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Waiting Part 3

He’d paid for me until 1.00am the next morning but an important part of my challenge was that I would continue to work in the main restaurant. He told me he’d arranged with my boss to alternate me in 20 minute sessions between serving real customers and serving him in the private room. It was very important for me to watch the clock and be where I was supposed to be on time. The clock was running now, at 7.06pm. There were no friends in the play room, I would be his alone. Then he showed me the contents of his case and I knew how much he wanted me for himself.

Out in the restaurant, while I was trying to work, I would suffer something called a Tickling Truman. I can’t afford dedicated sex toys which is why mine are all home made lash ups. Tonight I would get to experience what all the fuss was about. We’d talked about it, I’d googled it and I knew it was more than a vibrator. It featured lateral contacts through which it would deliver an adjustable programme of electric shocks while inside me, and presumably while vibrating. He put it down on the table after his matter of fact, technical description of it and I tried to stroke it with my fingers to see what it felt like. He playfully slapped my hand away. “No, you don’t touch it.” he told me.

I didn’t touch the Eroscillator either. This would be used on me in the playroom. It was “engineered” in Switzerland. It was different to an ordinary vibrator and so excessively expensive I’d never heard of it. At least one of its multitude of attachments would inevitably blow my head off, but I must resist. “Don’t you dare come!” he said, like that, in the way I’d told him I’d ache to come if he used that tone of voice. I remembered how well he knew me.

To prevent me interfering with being tortured by the Eroscillator, I would be roped or chained variously to any of the anchor points around the room, on the table or the sofa. “I might fuck you.” he said, using another tone of voice to imply I wouldn’t be interfering with that either. I must have looked surprised, we hadn’t talked about that on line, ever. “You answered yes.” he pointed out.

By then the time was 7.13pm, 7 minutes from the end of my first playroom session, when I would have to leave with the Tickling Truman inside me. He told me to remove my tack pad and my original knickers and select a pair robust enough to stop the TT falling out. If it did I couldn’t pick it up, not being allowed to touch it. God help me if I returned to the play room empty! “You’re not kidding are you?” I asked.

There were always these little details, points of procedure intended to trip me up, humour in the serious business of keeping me in my place. I turned to sort through the pile of my own underwear he’d provided for me while he lubed up the TT.

I picked a stretchy black thong and put it on, 7.17pm. “Bend over the table please.”

He told me both its vibrating and shock programmes would initially run on minimum power settings. I worried that it would stick out too far, it was too long and anyone in the restaurant would see it. I hardly heard him explain that the settings would change at his discretion later, because I was panicking over facing normal customers looking like a porn whore. I would have it inserted for a cumulative time period of two hours maximum during the evening he told me, technically. “Got that?” he asked.

My heart was pounding so hard I couldn’t hear him over the noise of my pulse in my ears. I put my hands palms down on the table to steady myself against him pushing the TT into me and felt him ping my thong in place over it. I felt it pushed deeper by the tension in the fabric. Then it came alive when he switched it on but thankfully my stressed breathing was louder. The sensations were easily bearable, I’d get used to those. The worst part of it was that it was there at all, an awful and obvious intrusion. “Go on, get up, get to work.” he said and held the door open for me. “See you in 20 minutes and don’t be late.” 7.20pm, exactly.

He shut me out of the playroom. The feeling of exposure and loneliness when he closed the door behind me was intense. I don’t think I’ve ever felt that naked although physically I wasn’t. What did he expect me to do now? I felt lost, I wanted to cry. Should I hide for 20 minutes? I thought seriously about risking that but what if he checked up on me? It wasn’t an option, it was certain to be a punishable offence. It occurred to me that naked might be defined as being uncovered sexually, to have your dirty secrets displayed for others to judge? That’s how I felt.

To get to the restaurant it’s necessary to walk through the bar. Walk? Yeah right! I felt plugged by the machine inside me but conquered needing to throw up in panic and planned hiding behind the bar. I thought I’d pretend I was serving drinks, at least for as long as I could get away with it. Abandoning the quiet seclusion of the playroom doorway might have been one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. One small challenge at a time eh? Unfortunately my boss was already there, right where I’d planned to hide.

He noticed I was stressed but not why as I took a chance on being seen from the restaurant, passing in front of the bar on my way to the access hatch. Behind it he couldn’t see me below my waist, until I joined him. I stood side on so he could stare at my left leg, all stocking and thigh, my real disgrace hidden by it. “Wow, sexy!” he joked, “Is that for him in there?” Of course it was, as if I’d dress like this normally. “Don’t look at me!” I snarled but he couldn’t help it. “We should do this more often.” he joked. I thought “Fuck off!”

“Did he turn up alone?” I asked, meaning my tormentor. My boss nodded in the direction of the restaurant. A middle aged couple sat at one table opposite a young man and what looked like his girlfriend on a second. Between them, at the far end I could see a red headed woman in jeans, reading. Did my tormentor have an accomplice? I was sure he’d mentioned someone like her. Bastard! I wasn’t going to get away with anything!

“Has Vicky gone home?” I had to ask twice because my boss wanted to know who “that bloke“ was instead of answering me. He meant him who could make me wear skirts this short. “Is he a friend of yours?” “Sort of.” I admitted before I discovered Vicky had left, leaving the restaurant’s tables as my responsibility only. Bastard twice.

7.26pm. There’s a clock behind the bar. I caught my boss still looking at me when I checked it. “I’ve seen what’s in that room.” he said, as if that was a bad thing. “So?” I snapped. He asked me if I was a whore. Cleverly, I thought, I said “He’s paying you, not me!”

My boss wanted to know what the deal was, he wanted to talk to me about this interesting new aspect to my character which I’d been hiding. “How often do you do this sort of thing?" he asked with a grin on his face. Sooner or later he was going to find out it was worse than he thought anyway so I turned to face him. So he’d notice my knickers appeared to be stretched over something buried in my chuff. To make sure he did I let him watch me turn round. “I’m struggling OK?” I said, ”Leave me alone please, I’ll explain later.” I checked the clock again, 7.28pm, “Sorry, I gotta go.”

Well I had to. I knew I had to do something to make it look like I was trying to work, and I was faithfully suffering the crushing public humiliation I deserved. That is before I had to be back in the playroom. I tried to forget about what my boss thought of me and finding another job, and focused on the red head. I walked up to her table having crossed the restaurant with my hands crossed behind me under my arse, because danger would come from behind. “Excuse me, is there anything I can get you?” I asked her. How courageous am I?

She put her book down next to a note pad, a pen and the phone on her table and I noticed the book wasn’t in English. Before she looked at me she looked past me, at the two couples my appearance had just offended. Then she wordlessly beckoned me to come closer, watching my face, to enjoy the fear in my eyes? I was certain of who she was then. She looked down at my crotch and ordered me to lift my skirt with a flick of her hand. So I did. A second later she was in my underwear, probing my rose. She made me gasp in shock, indignant that she could be so brutally forward.

I felt like she was inspecting me, more so when she wrote 7.30 on her note pad with something in that foreign language. For some reason my nipples were important too and she reached up to feel for them through my shirt and bra. Did she feel I hadn’t enjoyed (suffered?) enough stimulation? I watched her reach between my thighs for the TT’s controls and felt it escalate. That made me gasp too, and fight to stand still. She seemed satisfied I was now adequately tested and picked up her phone to text something to someone, in the playroom I was sure.

For a while she was entertained by my squirming, watching me put up with the increased power. Then she dismissed me with another wave of her hand to attempt the return journey across the restaurant, this time towards the other tables’ appalled customers. My boss had watched me fascinated, and looked something like bewildered.

I thought I’d hide near the playroom door for the remainder of my time outside it but my boss followed me. “Have you got a vibrator in your snatch?” he asked, as horrified as he was interested. The TT was audibly purring now, on its new setting, and tingling me in waves. 7.38pm, I'd endure two minutes of stupid interrogation then.

“Do you get off on it, showing it off?” he asked. I told him to leave me alone. “Does it turn you on? You dirty cow!” I warned I’d slap him if he tried to touch me, because I thought he would. I put up with “C’mon, lets have a look.” from a crouching position and then “What’s he gonna do to you in there?” dirty cow that I was. I deflected a host of other lewd questions before 7.40pm saved me. He tried to peer round the door when I opened it but I slammed it shut in his face.

To be continued.............
 
Gynoid, part one, Kate.

I don’t think I am a lazy slob but my housemate Gemma does. That’s because our domestic priorities are different and to be honest she’s so straight it’s scary. She keeps all the packaging everything she buys comes in, reads all the instructions, the terms and conditions, and the safety warnings as if they’re carved in sone. She drives me nuts because we can’t just do anything without planning it for a month beforehand.

We tried splitting the house in two, to separate us as much as possible but she got pissed off with my dust blowing into her half and my “bacteria culture” infecting her half of the kitchen. One day she announced we were going to hire a gynoid. She’d looked into it and believed it would tidy up the house as fast as I could make a mess of it.

For a few days after its arrival it did. She downloaded the control app on her phone so she could show it round the house, programme in its various duties. Then she set it to automatic, enabling it to make its own decisions as to what needed doing. She would have to do this because only she understood how, apparently.

It was fantastic. I was able to relax even my unchallenging standards and simply let it do its thing. My housemate loved it. She became so relaxed and happy I agreed when she thought we should buy one. “It’s worth every penny!” she said.

One Sunday morning I cooked myself breakfast while my housemate slept, still in my dressing gown and fluffy slippers. She’d been off to a slow start at the weekends recently so I knew she wouldn’t mind. I splashed cooking oil all over the cooker, spilt coffee, burnt the frying pan into a crispy mess and threw it the sink with my greasy plate without a care in the world. “Right, where’s that bloody gynoid?” I thought.

Eventually I found it in my housemate’s bedroom. I didn’t want to disturb her and the only reason I risked it was not having found the gynoid anywhere else, so it had to be in there. Because it’s supposed to be automatic it plugs itself in when its battery goes flat but this morning it was lying on her bedroom floor, dead.

Trying to make as little noise as possible, I carefully dragged it out into the hallway thinking “My god this thing’s heavy!” and left her gently snoring as I closed the door behind me. I plugged in its charge unit and all its little LED lights came on so I didn’t think there was anything wrong with it. I only wondered why it had been in her bedroom momentarily, I had the Sunday paper to read.

Half an hour later I heard it move and thought “Oh good, it’ll wash up before she wants the kitchen.” I sat with my back to my pile in the sink and hardly looked up when the gynoid came in. It’s a machine, I don’t have to be polite to it do I? It walked round behind me as I carried on reading.

It picked me up out of my chair, lifting me by my armpits, and threw me forwards over the kitchen table. I instinctively tried to stop myself crashing tits down onto that with no real idea what was happening. My hands slid on the paper I’d been reading and I fell flat out.

My dressing gown was up my back so quickly I almost didn’t notice, because I was bewildered by how fast my feet were kicked apart after my chair had gone, somewhere.

0.7 seconds later I felt my hair pulled back and I reached up with both hands to prevent it, too confused to think straight. All I achieved was gifting the gynoid my arms, wrenched back by my wrists. I heard a metallic click and 1.3 seconds into the assault I was so distracted by the horror of being handcuffed I failed to stop first one ankle, at 1.8 seconds, then the other, at 2.1, being strapped to the table legs somehow.

“Gemma!” I screamed. I looked over my shoulder terrified. I was locked in place as the gynoid seemed to be doing something, attaching something to itself as it stood behind me. I couldn’t see what it was. “Gemma! Wake up!! Help me!!!” I wailed, so loud it hurt my throat.

Then I felt those smooth, plastic fingers between my legs, stroking the crotch of my knickers. “Gemma, please wake up!” I bawled, understanding at last what was happening.

The massaging became more earnest as I screamed “GEMMA!” over and over again. I was so overwhelmed by the speed and power with which I’d been subdued I dare not try to fight back and let the gynoid probe and manipulate me. Inevitably it worked its way inside my underwear.

“Oh Fuck, GEMMA!!”

She appeared in the kitchen doorway with her phone in her hand and a smug grin on her face. Her thumb was poised over the screen. I implored her to do something. I thought she’d pull it off me but she tapped her phone and it stopped, instantly.

“Didn’t you read the instructions?” she said, laughing at me because she knew I hadn’t. “It doesn’t just do housework and gardening you know.” she joked. Then in an ominous tone she told me she’d downloaded all sorts of sexy programmes, some were “wickedly kinky”.

“Wanna try one now? You deserve it!”

Gynoid, part two, Gemma.

I was half awake when I heard Kate scream and remembered through my hazy consciousness that I’d fallen asleep without switching the gynoid back to Maid. Sooner or later I knew I’d forget and smiled at the thought of having to admit why we really hired it, then I noticed it was missing. “GEMMA!” I heard, wailed in terror from the kitchen. I forced myself out of bed to find out what had happened. I couldn’t have planned it better.

Because I’m a lovely, forgiving person, as I have to be to live with Pig Face, I would never think of doing anything like this on purpose. The sight of Kate held down on our kitchen table by the gynoid was a delightful surprise. It had one hand on the middle of her back, pressing her onto her squishy breasts and the other seemed to be groping her genitals. “Please do something!” she pleaded as soon as she saw me. Fortunately I’d brought my phone, found the app and tapped Pause to stop it. “Get this fuckin’ thing off me” she cursed. I shouldn’t have but I laughed and thought actually, I don’t think I will.

If Kate had read the instructions she’d have known that this is not the standard house drudge option, this is the personal service model with built in accessories available at huge expense. It took me a while to figure out how to get the best out of it and only then did I believe it was worth the extra cost. That morning however I was certain of it. Was it an opportunity too good to miss? You bet!

A quick look round revealed the gynoid had used its restraint cuffs, usually stored in its belly compartment, to trap Kate securely and had already helped itself to her self respect. I pulled up a chair and sat down at the table beside her head, so I could talk to her face to face and show her how much trouble she was in on my phone. She looked up at me, all dark, panic stricken eyes through her scruffy black hair, her right temple resting on the table. I asked “Straight am I?”

She’d called me that as if she thought less of me for it. “I was kidding!” she cried, blaming me for misunderstanding. “I was only……….” she started to say but I snapped “Shut up you fat sow.” to stop her. I was only acting but she looked so beautifully horrified I didn’t feel guilty at all.

I told her I’d neglected to switch the gynoid back to the maid programme last night. “The thing is……..” I said, and explained that it was only necessary for digital household machinery, or digital anything, to be available on the open market for a few months before someone was bound to start writing dodgy software for it. “See this?” I asked, turning my phone round so Kate could look at the screen. It was a modified VR gaming programme which would turn our faithful house maid into a stealthy ninja warrior at the touch of a phone screen. “It can tie you in knots if I want.” I said. Kate swallowed the lump in her throat.

“OK, I get it, what do you want?” she asked nervously, as if trying to negotiate would do her any good. “I think I’d like to see you taught a lesson you won’t forget.” I replied, in an attempt at a malicious, sinister tone. “Oh C’mon!” she cried. I smiled at her. “You’re kidding right?” I shook my head. “Oh for fuck’s sake!” she cursed.

“Have you any idea……” I said, as if I’d been exasperated because she hadn’t, and complained about how I had to do everything round here. Yes we had the gynoid now but who researched it, who ordered it, who paid for it, who figured out how it worked. “You do bugger all!” I growled, “Have you any idea how that feels?” I asked. Neither yes or no is the right answer to that. Kate stared at me astonished, her mouth fallen open. “Well?” I barked at her.

“But Gemma, we’re friends!” she said, her voice pleading and uncertain. I could almost smell her fear! Was I loving this or what?

“Now then, what should I make it do to you?” I said as if thinking aloud. “Nothing!” she tried, sounding desperate, “I’m sorry, I really am, I won’t do it again I promise.” I asked “Do what again?” knowing she wouldn’t remember any particular failing. This was my point, she had no idea how irresponsible and selfish she’d been because she’d simply assumed I’d put up with her. I called her arrogant, not the right word really but I saw how precarious she felt knowing I thought that.

“It’s a personality thing then?” she asked, “I’m sorry, I’ll change, I see I have to now OK? I will, I promise.” she pleaded, so obviously just trying to get out of trouble it was funny. Even she laughed. “Please Gemma, I’m frightened.” she complained. “You will be!” I told her.

I held my phone so she could see it and showed her the paused gynoid control programme. “Here’s where you are now.” I said then tapped resume. Immediately she began squirming and wriggling, pulling at the cuffs round her wrists and ankles as the gynoid continued to assault her. “Stop it Gemma, please, can’t we talk?” Of course we could. “What’s the matter, it’s lubed you hasn’t it?” I joked, it does me! I knew it wasn’t hurting her. “What would you like to talk about?” I asked, not stopping it.

Her temper frayed then, “This isn’t fair!” she shouted, so I pretended I was angry too. “I’ll show you fair.” I snapped and made her understand she was suffering the preprogrammed series of events I enjoyed, because I programmed it. “It’s a machine, it’s stupid, it thinks you’re me.” I informed her. Then I scrolled down the rest of the programme so she could see how her future would pan out over the next two hours. “Two hours?” she whined and stared at my phone, astonished at my sense of fun. “Still think I’m straight?” I asked. Her eyes narrowed, her indignation beginning to build into fury.

“But,” I began, “You’re not going to get this.” I opened a new session page and watched her realise I was going to invent a new ordeal especially for her. “Would you like to be tied to that street light outside next doors front garden?” I asked. That was entirely possible. I showed her how I could select the particular wrestling hold in which the gynoid could drag her kicking and screaming, or trying to, out of the house and into the street.

Not so poor Kate was aghast at the range of restraints at its disposal, each one of which she would inevitably succumb to no matter how hard she fought. I’m almost ashamed to admit that I found her distress quite arousing, but not ashamed enough to stop me I dialling in the gynoid stripping her to her knickers before it tied her to the streetlight. If she was horrified by that, the awful, comprehensive and irresistible sexual humiliation, in public, I called up subsequently made her gasp in shock.

I pointed out the button which saved the entire session to the gynoid’s internal hard drive before I tapped it. “Do you understand what this means?” I asked her. Not with the gynoid distracting her she didn’t. I confirmed that if she ever pissed me off in the future, at the touch of a button, this would be hers.

“Got that?” I asked and paused the gynoid just long enough to let her tell me she had.

What lovely day we were going to have!
 
Waiting Part 4......


“Choose your underwear for the next 20 minutes please.” my Master told me, only a few seconds after I entered the playroom. This is what I would do on my return each time I was required to be here, in the same way. We didn’t have time for establishing different procedures every time, I had to make myself available quickly. I would understand as our evening unfolded why this was important he said.

He instructed me on line like this too, in the same sensible, matter of fact way which demanded my attention and seamless compliance. It makes me feel his authority when he’s confident and resolute. It’s a no nonsense way to be pushed around and he knows I need that. I placed my hands on the table, leaning over it as I’d done to have the TT pushed into me. This time I would have it eased out. Oddly I felt it stop vibrating and shocking me as if I had indeed become used to it. He slipped my thong off my arse to help me change.

I chose white knickers while he chose wrist and ankle cuffs. I noticed they were ready along with the chains and shackles I would be restrained by. Maybe, if we became a smooth, well practiced system later on, we’d have time for rope and knots but for now the spring loaded carabiners would secure me with instant simplicity.

As soon as I’d stepped into my new underwear he knelt to buckle my ankle cuffs on. The cuffs would stay on now, saving more time and adding to my humiliation outside in the restaurant. He told me he thought I’d enjoy that while I offered my wrists for their cuffs too.

By 7.44 they were chained to two of the three rings along one side of the table, one either side of me. My ankles were chained spread to the table legs. I faced him helpless. Then he picked up the eroscillator, already fitted with the attachment he thought most suitable for oscillating Her through the fabric of my knickers. We had work to do he said, to arouse me to the level he needed me at.

It’s necessary to explain here that he was familiar with my preference for masturbating in my underwear because for me there’s an important psychological aspect to the physical act of rubbing myself off. I think of my little pants as all I have left to protect me from the assault my imagination inflicts on me. I like to “lose” them at the critical moment. I realised as I watched him prepare to make me suffer the eroscillator that my underwear was a concession to excite me, he wanted me turned on, he would be when I was. We’d talked about that often. OK, I see what we’re doing now, I get it I thought. We had work do do because I wasn’t yet excited enough. I looked down, to watch his attempt to excite me further, unable to prevent it, or want to.

While he worked on Her, he told me I would need to think myself onto that plain of consciousness where the erotic power of the fear and dread I craved would thrill me in the way it did on line. I writhed and squirmed when he found the way to make me do that, while he explained how my accessibility, the way I’d opened myself and allowed him to know my thoughts, had led him to believe I wanted this.

I had been honest, I’d laid myself bare. It always made me want to touch myself at the thought of allowing him to control me psychologically. I loved the idea that I had nowhere to hide and that I was truly helpless. I’d been faithful, it was truth, I’d offered that to him. If I’d lied, he would soon find out. We had a mechanism in place to test me.

Her name was Inez, she was that red head in the restaurant, and yes, she had inspected me. I would allow her intrusion at some point during each of my sessions outside the playroom. It impressed him to know I already had but he was impressed less by her findings. Inez would need to check my sex organs and in particular Her who would betray me. He would know through her text messages how much work we had yet to do and in the subsequent playroom period, I would suffer it.

I looked up at him, shocked at the understanding that now he had me in real life, his point was to make me prove everything I’d led him to believe on line. If I was everything I said I was, this would be beautiful. He’d trapped me, I really did have nowhere to hide. “Do you see what we’re doing here?” he asked. I felt owned and responsible for it more profoundly than ever then. I tried tell him I was still reeling from the shock of meeting him and overwhelmed by being asked to perform for him. It was all too real, more so than I ever expected it to be. This wasn’t fair, he couldn’t expect me to be ready. He laughed at that. “You’ve had all week to think about it.” he said, “And a week ago you certainly were ready, you slut!” he joked. Of course it wasn’t fair, it was unreasonable and cruel, wasn’t that the point?

At some point before 1.00 am we would find out how willing I was to be truly owned, or was I simply a lightweight, an on line dreamer? Next time I walked out through the playroom door, I could dread that. Holy fuck, the thought of it!

If it hadn’t been 7.55pm and time to stop anyway I’d have been forced to beg him to stop oscillating me. He cut my knickers off with a knife, it’s faster, and inspected me himself to compare me with how Inez would find me later. She would select the TT power setting necessary according to her opinion but my Master thought we’d try alternative programmes. After the carabiners had been unhooked I assumed my “stuff Kate with hardware” pose and he inserted it. My black thong would go back on with it too. It buzzed once more, in short bursts of vibrations I would be unlikely to become accustomed to. This time it delivered my shocks in pulses, each one something of a surprise. Sensitive after the eroscillator I was affected more intensely. He saw that on my face. 8.00pm, “Go on, get out!”

This time I went straight for the bar. I wanted Inez to notice I was in public and willing to suffer the consequent humiliation for my full 20 minutes of exposure to it. At the same time I wanted to at least hope I’d get used to the TT before I faced anyone full frontal and behind the bar was perfect. I thought I’d do something noisy to attract her attention. Unfortunately I attracted my boss too.

He was doing that nauseating, fawning “Is everything alright sir?” thing he does over at the table where the young couple had been. It was taken by three smartly dressed men who I’m sure were just as irritated by my boss as everyone else is. I noticed the TT’s intermittent hum, although subdued, was still significantly conspicuous. Sometimes the shocks made me flinch. I dropped a stainless steel coffee machine attachment on the hollow cellar hatch causing a loud metallic clatter. Everyone looked up, including Inez. I picked up the coffee machine part before my boss reached me, while it was still safe to. “Oh you’re back out then?” he asked. It would have been funny to tell him I wasn’t.

As soon as he’d joined me behind the bar he checked my “snatch” for its vibrator. “I can hear that.” he said. He gleefully pointed out I was now wearing cuffs. “What are those for?” he asked, “Has he tied you up?” Yet more interrogation followed then he glanced over at the restaurant to make sure no one was looking before attempting to grab the bottom of my skirt. The noise of our scuffle made him back off. “You let her do it.” he said as if he thought I was fair game. He meant grope me, thinking that’s what Inez had done, he’d seen it. “I’ll let her do it again then!” I thought and fought my way past him, needing to peel him off me and parry his lunges between my legs. He wanted that vibrator badly.

I couldn’t stay trapped behind the bar with him, maybe I’d be safer out in the open, protected by our customer’s disgust? I stopped conversation between the three smart men by passing their table and walked up to Inez, stopping close to her so she could see my hands shake as I held my skirt up for her. She smiled, amused by my compliance and watched my face as she had previously. Out of puff from my tangle behind the bar and breathing through my fear I must have looked considerably more excited now. Behind me I heard my boss approach.

Slack jawed in amazement, he stood in stunned silence, gawping at me while Inez satisfied herself that this time, I was sexy scared. The thought of her touching me in front of my boss made sure I was. “No please, don’t, it’s not necessary.” I thought as she momentarily held the TT, but she thought it was. She adjusted it up and the next shock was harder, making me gasp.

“Oh what?” my boss exclaimed, “Turn it up high!” he cried. She ignored him, concentrating on gently teasing Her with one finger tip. I think she wrote it down on her note pad, at 8.07pm

My boss wanted to know if I was the subject of some pervy sex experiment. “C’mon, she’s my waitress!” he laughed, at Inez. “She doesn’t speak English.” I told him. I hoped the text Inez sent included her opinion of my boss too. He turned to the smart men “I’ve got no idea what they’re doing but let’s hope they keep doing it eh?” For a restaurant owner, I was an acute embarrassment. For a simple minded bloke I was ten birthdays and Christmas all at once. The three men just seemed embarrassed.

The TT wouldn’t let me ignore it. I couldn’t stand still. I stood by their table with my pad and pen, shaking, squirming, dripping in sweat and desperately trying to maintain the little there was left of my dignity. They’d been distracted by me and weren’t sure about what they’d like to eat yet. My boss told me to wait for them where I was. He thought his was the command I obeyed but I wanted to remain displayed for Inez and therefore my Master. My boss thought, as men, they would want to look at me too.

“Is that hard to cope with?” one of the men asked, obviously meaning the TT. It was. I think he figured out I was supposed to be trying to do that while I worked, as some form of challenge. “Can you let us in on the secret?” he asked. I chose to tell him it was complicated and leave it there rather than explain the scandalous truth. They’d noticed my cuffs too and the fact that they featured shackle loops. I’m not sure if him who asked me approved of my courage or felt sorry for me. I apologised for being so outrageously inappropriate and ruining their meal but they didn’t seem to mind.

I suffered the surreal experience of interested conversation with three strange men while my femininity was being mercilessly exploited. They wanted to know what the TT did, where I got from and even if I expected it to make me come. One of them raised an eyebrow when I told him it wasn’t mine, it had been imposed on me. They all enjoyed my breathy, confused description of it’s programmes and settings as far as I understood them. I felt brave, as wicked as hell and deliciously filthy in admitting I thought it might force me to come if it was turned up high enough. No I hadn’t tried that. “I’m not allowed to touch it.” I explained. That made them think, begging the question of who was. My boss tried to overhear as much as possible without appearing to be excessively intruding but found something else to do after a while.

8.17pm. I told them I had to go. My boss would have to take their order, an easier decision without me I was sure. “Are you coming back?” one of them asked. I was, in twenty minutes. After the awkward surprise of meeting me wore off he seemed intrigued, I wasn’t sure what his friends thought. They were polite enough not to tell me. Our restaurant must have seemed like a madhouse.

To be continued...............
 
Waiting Part 5......

The reason my boss disappeared was because he intended to intercept me on my way back into the playroom. He stood in front of the door, barring my way through. I might have had around thirty seconds left outside, no time to argue. He knew that, I saw him check his watch! “Get out of my way wanker!” didn’t help. “C’mon then slut, what y’ gonna do about it?” he taunted. There was something I could do.

My strategy was to catch his hands if I could. If I could get near enough while at the same time preventing him from getting near the TT, I might be able to kick the door or lump us against it as we fought. I hoped my Master would wonder what on earth was going on. He'd know I was in trouble and open the door for me before my boss’s determination to grab control of my vibrator overpowered me. If I let him take it I’d be punished for it, worse than for being late? I gambled that wouldn’t happen and took him on.

For a moment I forgot the waves of vibration and the pulsing shocks inside me. Driven by my determination to maintain my flawless obedience, I charged the door. Predictably my boss struck low.

I grabbed his right wrist with both my hands and held on as we both fell, spinning off balance into the door, rattling it on its hinges. He pinned me up against it, taking advantage of the opportunity to claw at my tits. I’m sure he’d wanted to do that since the day I started working there! I didn’t want to scream. If out in the restaurant they thought I was being attacked they might have intervened, a noble intention of course but misguided. I wanted this to be a part of my ordeal, my Master’s challenge, and the ugly reality of the restaurant’s perception definitely wasn’t. I snarled my venom quietly through gritted teeth as we wrestled, relishing the things I called my boss and the disgrace he cursed me with. “You fuckin filthy slag, I always knew you were a dirty whore!” he growled in my ear.

When the door opened I was leaning on it heavily and I fell backwards through it, knocking my Master out of the way. I didn’t see the exchange of glances between him and my boss or the door close, I just knew the money had changed hands to make the door a sacred barrier. I scrambled to my feet, ran for the table and slapped my hands down on it to demonstrate I knew I had to, 8.20pm plus? I checked the clock, it looked too close for comfort although comfort was something I would necessarily not be allowed. Panting like a race horse and exhausted I chose cord sided tanga knickers, noticing the toy boxes had been moved and the table was clear. Tickling Truman out, thong off, tangas on and “Climb on the table please, lay on your back.” all achieved by 8.22pm.

As he clipped the carabiners and the chains on my cuffs and fixed me spread eagled to the rings on the table’s sides, he confirmed that in here I was exclusively his. Out there, whatever happened to me was not his problem, it was mine. All (!) I had to do was make it back intact. Of course I knew that.

This time he ran his hands over me, gently squeezing and exploring my hot, sweaty body and of course he settled on my rose, outside my knickers for a while. My demon loved that, then he was in. The eroscillator’s chosen end this time was for bare flesh. He cut my bra off to experiment with my nipples. I would discover later that there was a point in destroying my clothing.

We didn’t oscillate my genitals for the whole session, just most of it. We negotiated a door concession. Next time I was sure fighting my way through it would be harder and I needed help. I begged him to be ready to let me in because I worried I wouldn’t have a free hand for the door handle. He’d still be inside so it was OK right? He smiled at me for wanting it to be.

Sometimes he held my head up and a water bottle to my lips so I could drink and I was profoundly grateful for that. I was grateful for the interruptions in eroscillator stimulation too. We talked about what we were doing, about how it turned him on to think of me struggling to cope with outside so I could present myself to him faithfully again, if I survived. He laughed at my reassurance I would. “Sure?” No, I wasn’t, it just felt good to promise him I’d try.

Was I enjoying it yet? Obviously She, my demon, was! I had to beg him not to try to make me come, it would have been easy. I wanted him to spare me the stress of resisting and the crushing guilt of failing. “You’ll come when I want.” he reminded me, “But you said no!” I reminded him back. Denial was for me, he hoped I realised that, another reason I should be grateful.

He knew I loved denial. On line he’d force me to come knowing I might not want to, I didn’t always feel like it and then it was arduous and always a matter of determined concentration. On the other hand he’d give me permission to beg, to satisfy himself I wanted to. She loved “No Kate, not this time.” No I wasn’t enjoying it. That’s not the right word at all, I was thrilled by not doing so, by accepting his control in spite of that. In here it made perfect sense, out there it felt wild. 8.35pm.

The table top was wet with condensation when I peeled myself off it. Tickling Truman fucked me again with yet another programme my Master thought we try, so Inez could decide how much power it needed upon her inspection later. They were in constant contact and it occurred to me my Master’s thrill was to deliberately not take part in my outside adventures, but rather to send me out to face them alone and think about my vulnerability.

Each time he did that my ability to cope was impaired by a further increment of disgrace. At 8.40pm I walked out with my self respect reduced not just by the TT and cuffs but by my breasts bare inside my damp shirt and my nipples on display. I wondered how hard this would get at the sight of the expression on my boss’s face. I knew how hard he’d be!

Those three smart men were then about to eat. I could hardly handle plates of customer’s food in the state I was in. My boss served them, he served everyone and as the evening wore on I was gradually excluded from my job as a waitress by the depravity I was forced to endure. I stood my ground, Inez recorded the conflict I provoked with my boss by refusing to be exiled to the beer cellar. Yes I would have been out of the sight of our respectable and politically sensitive clientele and that would have been good for him, but terrible for me. He stalked me like the predator I always knew he was, as if I’d now justified it, prowling round me whenever he could find an excuse. Out in the open he couldn’t attack me. “You took his money!” I spat at him, he’d sold me and it was no longer his place to complain how I was used.

Most of the people who came in looking forward to their comfortable evening out were shocked and dismayed that something like me could be happening in what had been such a “nice” establishment. They were couples mostly and the male half would be dragged out reluctantly agreeing with her that they would never return. I attracted a new breed of customer.

It only took one call from one punter for others like him to be called in, after the discovery that we were not the genteel, candle lit opportunity for romance we’d been yesterday anymore. “Remember that dark haired waitress, the one with the sense of humour? You’re not going to fuckin’ believe this!” I’m sure the text was accompanied by phone camera footage of my shame. By 10.00pm, we were rowdy with alcohol soaked blokes, bawdy and indecent and my old life was ruined, I’d be all over the internet now.

One of the smart men left me his business card as they left me to the wolves, no longer wanting to be a part of my self exhibition. He was the one who’d asked me the most questions, the one who seemed most comfortable with me and presumably the one who fancied seeing me again. I took it, not really sure if I should and tucked it in my shirt pocket just to be polite. Inez held the pack off. She became my sanctuary, simply because her quiet presence exuded incorruptible strength. Near her, I was safer.

Although my respite from it inside the playroom helped, by 10.00pm I’d had enough of the TT. 10.00 pm was my fifth session with it inside me and I longed to escape from the centre of attention it became. For my audience it seemed to define the filthy whore they thought of me as. I was certainly some sort of nymphomaniac wasn’t I, the subject of a fly on the wall porn shoot with hidden cameras maybe? Did they wonder which one of them was in it too, which was the stud who would would step up to the mark, tear the covers off his ripped torso and his nine inch girl killer and fuck me out of my mind? I did get fucked, but not by them.

Before it happened I was soft fingered. This was the last of the eroscillator’s attachments, the least fearsome looking but the most effective, either that or my comprehensive degradation outside made me ready for it. “Washing pose.” he ordered. My real life is punctuated with kinky moments where my on line sex life breaks into it. Each morning I stand in the bathroom while my Master washes me intimately. In my real life I do it but I think of my hands as his. I stand with my feet apart and my hands behind my back, just for a minute or so or longer if I can, to think about it, imagining I must wait, ready for him. I did that then. I might have breathed “Oh wow!” out loud when he slipped the eroscillator’s soft finger under my knickers.

The 10.40pm and last TT session was brutal. I couldn’t believe the bastard thing had yet more capacity to inflict on me. I felt sexually battered by it. I’d done so well, I’d suffered with such fortitude and determination that I’m sure Inez thought I’d earned the ultimate test. By then the restaurant had figured out they would need to talk amongst themselves for twenty minutes before I reappeared to resume my performance. My boss sold a shed load of beer and the kitchen abandoned their pretence at haute cuisine in favour of high speed burgers and chips.

There wasn’t room to avoid the proximity of blokes seated just not at tables but randomly around the restaurant. There was no space to defend my arse from so many directions and I was often groped in my struggle to clear away dirty plates and glasses. The TT crippled me so obviously the baiting turned into the different sport of voyeurism. Porn heroines melt, rendered senseless by a cascade of orgasms as their vibrators are wound up to maximum aggression and I’m sure my male audience assumed I would, but mine disabled me physically.

Inez watched me sink to my knees, fighting to cope in tears, after her final adjustment.

She said something in her language, concern expressed in gentle tones I took to mean she would turn it down if I couldn’t take it but I shook my head. I wanted her to record that I had not complained. I crawled away when the time came on my hands and knees, past those who were certain they wouldn’t see me again, but were intrigued to find out if they would.

Each time I returned to the playroom my boss enjoyed grappling with me, delighting in making me fight him off. I swung punches, tried to stamp on his feet and attempted to dig my fingernails into his neck, which all served to fuel the malice he subjected me to. He pulled my hair, twisted my arms and of course my nipples too. Fighting and spitting curses became the evening’s playroom door ritual, except for the once when I crawled.

The tenderness with which I was restrained in the playroom felt like such sweet relief. My Master took the TT out of me and cut off the thong I needed with it, sagging and looser after the stress we’d suffered. I’d put up with my insertion for a total of two hours and he joked that was how long it could stand before its battery went flat! He roped my arms up above my head from the ring in the ceiling and tied what was left of my shirt up round my hands. He noticed the business card I’d been given then. “What’s this?” he asked me. I didn’t know, I hadn’t really looked at it. I’m sure it wasn’t the reason he pulled my shoes and stockings off then told me I’d be flogged.

To be continued.............
 
Waiting Part 6. This is the last part............

At first it wasn’t much but by 11.10pm he was stinging me in sets of five or six lashes, smoothing his hands over the feint welts he caused in between them, over my breasts, my arse, my back and my thighs. I was naked except for my useless skirt. This time underwear would be my reward for the obedience beyond the call of duty Inez had reported. I’d put my choice on next time he sent me outside. I’d be allowed Kinky Kate’s public humiliation fantasy No 1, stripped to her knickers and displayed for the worst of the world to see. “Would you like to thank me?” my Master giggled.

For the first time that evening he touched me, not in the business like way of applying some instrument of torture, but carefully, as a lover would. He handled my rose with no intent to hurt me for a while, then continued flogging me.

At 11.15pm he untied me and asked if I was sure we would not be disturbed. Of course we wouldn’t, that was the deal wasn’t it? Maybe it was the deal he paid for but temptation is often harder to ignore than respect is to deliver. “No, he won’t come in,” I said, sure he’d meant my boss, neither would anyone else. They hadn’t yet, so they wouldn’t.

I put my yellow knickers on, the ones with “Gorgeous” printed on the front which I like because they fit me well, they’re soft to touch and I feel good in them, from the outside! Along with those I was still wearing cuffs, and a new horror, Kinky Kate’s public humiliation fantasy No 2, my electric shock dog training collar. Then I went out to find out how it felt in real life. A loud cheer greeted me back in the restaurant. 11.21pm.

Able to move freely again I began to clear the back log of dirty plates and cutlery, a few at a time and one handed to leave the other free to fend off the searching tentacles of the restaurant’s testosterone driven swamp monsters. I love the thought of how precarious I’d feel, threatened by being groped like this. The inadequate defence of wearing my knickers is a blistering hot fantasy. However for real, there were too many of them. I daren’t let even one in for fear of being unable to stop the tide of assault I provoked, but I thought about it.

We were uncertain whether the dog collar’s transmitter would send signals through the building's walls and doors but it did. I felt it tingle a couple of times but anxious to prevent my sex organs falling into the wrong hands, I didn’t pay much attention. My Master make me squeal later in the session, having turned it up enough. Inez reported the time that happened. One of our customers knew what it was, for training bitches.

They could see I’d been whipped and my boss fighting bruises must have given a few brutes the impression I liked it rough. Some drunkard tried to drag me off my feet and objected when I needed rescuing. Even a whore can be a damsel in distress and my hero felt noble in his role as my (not quite) handsome prince. They squared up to each other, pushed each other around and sent some chairs tumbling but nothing more, this time.

The pack polarised into those who wanted to simply watch me and those who wanted to play with me. The atmosphere turned boisterous and argumentative. It felt dangerous to be vulnerable in the midst of it and I worried about being collateral damage if I got caught up in a real fight.

11.38pm, I had to go and hopefully my disappearance would defuse the situation.

My boss couldn’t fight his way out of a paper bag really and I hadn’t let fly with the full force of my feminine strength because I was wary of the vibrator and possible internal injuries. Without it I didn’t have that to care about. “Want something else in ‘y snatch?” he said, on time to impede me as ever, at 11.39pm. I volleyed him in the bollocks because I could and opened the playroom door myself while he staggered out of the way, his face a picture of agony and disbelief. My Master was undressed on the other side.

I shouldn’t have been but I was shocked. No, not electrically, not until he stabbed me in the neck with my collar after I’d taken my place at the table. I needed it to remind me of my promised obedience. I looked over my shoulder at him as if to ask “Here, now, like this?” Another series of pulses and cutting my Gorgeous knickers in half meant “Yes, shut up and stay still.” How real was our relationship now? “Did anyone penetrate you out there?” he asked. I shook my head, no, no fingers, nothing! It was vital that I’d saved myself.

Satisfied I hadn’t been violated he slid his cock into me for a few strokes then pulled out, waited for a while then tried me again. I thought he was anxious not to come. I asked if he was close, and took another shock for it. I’d never been fucked for real while being fantasy bullied before.

I thought of all that “my rose is yours.” messaging I’d done, the hundred times I’d offered him exclusive role playing rights to my sex organs and meant it so fiercely it made me ache to come. I’d never have believed he’d take me in real life. He held the transmitter button down sending at least five seconds of full power pulses ripping through my throat while he fucked me properly. He knew I’d love it. I felt so controlled and so helplessly owned I thought I’d die of sex.

We had to stop, at 11.51pm. He wanted somewhere else, somewhere more personal, somewhere more his for our first final act and he wanted to resist wasting its meaning in such a temporary, makeshift setting. Then I really would be owned. If my old life had ended in public disgrace in the restaurant, my new one was waiting for me elsewhere. We had just eight minutes to lock my wrists to my ankles on the sofa, just time for Her, the demon between my legs, to convince him I wanted that future. He had his hand between my thighs as he mapped out how my life would be, She never lies!

Although my shift ends at 1.00am the restaurant closes at midnight, normally. After the punters have gone the last hour is cleaning the floors and the tables so as not to encourage bacterial growth overnight, that and counting the money, before the staff (me) have a chance to steal it. My boss is not a likeable man. Vengeful after I kicked him in the nuts, he let the most appreciative of my audience remain to put up with him exercise his right as my employer to whinge and nit pick over my competence as a mop wench. I played the male fantasy maid, all skin and soapy water, feeling them watch me. “You wait ’til they’ve gone.” my boss hissed at me. I’d face whatever that meant at 12.40am.

For our last twenty minutes in the playroom we sat on the sofa, or rather he sat on it, I sat on my Master and we talked. Did I think it would be like this, did I mind my house broken into now, did he look anything like how I thought he would? He’d been in England for two weeks, watching me, thinking about whether or not to continue with his plans to tempt me away. Would I or wouldn’t I go with him? He was sure now he wanted me to. “This is interesting.” he said, meaning that business card, now on the sofa beside us. On line we’d talked about him sharing me with someone he’d trust, sort of lending me to someone for a while. Would that become real too?

I rocked my hips to feel his erection inside me at the thought that he might seriously consider it. My hands were locked into the yoke round my neck leaving my breasts his to have and to hold and my nipples his to stress. There was one more session outside, I would need to make my mind up before the end of it, forever.

Inez met me just outside the door, she had her note pad in her hand and her bag on her shoulder as if she wasn’t going back to her table. Had she made a mistake, did she think we were leaving? She waved me though with a smile and directed me to the restaurant but then went into the playroom shutting the door behind her. My boss appeared not far behind her. “Get in here, you’ve still got work to do.” he demanded.

I walked round him in the space available in the hallway which led to the bar. I discovered when I arrived there we were alone. The party was over. Of course he’d followed me, not just into the bar but into the restaurant where he stood with his arms folded. He ordered me to polish the floor although I’d already done that, on my hands and knees this time so I could do it properly. I wouldn’t.

At 1.00am the temporary contract he’d made with my Master would end and then he could sack me. He’d have grounds to, a filthy slut like me would attract the wrong sort of people and our neighbouring businesses wouldn’t want that. “Are you planning on doing this again?” he wanted to know and tried to push me onto the floor, or over a table, or simply over, but I stayed upright, defiant. Didn’t I need my job? I could keep it if I did it for him, privately.

“What are those marks?” he asked, on my skin he meant. As far as I was concerned I’d made it, I’d survived the challenge and I no longer felt scared of public humiliation now the public had gone, I felt exhilarated by it. “I’ve been flogged.” I told him, not just admitting it but throwing it at him, proud of it. “He tied my arms above my head and thrashed me.” I said. I taunted him with the other indignities I’d suffered because I’d wanted them and yes, I was a filthy slut, so what? As my boss, and on his premises, I’m sure he thought he deserved a piece of that. A whore is anybody’s right? Wrong!

Lust impaired his judgement and he attacked me, naked tits and crotch first. He thought he could overpower me and without customers, his business partner behind the door or Inez to incriminate him he was prepared to wrestle no holds barred. He tried to slap me across my face, missed and sent us crashing onto one of the tables which broke under our weight. One of its legs snapped off. I got hold of that while my boss got hold of me. He grabbed my ankle and heaved my legs apart, gifting me the opportunity to crack him on top if his head with the table leg while he was distracted by the sight of my bush in my disordered underwear. I’ve no idea how much it hurt him but it was enough.

I was first on my feet and stepped away from him with my blunt instrument ready if necessary, breathing heavily from the effort of scrapping. Oooooh the things he called me! His outrage was withering, poisonous and hateful, and pointless. 12.48am, I had only 12 minutes left to work for him.

It mattered that I stayed where I was until the time I’d been told to leave. I sat on another table, still intact and left the wrecked one in pieces where it fell because I didn’t care. I watched the clock, waiting for 1.00am because I had to. “Do you do everything he fucking tells you!” my boss complained bitterly. “Yes I do.” I answered, knowing he hadn’t a clue what that meant.

The playroom door was open when I returned and my tormentor wasn’t there. Inez was. She showed me the pair of heavy handcuffs lying on the table. Everything else was gone, the chains the shackles and the toy boxes. I was wearing my last pair of knickers and even those I’d lost had disappeared. Everything else that is except the Tickling Truman, plugged into its charger by the wall, my trashed shirt with not a single button left on it, my battle scarred stockings and my useless skirt.

She picked them up and offered them to me to put back on. He wanted me like that, dressed as he’d ordered me to dress, his heroine fresh from her adventure. Once I had she picked up the handcuffs. So this was it then, I had one choice and the handcuffs meant yes? I remembered sending “OK, I’ll submit.” when all this started and how I’d never answered no since.

He wanted me locked, the TT inside me, and he wanted Inez to put it there. I turned my back on her and crossed my wrists behind me to let it all happen without a word being spoken. Can being trapped feel like release? I’ll tell you it can, it did and it was beautiful. She led me out of the back door of the building and I felt the cool night air chill my skin under what was left of my clothing.

She pointed out a car on the far side of the car park, the headlights flashed once to tell her he was ready. I felt her push me gently towards it, to launch me out into my new life.

I would never escape or want to.
 
£100

We don't quite shower together, we nearly do. Back then, when were fresh and fascinated by sex, sliding our hands all over each other's soapy bodies was gorgeous. These days it just makes practical sense to make a mess of the bathroom once and get clean together. I'd just had my shower and I'd stepped out to let my lover step in, then the door bell rang. "You're closest." he said. I grabbed a towel and wrapped it round me as I ran down the stairs to the front door. It's a big towel, I felt safe enough.

When I opened the door my boyfriend's mate Jim was standing on the doorstep. He was slightly shocked, well, amused really. For a while he looked at me, noticing my wet hair and how I was clutching the towel between my tits. I saw him want to look. "What do you want?" I asked. "Is he in?" Jim said. Yes he was but he was in the shower. I pointed out it wasn't really a good time to come round. Jim thought it was. I had to ask "What's that supposed to mean?" I meant the smirk on his face. "Drop the towel." he said.

I was astonished. I wanted to say "No, fuck off!" but I couldn't think fast enough through my outrage. "Go on, why not?" Jim laughed and looked behind him, up and down the street, to check for strangers passing by. Of course there weren't any. "C'mon, twenty seconds." he said, his face breaking into a beaming grin. "I tell you what." he continued, "I'll give you a hundred quid if you do." Before I could slam the door in his face he produced a handful of notes from one of his pockets and waved them at me. "Hundred quid for twenty seconds, what's that, eighteen grand per hour!" he joked, "And you don't want it?" Put like that, it made me reluctant to slam the door.

I know I shouldn't have but I asked him if he was serious. "Deadly." he said. He put his hands up, palms facing me in a display of faultless integrity when I told him I'd fucking kill him if he told my boyfriend. "Stay there!" I demanded, meaning on the doorstep, outside the house. He said he would absolutely, and checked the time on his watch, in case I was serious too.

My god I felt like a slut. My heart was pounding as I let go of the towel. It fell off me, landing in a heap round my feet. I couldn't think of what to do with my hands and just to get them out of the way I put them behind my back. I've never suffered such withering self consciousness. I watched Jim take a good look at my breasts and saw him smile at the sight of my unruly bush. He particularly enjoyed my hips and my thighs. I felt fat but daren't hold my stomach in for fear of drawing attention to the fact. Twenty humiliating seconds felt like all day.

Eventually he burst out laughing and offered me the money in his outstretched hand. I couldn't help laughing too as I took it. What a fucking stupid thing to do! He called me beautiful and winked at me over his shoulder from half way down the drive as he walked away. I shut the door panting like race horse and struggled to compose myself before I returned to the bathroom. I couldn't believe what just happened, I felt wickedly guilty.

"Who was that?" my boyfriend asked from inside the shower. "Oh just Jim." I answered, as if it wasn't important. "I told him it wasn't a good time." I said. Then my boyfriend asked "Did he say anything about that hundred quid he owes me?"
 
Far out, this is why you’re such a ¡puta!
If it had been you on my doorstep you'd have grabbed the towel and tried to haul it off me. You'd know I'd try to hang on to it and leave my tits undefended. You'd pull me through the door, outside, then let go with one hand so you could twist my nipples with the other. I'd be confused by the pain and I'd make it easy for you to drag me round, kick the back of my knees in and send me crashing to the floor, by then stripped of my dignity as well as my towel.

Would you reach over me to slam the door closed, trapping me outside naked? Oh fuck no! You'll pin me to the ground by standing on my hair, then the nightmare of all those awful things I've written comes true.

Poor puta esclava, spread exposed at the feet of the worst of her horror's tormentor. She knows you know what "Please no, I beg you, please don't!" really means, the dirty whore.

If I knew it was you on my doorstep, I'd still have opened the door.
 
Oh no, the door slammed shut! I need that towel more than you do, while I stand on your hair, you are face down kneeling naked, so I use the tap to wet it, and flick the towel on your arse. It hurts like a whip, and as I get a rhythm going it starts leaving welts. We put on a show for the neighbors coming outside to see what the commotion is about…

They see puta esclava utterly degraded and panting!

“I always knew she was a wanton slut,” your Minister’s wife says to him, loud enough for everyone to hear.

“Dirty whore” someone else says…

I correct them: “Actually she’s a filthy slave whore, aren’t you, puta esclava?”

I grab your hair and drag your head up so everyone can see your tear streaked face (such a pity you didn’t have mascara on, although your body is satisfactorily caked in dirt…

s-s-sí mi maestro ¡puta taparabbos!”

The Minister says nothing, it’s his wet dream to finally see you naked!

Next Sunday’s service will add to your humiliation!
 
Your Minister is old school Presperterian, he lives only to shame and punish his flock for penance.

He’s going to treat you like a naughty daughter, and have you kneel towards him in front of the congregation. Lift your skirt to reveal your dirty knickers, then launch into a tirade over your wickedness.

He’ll finish by producing a long, whippy rattan cane, he kicks off by pulling down those knickers, and six of the best! The congregation queues up, each in turn given the cane to spank your sexy wicked arse….

The following week the church is packed as word had spread you were subject to indefinite penance each Sunday to atone for your shameful wickedness
 
Your Minister is old school Presperterian, he lives only to shame and punish his flock for penance.

He’s going to treat you like a naughty daughter, and have you kneel towards him in front of the congregation. Lift your skirt to reveal your dirty knickers, then launch into a tirade over your wickedness.

He’ll finish by producing a long, whippy rattan cane, he kicks off by pulling down those knickers, and six of the best! The congregation queues up, each in turn given the cane to spank your sexy wicked arse….

The following week the church is packed as word had spread you were subject to indefinite penance each Sunday to atone for your shameful wickedness
My knickers are dirty to show the congregation how tainted and depraved I am? You mean a filthy slut like puta esclava doesn't deserve the implied purity of the pristine white cotton the other girls wear for him? Everyone knows there are other girls but they're a hidden perversion. Their souls are saved behind closed doors and their suffering unspoken. They're a tolerated, open secret. Poor, wretched puta esclava of course deserves the degradation of exposure.
 
My weekly penance in front of the congregation turned the church into a living hell. The minister allowed anyone and everyone to take his, or her, opportunity to wield the cane with unbridled ferocity. Of course inflicting penance to atone for my sins was only half the parish's joy. I suffered jealousy, revenge, retribution and the twisted sexual fantasies of all those who dare not come out into the open, until now. All of it was imagined, all of it false and all of it punished me. The good citizens of our town watched horror struck as others, far more numerous, thrashed blame and humiliation into me.

A new fixture appeared in the church. It stood opposite the pulpit from where the minister could watch it. It became knows as the whore post. Each Sunday I'd be handcuffed to it, facing the altar but away from the packed pews. My hands would be locked together as if in prayer and my ankles would be locked apart as if in the temptation they accused me of, my arse, in puta enclava's dirty knickers, offered. I was unclean, the filthy whore no one decent would touch, but they worked out their repressed sexual frustration anyway, with a vengeance.

I suffered the wives whose husbands might have thought of me in their beds. I endured the romantically uncompetitive, those for whom real sex with a "nice" girl was a forlorn hope. I writhed and squirmed, in tears for the loss of my dignity, for those whose cocks hardened at the thought of my subjugation. But that wasn't the worst of it.

Around the town, the dirty slut I became was shunned, a public disgrace. However I feared the shadows, the quiet places anyone could drag me into. Away from the crowds I was fair game, prey to be hunted and to be caught alone with one of the menfolk meant certain assault. No one fucked me, no one would sink so low, but I was roughly groped daily. My clothing became weak from a hundred hurried repairs and it was easy for them to tear me open at will.

Time after time I crawled home, ripped and tattered, used and shamed and sticky from the fun they'd had, knowing that in church next Sunday my tormentors would laugh at me for it. Who'd made puta enclave's knickers dirtier this week? They forced me to allow them to. Persecuting me sexually became the town's favourite sport.

Poor wretched puta esclava, would anyone ever give her hope?
 
I’ll give you hope, puta esclava… hope for bonded slavery under my control. You won’t only have to worry about groping! And your clothing won’t need so much mending, I’ll keep you naked except for the knickers…

Now that everyone in town truly knows you’re a degraded slut, so I can take you shopping on your leash. Maybe take you to that cafe, then leave you at the whore post for a few hours while I relax at the pub… Lastly drag you home for a bit of casual torture…

Welcome to your complete slavery, ¡puta! (Spits) puta esclava…
 
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I’ll give you hope, puta esclava… hope for bonded slavery under my control. You won’t only have to worry about groping! And your clothing won’t need so much mending, I’ll keep you naked except for the knickers…

Now that everyone in town truly knows you’re a degraded slut, so I can take you shopping on your leash. Maybe take you to that cafe, then leave you at the whore post for a few hours while I relax at the pub… Lastly drag you home for a bit of casual torture…

Welcome to your complete slavery, ¡puta! (Spits) puta esclava…
THAT cafe? Oh no, please. It took ages to wash all the sticky cake crumbs and sugar out of my rose!
 
I've been talking to someone in Australia. Yes, puta taparrabos of course, Loinclothslave, but this new friend of mine wants to fig me. I can hear you all respond "Fig you?" Apparently figging was a punishment used in Ancient Greece for errant slave girls. Raw ginger root was carved into a suitable shape and then inserted into the poor slave girl. I googled it and discovered that the pain would slowly build, reaching peak intensity around five minutes after insertion, then slowly subside during the next half hour. Max pain could be restored by subsequent insertions, so I suppose it often was according to the severity of the slave girl's offence. Of course I've not committed an offence, except simply being a subby slut, which means I have a reason to be erotically frightened.

Check this out.......... https://tacit.livejournal.com/225189.html

My new Australian friend is currently waiting for permission from my Master to play with me. I'm not sure yet how much control over me my Master will give him, if any. I've sent my Master all the information I have on figging so that he can make the decision on whether to allow me to suffer it or not.

Because I'm so stupid, and intoxicated by the idea of being threatened with something so brutally wicked, I've begged my Master to let it happen. I'm almost choked with the thrill of reading the message which says "OK, ask him to fig you." The panic is making me want to touch myself badly.

I'm praying it's a joke and no one really expects me to push raw ginger up my arse, they're just scaring me aren't they? It's beautiful to be so dependent on their sense of humour.
 
Aching

I think I’m beginning to understand slavery. These days I’m horrified by how raw and undisciplined I used to be. Now it even feels wrong to write “I” when I mean myself. I’m only doing it here for the sake of grammatical correctness. My personal pronouns are all lower case when I message my Master or those he’s asked me to correspond with. i am the s in D/s!

I understand now that his pleasure is all that’s important and my thrill is to allow it, however the ordeal it might turn out to be challenges me. My slave’s pride is my unquestioning obedience.

Of course I still have desires, although they’re guilty secrets I keep to myself. There are still things which would set my pulse racing if he thought of making me suffer them, but I’ll never again tell him “I want……..” or suggest he might try something I thought of. It’s not my place to ask, for anything. My place is to accept.

He has other slaves. Ours is not a romance and it’s important that it shouldn’t be. I’m not a girlfriend or a wife, I’m a slut. “I love you.” would mean nothing compared to the way “You dirty fucking whore!” touches my kinky heart.

A few days ago I discovered he’d punished one of his other sluts by cracking her between the legs with his crop. He told me about it. I never meet the others. I felt my heart flutter at the thought of him doing that to me, and something like the bitter taste of jealousy because he hadn’t.

The idea of being treated like that gripped me. I was enchanted by the beauty of him inflicting such exquisite pain on me. I had to pretend he might. I understand slavery enough to know that I must not comment or more unworthy still, complain. I had to resort to fantasy, this is it……….

He’s perfectly aware of how the threat of public humiliation excites me. Not the humiliation itself, that’s a nightmare, but knowing it could and probably will happen fills me with unbearable erotic dread. Knowing I’ll perform my duties as his slave while we’re out reduces me to a confused and distracted mess. I know he enjoys my torment. For example he often he makes me respond “Thank you Master” in front of the waiter after he’s ordered for me in a restaurant. Sometimes he sabotages my clothing with scissors in the taxi on the way there. It’s simple, easy, kinky fun. The bonds or the S in BDSM don’t have to be physical. Psychological discomfort is equally as profound but there’s psychology in accepting physical pain too.

As a special treat, because I’d pleased him, he tells me he’s going to take me out for a drive in his car. He wants my hair pretty and my shoulders bare in a loose fitting vest top which doesn’t really cover my breasts, not from the sides at least. The idea is that I’ll attract attention from the passenger seat. My top will be black but my knickers will be white, so the contrast makes it obvious I’m wearing nothing else. I’ll be barefoot. He knows that for me, being able to feel the space I’m in with my feet is a subtle form of nakedness.

To accentuate my slut’s look, I’ll be handcuffed with my arms folded and my wrists locked behind my back, so I sit upright with my tits pushed out. I’ll be as properly presented as a slave as always. One of my rules is that I keep my legs spread in his presence. I’m willing to hold my thighs apart whenever he wants me to, even in public. He’ll hold the car door open for me to struggle in cuffed and watch me settle down (un)comfortably.

I’ll notice he’s brought the crop with him. He knows why, I’ll guess. He’ll tease me with it. He’ll run it up the inside of my open thighs, stroke the crotch of my knickers and gently tap my nipples. This is mildly predictable. It’s not the exploitation of my helplessness which feels so sweet, it’s my inability to stop it.

But then he’ll lift my head by pushing my chin up with it, to make me look ahead, not down. I’ll be caught by surprise when he smacks me in the throat, hard enough to hurt me. I’ll be shocked, he’ll see that on my face. This is more than usual, not just the warning to keep quiet it can be.

He’ll lay the crop on the dash board in front of me when he gets in the car too, so I can look at it and worry.

We’ll go out at night. Different people are around then. There’s a much higher concentration of them less likely to be offended by wickedness in the dark.

We’ll drive through the city centre, through clubland where the wildlife spills out onto the pavements, stumbling drunk and careless to slow the traffic to a crawl. There’ll be groups of playful mates, maybe one might fall against the car while we wait at traffic lights. My Master will wind the window down then, to let him take a good look at me, offered for display. I’ll pray the lights will turn green and rescue me from the attention as I squirm in my seat.

Of course the lads will notice my pale skin in the streetlights and my tits ride my ribs as I breathe through my fear.

After the ordeal of people I’ll be driven out near the ring road. It’s residential out here. The curtains are drawn, everyone watches television and most of the cars are parked. There’s a eerie calm disturbed only by the occasional necessary journey and the need to walk the dog. We’ll wait while I wonder why, until he tells me I get away with it far too easily. It?

He’ll pick up the crop. “When was the last time I punished you?” he’ll ask, pushing my head to face forward. He’ll smack me in the neck again because I’m not supposed to reply, I’m supposed to understand it’s been ages. I’ll think “Fuck!” There’s an ominous, malicious tone to his voice. What game are we playing?

“See that streetlight?” he’ll ask, waving the crop in that direction. I’ll be too scared to look. He’ll tell me the last dog pissed on it two minutes ago and he’ll predict the next one will in another five. He’ll point out that combined with the frequency of passing cars, this means he’ll have something like three minutes to teach me the lesson I need to learn. At this point I’m shaking in terror and unable to speak through the lump, and the pain, in my throat.

He’ll tell me when he opens my door I’ll get out of the car and walk quickly to the streetlight. He’ll tell me to stand with my back up against it. He’s going to unlock my handcuffs but only so he can lock them again, around the lamp post, trapping me. I’ll feel exposed and vulnerability like never before.

He’ll kick my feet wide apart, he’ll have the crop in his hand and my subby slut’s body to aim at. I’ll push my hips forward to present myself as the target he wants. In my fantasy he’ll thrash my tits and inflict a rain of blows on my poor aching rose, to bruise me as much as possible before anyone sees him do it. I’ll fight to keep quiet and in bed, soaked in my delicious fantasy, I’ll fight not to come. I won’t have permission to.

I’ll lay awake, aching for a different reason.
 
Here's a copy of a little correspondence with one of my friends on another site. I thought I'd share the insight with you, because I'm a slut.

Good evening Sir,

i've been madly busy and i'm sure my Master has too. i haven't heard from him to two weeks which is normal when we're engaged in our real lives. However, this week, which would have been kink week for me, has been reduced to just the weekend by real life circumstances. i messaged him yesterday but he hasn't replied yet. Perhaps he's busy with his new real life sub? Does it make sense if i tell you i enjoy feeling inferior to her? We're agreed that she is infinitely more important to him than i am.

His control over my sex life means i can only indulge that as far as my standing rules allow. i'm not allowed to come although i can touch myself and i can write whatever i like to whoever i like. Obviously this is a route to desperate frustration for me and it's this ache which makes me feel owned most completely.

i've been reading a story on cruxforums.com about a young girl, unhappy with her vanilla boyfriend, who embarks on a crazy affair with an older man because he's prepared to hurt her as badly as her wildest fantasies demand. It's a writing collaboration between them and their writing styles are so different their perspectives are beautifully expressed. She writes of her fear and the intoxicating thrill of the danger so well i can't leave my cunt alone.

Consequently, having woken up hot, i'm refreshing Discord every few minutes in the forlorn hope that they've sent my Master a notification of my agony and he'll at least acknowledge that i'm still here, and i'd really appreciate an orgasm soon. i'll die of sex if he denies me. Oh god it'll be gorgeous if he does. i love "No!"

my figging two weeks ago was very important for both myself and my Master. i begged and pleaded with him to allow me to suffer it and reported my distress in real time as i burned. He was disappointed that i'd already told you so much of it because he felt that i'd compromised his opportunities for controlling the deal between you. We've been further since, in spite of his reticence, and i was able to demonstrate how willing i am to suffer and how important obedience is to me. He let it really fucking hurt me and he loved it too. He called me fantastic. It was quite an emotional experience and a milestone along my journey as a slave. i think we were both profoundly moved. i hope my Master realises he now has a credible method of punishing me properly.

Thank you for the icyhot.com link. Here in the UK we have a similar thing called Deep Heat. Several years ago i tried it sexually in a subby context when my playmate Emily made me massage it into my genitals, and leave it there until my discomfort had run it's course. Figging is worse applied anally. Would it please you to force me to suffer it if you ever get the chance to command me to? The thought of it leaves me breathless with lust and i dream of the moment it becomes possible. i'm fucking terrified!

For now, i dare not tell you too much of my electric shock toys. My Master insists on warning me that you are a committed sadist. If he offers me to you and i survive intact, if he offers me to you again, if he feels i can cope with the horrific capacity of my shock toys in your hands, then he'll let me instruct you on how to torture me with them. i'm sure you can understand that handing over the potential to break me intoxicates me deeply. my heart pounds at the thought of giving you knowledge like that.

i've seen the videos of girls tortured electrically too. Of course they're unconvincing, they're porn, it's all bollocks. Such a thing is only effective when approached with understanding and care.

Have a think about how i might achieve degradation for my own sexual gratification for you? Would it please you to know i do? (i have to stop to go make a cup of tea now, to calm down. "No!" remember?)

We're playing with psychology here. Writing "i" degrades me, so does calling you Sir, so does you calling me fuckhole. My inferiority to my Master's real life subs degrades me. Depending on him, or you we hope, to allow me my thrill while i strive to provide you with yours degrades me. It's a paradox that my value as a slave depends on my degradation as a woman.

i talk to lots of people and we have fun with crazy fantasies which can't possibly have any real life manifestation at all. We're playing characters then but bringing the thrill closer to real life, means playing with the aspects of the fantasies which are actually available to us. i'm somebody's girlfriend, i can't suffer marks, i can't meet anyone, i can't take silly risks with my real life but i can offer you obedience within the framework of all that. When i'm alone, as i am now, i'm available to whatever experience it's possible for you to inflict on me. That degrades me.

It's achingly beautiful to think of you and my Master negotiating a deal over me. That's wickedly degrading. If we did it for real i'd be locked, collared, caged or cuffed or something like that and i'd be handed over somewhere where my Master would give you my key. We can't do that. What will happen is he'll message you to tell you he'll allow you two hours (or whatever) with me. He'll tell me that's happened and i'll be sick with adrenalin, heart pounding terrified and hardly able to breathe through the thrill of my degradation. i'll know the next message from you will demand my obedience. Depending on the outcome of your discussions with my Master, "What would you like to know Sir?"

These days i find myself wanting to call all the people i talk to Master or Sir. i have to resist the temptation to slip into submissiveness naturally and remind myself i've not been allowed to do that. This morning i checked DA and discovered someone had sent me a note telling me he, or she (I'm not sure!), wanted to command my sex acts. Fucking sweet temptation! Of course i can't let that happen but i'm a slut, i can't deny i would.

Kink with my boyfriend? Hmmm, i'm not holding my breath.

Sorry Sir, it's been thoughtful rather than filthy this time.

fuckhole XX
 
Whoops
I'm working from home a lot these days. I’m masked, anti viral gelled and keen to maintain a nervous, anti social distance if I have to meet anyone on site but the paperwork can all be done in my makeshift, COVID free office here in the house.

My boyfriend always works from home. We have a workshop in the yard and when the pandemic spread and locked us down I discovered why all our light switches are grubby, the kettle has oily fingerprints on it and the tea towel in the kitchen is often impregnated with gritty little pieces of metal. He doesn’t take his overalls off when he comes in to brew up and his workshop’s industrial environment isn’t just out there, he brings it with him, wherever he is.

If the wind is in the right direction and blowing through the house when the windows are open, I can smell that heady, petrochemical aroma as soon as he comes in. It’s very male and not unpleasant, it’s very him! On one particular occasion I checked the clock on my computer when I detected his presence downstairs, 10.15am, tea break? Oh good, he might make me one. I thought he had when I heard him stomp up the stairs a while later. I wish he’d take his bloody boots off.

There was an structural engineer’s report up on my Mac and I was on the phone disappointing our customer with the bad news. I work for an estate agent and brokering the next deal is often fraught with pitfalls. Their house wasn’t quite as saleable as they’d hoped. I hadn’t down loaded the report yet, I’d only just called the hopeful vendor and their phone was still ringing when my boyfriend came in. I didn’t look round to greet him, I was still reading. I had this idea that he would simply put my tea down on my desk, on the ever present mug mat. Then the customer answered my call.

“Oh hello, it’s Kate Grindall from Graspers and Avarice Estate Agents here.” I said. That’s all I had time for before I felt something slipped over my head, knocking the phone away from my ear. I heard the “zip” of one of those plastic cable ties BF uses and felt it suddenly grip my neck. “Keep talking or I’ll throttle you.” he whispered in my other ear!

“Miss Grindall? Still there?” I heard. I fought for composure after the shock and said I was, I’d just been distracted for a moment by something and prayed Mr Hopeful would have no idea what that might be. Why should he, how many other couples play games like this?

My boyfriend took my phone switched it to speaker and put it down, gesturing with a rolling motion of his hand which meant “carry on.” “Er, I’m just looking at the engineer's report we commissioned concerning your property.” I said, as BF took control of my mouse, and my keypad. He closed the report on my desktop, clicked reply on the email it was attached to and typed “I’m putting my hands behind my back.” I thought "What?"

“Is there a problem?” Mr Hopeful asked. “You could say that!” I thought but said “There seems to be some evidence of subsidence under the ground floor bathroom extension.” instead, my voice stressed and shaky.

I wanted to shout “You can’t bugger about with my work you bastard.” and “How dare you write that!” but my boyfriend could and he had. My chance of rebellion disappeared because I had to tell Mr Hopeful our engineer thought there might have been some escape of water in the past and “Have you had any trouble with the plumbing?” I felt a tug on the cable tie round my neck, a reminder to do as I was told and I put my arms, wrists crossed, behind me, thinking he'd picked a difficult moment to want to play. BF beamed at me.

He cabled tied my wrists too, to the back of my chair, rendering me helpless and unable to prevent him typing “My hands are tied, I’m going to spread my legs so my lover can feel my knickers. I want him to grope my tits.” while I explained how it looked like a serious flood of some sort had washed away the sandy soil upon which Mr Hopeful’s bathroom had been built. I tried to sound empathic and professionally interested in a solution to the problem as I realised BF might think it was funny to actually send the crap he was defacing my emails with.

“OK, I get it.” I thought, he’s only writing instructions because I’m on the phone, so I’d better comply or else right? He’s putting me under pressure here. Yes, I saw the threat, very wicked! I can tell you actually opening myself to allow BF to handle my underwear, and me in it, because I had no choice, felt delicious. He'd even scrubbed up a bit!

During my investigation into whether there had been a flood in Mr Hopeful’s bathroom and coercing him to admit it, BF stroked the inside of my thighs, running his hands up under my skirt and brushing his finger tips against the crotch of my knickers. Oh those rough, calloused hands! He pressed the fabric into me, feeling for Her as Mr Hopeful cried “Underpinning! How much will that cost?”

I didn’t know. I tried to hide my breathing and remain businesslike and matter of fact while I considered the need for obtaining quotes from building companies I could recommend. “We have reputable people we deal with.” I said, as my heart was beginning to pound.

BF, grinning broadly, wrote “I’m getting wet. I love being treated like this. I’m such a filthy slut.” on my reply to the structural engineering firm. “I want him to tie my ankles and cut my knickers off.” he added. That’s what happened. I thought about what was happening to me and how precarious I was, how easy it would be for him to eventually click send and humiliate me beyond disgrace as Mr Hopeful, gutted by the likely expense of the necessary work, tried to suggest we attempted to sell his house anyway.

Horrified, I watched “He’s going to lick me to orgasm. I can feel his beard scratching the inside of my legs.” unfold, letter by letter, on my computer as I deflated Mr Hopeful by telling him no mortgage lender would entertain offering a loan to someone on a property in need of so much work. BF dragged my chair away from my desk to give himself room to kneel in front of me. I had to raise my voice a little to make it reach my phone so I could explain that only someone in the trade or wealthy would be interested in a deal with the repair work still outstanding.

I’m sure Mr Hopeful detected he didn’t have my full attention. He sounded a little irritated when he accused me of trying to profit from his misfortune by somehow orchestrating the housing market and its tradesmen against him. Could I assure him I had his best interests at heart? Of course I could, I did, but BF’s stubble was chafing the soft flesh at the top of my thighs by then, I felt his nose nestle into my fur and his tongue. Oh god!

Didn’t I sound convincing? “I’m sorry you feel that way.” I said, desperate not to be heard gasping for breath. I felt it necessary to shift the blame for the difficulty away from Grasper and Avarice and pointed out that, if Mr Hopeful hadn’t sought to avoid the heavy excess imposed by his insurance company on subsidence claims and ignored the possibility in favour of simple water damage, we wouldn’t have this problem now. I tried so hard to express my concern and my determination to act for the greater good but BF had pulled me forward to enable him to really bury his face between my legs. He had one hand full of my arse and the other one up my T shirt. He’d already displaced my bra and caught one of my nipples between his thumb and one forefinger and I could no longer concentrate on work. I couldn’t believe what he was doing to me, I felt as filthy as hell!

I couldn’t hang up. I wanted so much to resolve our troubles to Mr Hopeful’s satisfaction, my professional reputation depended on it and I couldn’t risk losing him as a client. I tried one more time to imply, with all the subtlety and grace I could muster, that perhaps Mr Hopeful had brought the disaster upon himself, but BF had my pleasure trigger trapped between his top teeth and his tongue and my brain failed. “Are you telling me this is my fault Miss Grindall?” Mr Hopeful snarled, right at the point I wasn’t listening.

Laughing at the joke while I tried to focus my bewildered, spinning head, BF levered himself up by placing a hand on my desk. Did he jog my mouse, did he accidentally lean on it? I heard it click and sensed trouble. “Email successfully sent” it said on my screen. What email? “He’s going to lick me to orgasm”? It fucking was!

“You stupid arsehole!” I screamed, my mind instantly concentrated. “Well, I don’t think there’s any need for that!” I heard Mr Hopeful remark indignantly and any likelihood of saving my job ended with the call as he angrily hung up.

BF looked mortified. “Untie me you……..” I screamed but I couldn’t finish. I simply couldn’t think of anything vehement enough to express the depth of my fury. If he had untied me I’d have torn his face off. He knew that, so he didn’t. He stood there contrite and speechless, at a safe distance, knowing that sooner or later he would have to let me go.

“I’m so sorry.” he eventually said. “You will be, I’ll wait!” I thought.
 
If you scroll up a couple of messages from here you'll find one I wrote to an online friend who might or might not, depending on my luck (misfortune), own me for a while. This is another. I won't post his, just quote from it where it awakens the demon between my legs. Holy fuck, does it! By the way, he calls me..........

fuckhole

Oh fuck Sir, your last message reduced me to desperation so beautifully. i've left Discord open for two days and my Master has not responded. i've discovered that he commented on one of his new sub's pictures on another site a few hours ago, in their language of course but i Google translated it. They're almost in love with each other. She replied "Thank you my Lord". i've been neglected.

"you are right in your self appraisal as an inferior both as a submissive and as a woman. I think that's an aspect of you worthy of more emphasis and exploration. It does suit you well to be left with a wet cunt and little else while your master and I are both distracted elsewhere." Yes Sir. i've read this over and over again. my legs are spread as i type, as of course they should be and i'm stroking my knickers unable to stop myself playing with my cunt, again. No Master means no orgasm. i'm fucking aching for it.

"In your case, fuckhole, .........." i love the commas, i can read the inflection in your voice as if you said it. You know i really am dirty, discarded, desperate fuckhole. Yes Sir, my legs will immediately and so gratefully spread wide every moment i know you've thought of me.

Would it please you to make me reinforce my inferiority? Would it please you if I messaged your sub to tell her i'm a desperate cunt? i am!

Yes i have taken the ginger anally. i shouldn't tell you. My Master was disappointed i've said so much already but i'm so intoxicated by the thought of it that i couldn't help myself. The idea sends me so off my head with kinky sex i almost need to tell you i begged for it. i was in the zone, in subspace, i wanted it to hurt me badly, and it did. When the time comes, he'll offer me to you for figging. Oh god, oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck, the thought of that and your cruelty drives me sick with lust.

i've seen a picture of your sub's cunt sewn shut. That's too extreme for me. Would it please you to know that i can't imagine ever being intoxicated enough to want it, my Master knows this and to insist on it would compromise your negotiations for me with him. Is it the physical barrier to penetration you want Sir, or can there be an adequate psychological barrier instead? Would it please you to punish me if i touched myself or attempted to impale myself on my own fingers?

Is it perhaps the manifestation of the idea that fuckhole means tailhole? i pray that the threat of punishment would concentrate my mind and my obedience would remain intact if you denied me my own cunt, that is, if you took it from me to make it yours.

"As for the electrical play.......... Does your experience encompass both forms?" Yes Sir. i can be both severely punished and forced to orgasm electrically. It's a huge spectrum of possibilities and delightful or devastating depending on my level of intoxication. How deep will i be when i suffer? It's vital to understand how important that is.

You're frightening me Sir. i've begged my Master to let you have me praying i can cope. This fear is my thrill.

fuckhole XX
 
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