game for me, to end definitely with this shit. I prepared it during 1 year.
After playing it at 24, I was sort of healed. My shameful fetish was gone. Some times after, I got my girlfriend that I love so much. Having sex with a girl you love, share careful, mystic moments with her (and lick her navel) is so great, complete, joyful, human, contrary to my mindfucked past. So I thank God for being alive AND for getting me out of this, now respecting myself.
I searched during a long time the right place to post my confessions. Writing and sharing these is the very last step of my recovery.
The Preparation:
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I repeat myself: DON'T TRY IT.
If you want to play with electrical pain just use e-stim hardware made for this case and use it wisely.
The game idea is making electricity pass through the torso, entering it by the navel and by the nipples. So, one charger wire is doubled, each ends having bare metal for 1 centimeter or less. They go on two wet cotton pads, cut at dimension, placed over the nipples. The second wire goes in the belly button, its 1 or 2 millimeters bare tip directly in contact with the knot. This metallic tip can be tailored to suit any taste. Many adhesive tapes made each electrodes stay in place. A belt can also be used around the chest to press on the nipples electrodes, making a better contact, especially when contracting the chest. Often, and always when testing new hardware, I prepared only the chest, as slowly inserting the navel electrode allowed me to gradually assess the current power.
For my last experimentation, I found an electric charger with an hard output of 24V AC 1A. While testing it on me, I simply couldn't insert the electrode in my belly button. Contrary to hardware I had used in the past, it gave me unbearable pain, even though the navel wire tip was only touching the entrance of my belly button. As I knew that when the tip is right in contact with the navel knot, the surge would be multiplied, I first thought that this one was too powerful for me. But with time I found great the idea to get very short but very harsh electrical shocks.
I wanted to take one last hard punishment, but without any control: I will be spreadeagled bound to my bed, while a computer gives me instructions and applies me the shocks. It will also show me torsos pictures to look at on a screen placed 1 meter above my head.
It takes me many time to learn how to do such computer program. Controlling the electric relay switches and getting the computer to talk were great challenges for me, but with time, working on it each days, I succeeded.
Mechanics were simple: 2 electrical relay control the output (relays make characteristic sound when switched, tchack). For the current to pass, each 2 relays must be switched to ON. So, when R1 relay switches ON, nothing happens. When the second relay, R2, switches ON, the shock is applied. Then, the program just wait the wanted time and tell both relays to switch OFF. So it can apply me shocks of any duration.
The program will get a random duration for the shock to apply, between 100 and 900 milliseconds. It also get random times between talks and waits. For each shock, the program will draws one bonus (or not): doubled time (20%), two shocks (20%), long wait (25%), short wait (15%), no shock duration given (35%), shock duration given just before the shock (35%), surprise (9%, not announced), fury mode of multiple 0.5 or 1 second shocks giving 2 3 or 4 seconds in total (9%), execution by a single 6 seconds shock (3%).
6 shocks like that for one game. Some statistics gave me an average of 5.3 seconds of electrical pain in total. As the current will be very painful, that was OK for me.
The computer will give me instructions and informations with a synthetic female voice : "Tighten up", "Worship", "Rest", "Long wait", "Unknown shock duration", ...
At each new shock R1 relay will switch ON, tchack, and a new random torso picture is displayed above me. Instructions are then given always following the same logic (except with some bonus): the machine orders me to tighten up, wait a random time, then orders me to worship the picture, wait again a random time, and then the shock is applied by R2, tchack. At the shock end, a random time to rest will be given (between 5 and 40 seconds).
I prepared also a mouse to control the program. With the wheel, I can select stoppable mode or unstoppable mode. Also a test shock (of 3 milliseconds) can be triggered with right clicks.
I was really proud of my creation.
When everything was ready, I gave myself an entire sunday to play my scenario. Using the entire morning for to setup everything. It was difficult to make the screen above my head stay in place. Some days before, I cropped all pictures to get only a nice view to the torsos with great quality and details. I was becoming very hot and warm during the preparation. A one last minute fantasy made me oil my belly button to allow the navel electrode to move more easily in it. And fortunately, I hadn't salted the water used to wet the cotton pads.
I can tell you all my experience as I recorded two videos of it (one of my entire body, one of my right foot sole).
I found myself standing still near the bed, bare nude, looking at all this setup ready to restrain me and punish me in the hard way. I touched my nipples to feel them one last time before the game begins. They became hard as I realized what was coming.
I first bound my legs spread to the bed base, put the nipple pads on, wires, tapes, belt. This took me time. I placed then the third wire into my bellybutton, played a little with it to feel it deep inside, tapes. I breathed a little then launched the test shock with no real fear, click click, tchack tchack. For sure the three electrodes were all good. It was a really hot, enjoyable sensation. The short test shock was not painful at all, but it made me contract my chest, making me fear the full experience. I bound then my arms spread, with two little screwgates joining the straps around my wrists to another two around the bed base. So it will be difficult to release myself but not impossible. I launched other test shocks many more times (17) for fun and release some stress.
I waited a bit more than 6 minutes, getting very warm as I knew my body being ready to receive its punishment.
This long text is my confession about my shameful past.
The game is totaly insane and dangerous: DON'T TRY IT.
If you want to play with electrical pain just use e-stim hardware made for this case and use it wisely.
Some history:
--------------
I've always been obsessed about belly buttons and nipples, playing with mine in some self-bondage. At 17, I found the base game on an internet forum that suggested to apply an electrical current between the belly button and the nipples. As I read what was proposed, my heart began to beat faster and faster as the game was appealing me. And against all comments talking about the dangerousity of it, I tried.
I soon found myself electrifying my navel and my nipples with an 12V AC electric current from a domestic charger and had a powerful orgasm with the special pain and fear it made me feel. It was a great, pleasurable experience, truly intense as I knew it could be very harmful for my body (and even becomes fatal).
Even though I'm a straight guy interested in girls, I got also a fetish about twink torsos, looking at shirtless young men pictures found on the internet. I was full of shame about my two secrets. The shame grew and made me having difficulties to get or keep a girlfriend. I NEVER wanted to harm anybody (except me). I NEVER considered myself gay, as my fetish was only about pictures of growing strong torsos that can remind me mine.
I was trapped by the game and the pleasures it gave me. I played it approx. twice a month, sometimes more, little by little exploring, varying everything that can be: power, more or less salted water, belt around the chest, tried DC current (inverting it was OMG). I was getting some habits practicing the game, scenarios of judgment and sentence about my shameful secrets, playing with electric timers (viewing or not the countdown), sometimes restrained. It always remained a single, simple constant: my belly navel and my nipples were the only inputs to my body.
I was the subject of my dangerous experimentations. Thinking about my fragile navel and nipples been electrified and burned in pain made me so hot at any time, anywhere. The best moments were finding the idea, then preparing the game, and then waiting for the pain to come, helpless. I was like hypnotized, away, ready to endure my punishment.
During the game, I loved to look at twink torsos, appreciating the great variety of all those wonderful belly buttons and nipples, enjoying that my torso was one of them. When timers were involved, being busy to look at these perfect body details, hardly worshiping them as I knew that my electrical sentence will soon come was so pleasurable to me.
I knew the huge risks of domestic electricity, even reduced by a charger, but this just added intensity to the experiences. Ignoring the huge risks, daring myself, I sometimes used a timer without even testing the settings at first. I was feeling myself as a subject body tested against pain. That was my sentence for being obsessed, trapped by the game and by such body parts on such beautiful torsos.
When hardly electrified, my belly knot bulged a little, my nipples became hard and warm, and often, they peeled as they were burned. I enjoyed so badly playing the game, but that was toxic for my mind and really dangerous for my health: one time, my right nipple was bleeding for 3 days (from the little tip hole), an other time it was my navel that oozed for some days. I even electrified myself with a timer set to 3AM for a long shock of 1 minute (couldn't set less) while restrained, spreadeagled, asleep in my bed (I was 20). Some of my experiments severely injured me. However, I always returned to the game as it gave me huge pleasure and very intense orgasms, sometimes making 1 or 2 months breaks.
At 23 I broke up with a girlfriend I was truly in love with, big crush of mine, because I had lot of shame about my habits, thus inducing erectile disfunction. As I wanted only to live a normal life, I decided then to take care of myself. Seeking help from a psy was a good starting point. I told him what I did to myself ("injuring myself" and the torso fetish, no more) and drawbacks I got from it. That was a liberation. I started to take care of my body and my mind.
Soon, I started a nofap reset which saved me from this insane game. I was doing my reset with some liberty, as I wanted to get this nofap habit for life. I allowed myself to jerk off on softcore normal girls pics once a week. But after some time, I felt the need to prepare one last great electro game for me, to end definitely with this shit. I prepared it during 1 year.
After playing it at 24, I was sort of healed. My shameful fetish was gone. Some times after, I got my girlfriend that I love so much. Having sex with a girl you love, share careful, mystic moments with her (and lick her navel) is so great, complete, joyful, human, contrary to my mindfucked past. So I thank God for being alive AND for getting me out of this, now respecting myself.
I searched during a long time the right place to post my confessions. Writing and sharing these is the very last step of my recovery.
The Preparation:
--------------
I repeat myself: DON'T TRY IT.
If you want to play with electrical pain just use e-stim hardware made for this case and use it wisely.
The game idea is making electricity pass through the torso, entering it by the navel and by the nipples. So, one charger wire is doubled, each ends having bare metal for 1 centimeter or less. They go on two wet cotton pads, cut at dimension, placed over the nipples. The second wire goes in the belly button, its 1 or 2 millimeters bare tip directly in contact with the knot. This metallic tip can be tailored to suit any taste. Many adhesive tapes made each electrodes stay in place. A belt can also be used around the chest to press on the nipples electrodes, making a better contact, especially when contracting the chest. Often, and always when testing new hardware, I prepared only the chest, as slowly inserting the navel electrode allowed me to gradually assess the current power.
For my last experimentation, I found an electric charger with an hard output of 24V AC 1A. While testing it on me, I simply couldn't insert the electrode in my belly button. Contrary to hardware I had used in the past, it gave me unbearable pain, even though the navel wire tip was only touching the entrance of my belly button. As I knew that when the tip is right in contact with the navel knot, the surge would be multiplied, I first thought that this one was too powerful for me. But with time I found great the idea to get very short but very harsh electrical shocks.
I wanted to take one last hard punishment, but without any control: I will be spreadeagled bound to my bed, while a computer gives me instructions and applies me the shocks. It will also show me torsos pictures to look at on a screen placed 1 meter above my head.
It takes me many time to learn how to do such computer program. Controlling the electric relay switches and getting the computer to talk were great challenges for me, but with time, working on it each days, I succeeded.
Mechanics were simple: 2 electrical relay control the output (relays make characteristic sound when switched, tchack). For the current to pass, each 2 relays must be switched to ON. So, when R1 relay switches ON, nothing happens. When the second relay, R2, switches ON, the shock is applied. Then, the program just wait the wanted time and tell both relays to switch OFF. So it can apply me shocks of any duration.
The program will get a random duration for the shock to apply, between 100 and 900 milliseconds. It also get random times between talks and waits. For each shock, the program will draws one bonus (or not): doubled time (20%), two shocks (20%), long wait (25%), short wait (15%), no shock duration given (35%), shock duration given just before the shock (35%), surprise (9%, not announced), fury mode of multiple 0.5 or 1 second shocks giving 2 3 or 4 seconds in total (9%), execution by a single 6 seconds shock (3%).
6 shocks like that for one game. Some statistics gave me an average of 5.3 seconds of electrical pain in total. As the current will be very painful, that was OK for me.
The computer will give me instructions and informations with a synthetic female voice : "Tighten up", "Worship", "Rest", "Long wait", "Unknown shock duration", ...
At each new shock R1 relay will switch ON, tchack, and a new random torso picture is displayed above me. Instructions are then given always following the same logic (except with some bonus): the machine orders me to tighten up, wait a random time, then orders me to worship the picture, wait again a random time, and then the shock is applied by R2, tchack. At the shock end, a random time to rest will be given (between 5 and 40 seconds).
I prepared also a mouse to control the program. With the wheel, I can select stoppable mode or unstoppable mode. Also a test shock (of 3 milliseconds) can be triggered with right clicks.
I was really proud of my creation.
When everything was ready, I gave myself an entire sunday to play my scenario. Using the entire morning for to setup everything. It was difficult to make the screen above my head stay in place. Some days before, I cropped all pictures to get only a nice view to the torsos with great quality and details. I was becoming very hot and warm during the preparation. A one last minute fantasy made me oil my belly button to allow the navel electrode to move more easily in it. And fortunately, I hadn't salted the water used to wet the cotton pads.
I can tell you all my experience as I recorded two videos of it (one of my entire body, one of my right foot sole).
I found myself standing still near the bed, bare nude, looking at all this setup ready to restrain me and punish me in the hard way. I touched my nipples to feel them one last time before the game begins. They became hard as I realized what was coming.
I first bound my legs spread to the bed base, put the nipple pads on, wires, tapes, belt. This took me time. I placed then the third wire into my bellybutton, played a little with it to feel it deep inside, tapes. I breathed a little then launched the test shock with no real fear, click click, tchack tchack. For sure the three electrodes were all good. It was a really hot, enjoyable sensation. The short test shock was not painful at all, but it made me contract my chest, making me fear the full experience. I bound then my arms spread, with two little screwgates joining the straps around my wrists to another two around the bed base. So it will be difficult to release myself but not impossible. I launched other test shocks many more times (17) for fun and release some stress.
I waited a bit more than 6 minutes, getting very warm as I knew my body being ready to receive its punishment.