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Torture and execution fetish?

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In my earliest memories, imagining myself being tortured had a calming effect so reliable, I almost always used it to fall asleep. Not to be too boring (!religion mention warning!) but I was surrounded by imagery of torture and suffering from a super young age, not just j*sus but also Joan of Arc's burning was a big one. I also read many books about torture in my early years, there's a lot of extremely vivid, graphic imagery in books about Chr****n martyrs.

All that changed when I became an atheist. I finally allowed myself to see the eroticism. I finally admitted it was me who wanted to be crucified, nobody else. My body on display, writhing, suffering, in agony. It was all clear and I left the guilt and shame of it behind.

Sex, pain, humiliation, shame...all of these things are connected to the sensitivity of the genitalia and societal demand to hide it. Nothing could be more fucked up and obvious than targeting it, exposing it, and displaying it. And we human animals are truly monsters, capable of violence of all kinds. The best we can do is admit it's arousing and keep it safe and sane when we play or make art about our fantasies.
Very well put!!
 
There are 12 pages of answers to this question on

Crucifixion And You: How Did The Idea Start?

including mine, plenty of answers there, a few start off religious-themed, but most aren't.
Noooooooo!!!!! Hahahah. :)

I am very aware of that page lol.

I did this one to seperate the feelings. Religion has a lot to do with it for sure (even for me i went to a C of E school). But thats exactly why i created this thread to spark an answer that wasnt just "jesus on a cross." I feel that answer wholly unsatisfactory...
 
I did this one to seperate the feelings. Religion has a lot to do with it for sure (even for me i went to a C of E school). But thats exactly why i created this thread to spark an answer that wasnt just "jesus on a cross." I feel that answer wholly unsatisfactory...
Jesus Christ has kept me away from a crucifixion fetish for decades, because as an atheist, I associated crucifixion too much with religion.

Once that prejudice put aside, I discovered one more great dark fantasy!:rolleyes:
 
I got turned on by spanking at a very young age. And around the same time I started watching more movies witch had damsel in distress elements, and I remember wanting them to suffer and die in distress, and not be rescued by the hero.
I wrote a heroic story starring myself and my brother where our crushes were captured and we heroically rescued them, but we only got there in time for his as my crush had been slowly tortured to death. I remember my brother being totally baffled that I let that happen in the story and I told him it was for greater tragedy, but in reality I was just sexually excited at the idea of the girl I liked naked and in pain. I voraciously read anything I could about history to find ideas of tortures and executions (yup, not mentioning religion here!) so the crux and burning at the stake became fast fetishes.
Once I was old enough to have orgasms, suffering women became a major part of it. To this day, the more beautiful someone is, the more beautiful a body part is, the more I want to hurt it. And I've been lucky to have a few women and men in my life who shared my interest from the submissive perspective.

Though, I have to say, THIS group massively increased the amount of "..... to death" I like haha
This is exactly what i mean!!

I had the exact same fantasies/games (except i am the gal that is not saved and not the guy who falis to save her. Obviously the female to male roles are differant).

It did and still does excite me soooo much!!
 
I think a combination of fascinations and excitements that began to emerge from about 9 years - with being a hunted animal, with being naked, with being in some kind of bondage and 'having things done to me' - while it may emerge in many different forms (and often be suppressed) I think it's a very deep-rooted part of being female, going back to when we were 'hunted animals' pursued by the males.
 
Sorry to be incredibly boring.....but my crux kink was started by coming across a full-colour statue/shrine of a "certain" Middle-Eastern,Spanish-sounding gentleman nailed to a wooden cross,wearing a rather fetching white loincloth.... which reminded me of a loose misshapen mini skirt.
I'd just reached puberty,shyly discovering those nice,shapely creatures,called Girls,and looking at pictures of Ancient Egyptian slaves,(etc) and illustrations of medieval torture, kind of rather piqued my sexual awakening.
But I was imagining it the Women being sexually exploited,not Men...
Hope this doesn't come across as being TOO perverse ?? ;)
Gladly my masturbatory fantasies did not involve anything like kids or animals.
(Usually of a semi-consensual hetero,or bisexual nature...)
 
This is exactly what i mean!!

I had the exact same fantasies/games (except i am the gal that is not saved and not the guy who falis to save her. Obviously the female to male roles are differant).

It did and still does excite me soooo much!!
I had a really strong moral code at the time (ok I still do, it's just different now) so I was never a participant in my fantasies. Evil people committed the acts, I merely watched and enjoyed too much!

I think the historical that made me UNDERSTAND that this was a sexual need was reading about the death of Hypatia in a science book.

I think a combination of fascinations and excitements that began to emerge from about 9 years - with being a hunted animal, with being naked, with being in some kind of bondage and 'having things done to me' - while it may emerge in many different forms (and often be suppressed) I think it's a very deep-rooted part of being female, going back to when we were 'hunted animals' pursued by the males.
BRING BACK GIRL HUNTING :jump1::jump1::jump1::jump:
 
For me this is part of a long trail that started with human sacrifices and similar deaths in films. A human tied naked or nearly so to an altar, to die unwillingly much of the time.
A tarzan movie where prisoners were tied spreadeagled to a pair of trees and the ropes holding the tress were cut. Result the prisoner torn apart to cheers from the tribe.
Conan was a great film , I loved the snake sacrifice and the great kitchen and human butchery scene as well. The naked bodies hung up and held over boiling vats.
Clash of the Titans, the man burned alive tied to a stone pillar in the town square. I am surprised that got past the censors, as he is obviously naked and has a raging erection.

I love any bdsm/cruel/unusual death scenes, done to both sexes, especially with nudity. I can imagine it being done to me, as a victim with a cheering crowd who only care about watching a painful death.
I would love to be the executioner/torturer. I would also like being a slave or servant ordered to torture/rape/kill the victim. I would have no sympathy, it's my life or theirs.
I like things done to a couple as they have sex, such as a hanging or lying under a guillotine and losing their heads as the man cums. Again loud cheers from the watching crowds. A woman beheading a man or slitting his throat as he cums inside her is a great scene. Happy days!
 
For me this is part of a long trail that started with human sacrifices and similar deaths in films. A human tied naked or nearly so to an altar, to die unwillingly much of the time.
A tarzan movie where prisoners were tied spreadeagled to a pair of trees and the ropes holding the tress were cut. Result the prisoner torn apart to cheers from the tribe.
Conan was a great film , I loved the snake sacrifice and the great kitchen and human butchery scene as well. The naked bodies hung up and held over boiling vats.
Clash of the Titans, the man burned alive tied to a stone pillar in the town square. I am surprised that got past the censors, as he is obviously naked and has a raging erection.

I love any bdsm/cruel/unusual death scenes, done to both sexes, especially with nudity. I can imagine it being done to me, as a victim with a cheering crowd who only care about watching a painful death.
I would love to be the executioner/torturer. I would also like being a slave or servant ordered to torture/rape/kill the victim. I would have no sympathy, it's my life or theirs.
I like things done to a couple as they have sex, such as a hanging or lying under a guillotine and losing their heads as the man cums. Again loud cheers from the watching crowds. A woman beheading a man or slitting his throat as he cums inside her is a great scene. Happy days!
Seems like a nice boy..... ;)
 
I... honestly can't remember, it was so long ago. I mean, there was probably a time when I didn't? And it's true certain books unintentionally helped me on my way - but I think I was drawn to those parts of them by my tastes, rather than vice versa.


I do think that some parts led me to others. Probably one of the earliest was enjoying seeing people in handcuffs, chains or jail - and it's not much of a step then to slavery and the whip. The rest probably grew outwards by association - for instance, before I came to this site I didn't really think of crucifixion. But some basics remain - indignity and shame, pain and suffering, and the humanity which shines through that.
 
For as long as I can remember, I have been sexually attracted to torture, always from a sadistic viewpoint, never as a victim. Despite being bombarded with images of "the" crucifixion from a very early age (religious education), crucifixion alone doesn't do it for me. My sadistic eroticism was unlikely to be derived from these never ending images because, quite frankly, the idea of JC on a cross bored me.
Although I enjoy the use of the crucifix in torture scenes, to me the cross is a means of (very painfully) constraining the victim while her body is subjected to ever more brutal tortures.
I get particular erotic satisfaction from the fantasy of women torturers. (I refer to them as torturesses, although it's probably just a word I made up.) And their victims are always other women. When I indulge myself in these fantasies, sex and sadism are indistinguishable. I don't know why these are linked, or why I orgasm while indulging in these fantasies but, for me, the link between (female) torture and sexual arousal is something I have lived with since childhood.
 
...I think it's a very deep-rooted part of being female, going back to when we were 'hunted animals' pursued by the males.
BRING BACK GIRL HUNTING :jump1::jump1::jump1::jump:
This reminded me of the "girl catch" game depicted in the Gorean saga. There are some elements that I like about Gor and others that I don't. Thankfully, the girl catch game belongs to the former category. :)

For me this is part of a long trail that started with human sacrifices and similar deaths in films... I can imagine it being done to me, as a victim with a cheering crowd who only care about watching a painful death.
This feels interesting to me. In a different thread, I talked how I'm not into tortures that involve excessive pain or death because I don't like to imagine myself as a victim in such a scene. Some other members explained to me that they can enjoy it because they always see it from the torturer's, or an observer's perspective rather than that of the victim's.

I thought that made sense and moved on. But now I see that at least some people can see such sort of a fantasy from the victim's eyes and still enjoy it, it got me curious again.

So, would you mind if I ask you how can you do it? I mean, identifying yourself with a victim who's going through the most excruciating agony (e.g. limbs getting torn apart, as you mentioned) and still draw some sexual pleasure from it?

In my case, I cringe when I remember the sensation I received when I accidentally cut my finger with paper. So my mind is overwhelmed with a thought of the immensely greater pain if I imagine my leg to be torn off from my body, for instance, to leave any room for noticing the erotic aspect of it.

Of course, I don't intend to be judgemental about it. But as a person who more often imagine myself as a victim of such a fantasy than otherwise, and also as someone who have difficulty in enjoying crucifixion fantasies (which happens to be the main theme of this place) for the same reason, I feel interested to understand how it works for other people who can enjoy it.

Still, please feel free to ignore my question if it makes you uncomfortable to answer.
 
My theory is that pain and pleasure emotion are controlled by the same part of the human brain circuitry.

Some scientist have come to the same conclusion it seems:https://news.harvard.edu/gazette/story/2002/01/pleasure-pain-activate-same-part-of-brain/

P.S. Hornet is not not a scientist just a retired mechanic.....
This is totally true and you're right. Not a scientist myself either, just a student, but i have read about this a lot because it's... well, helpful to understand myself. The neurochemical pathways of pain and pleasure are very closely related, as well as the areas of the brain handling them. While obviously brains are incredibly complex systems that interact with the outside and self-interact with themselves in wildly sophisticated, non-linear and not-immediately-obvious ways, it is positively known that the pain-reward (pleasure) system works like a multi-beam balance / scales of sorts involving at least all these common areas, as confirmed by deep brain stimulation and neuroimaging and often published in top peer-reviewed scientific journals:

brain_pain_pleasure.jpg

Scientists don't really understand how does it work exactly (yet) because we're talking about billion-year evolutionary complexity here, so it's going to take a little while. However, as you can see, they've been able to confirm that it works in that way and are already studying it. It is believed that the "fulcrum of the balance" is the natural opioid system, and possibly the dopamine system too (yeah, our brains are full of all kinds of funny drugs that no dealer can provide :D ), and specifically the μ-opioid receptor agonists / antagonists. Living in a future world where this is fully understood and, huh, commoditized, would be quite interesting! :p

Nature - A common neurobiology for pain and pleasure
 
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