Subversive5
Executioner
Greetings everyone! I recently joined Crux forums, I had sporadically encountered the site after searching the web for erotic crucifixion pics and vids.
Ever since I was a kid I've been interested in crucifixion. I was born into a Christian family where crucifixion is a central concept. I don't know what exactly sparked its erotic interest in me, but I assume it was the constant mention and portrayal of it that might have jump started it. This has been and is weird to say but I have always found the concept of being nailed to a cross erotic. When I became older and fixated on the opposite gender, my fascination bled into my interest of the female form. For the better half of my teens I kept convincing myself I was odd or something. In my late hormone infused teens, I began combing the web for sites specific to crucifixion, I started to find pics of beautiful nude women tied to wooden crosses. I went on a masterbation rampage, going through hundreds of images of sexy models and amateur women tied to crosses outdoors. My mind finally seeing what It had fantasized about for so long.
But It wasn't until I searched YouTube for crux videos back in 2006 that I found one of Ramon Martinez's passion of a goddess 3D animations. This 3D animation was central to my sexually evolving psyche. I was hooked on for weeks, I saw it with my brother who at the time was also searching for porn, but it failed to captivate him. To him the only interesting thing was the fact the girl was nude. I discreetly downloaded the video so as to hide it from my siblings and parents. I remember using the PSP's (PlayStation portable) browser function to watch the animation in the bathroom while I beated off to it. It was weird, at that age most jacked off to generic sex stuff, while I took this one animation off the charts. While I did enjoy the other sexy porn I had a special place for the beauty of crucifixion. For the first time, In that passion of a goddess animation, I watched and heard a woman get nailed to a cross. I observed as she writhed in fast upward jolts, responding to the cruel and consistent blows of the hammer. I heard her yelps of desperation and pain that resonated in me and gave the hardest boners. All I dreamed was to be teleported to that nailing scene to pound that dark haired girl missionary style while she was nailed, to rub and explore every inch of her while she breathed heavily suspended between pain and pleasure. To cum in her over and over again. Ever since that animation, the internet was my fetish's place of asylum.
Later on, as technology progressed, and my education strengthened, I began to draw. At first, video game characters, then nude women and crosses. I was baffled by the absence of Crux videos in regular porn sites. Countless crucifixion searches on Pornhub, xvideos, xhamster yielded little to nothing. While some content was exciting, it never topped what I saw in my youth. Until I found this site. Here I saw forums of people posting their own crux fantasies and creating their own content. I felt intimidated at first, but when I saw the level of creativity and casual debate and conversations related to my fantasies, I felt at home. I made the attempt to join and have found belonging here. Now I want to contribute in any way I can. I'm an amateur artist, and my skills need much fine tuning, but it doesn't prevent me from conjuring erotic crux fever dreams in my head. I'm also beginning to delve into 3D animation, I hope to be proficient enough to flesh out full length clips featuring a lot of crucifixion. I want to marry mainstream porn concepts and make them the premise of the pre- nailing torment or pleasure scenes.
Now that I have the time to learn and explore career paths I want my career to include art and animation. All my crux fantasies are conceptual and are fictional. I like to think as the victims as consenting and exploring their own dreams of getting nailed as they are made love to.
I drew this in respect to the first 3D animation girl I saw crucified in my youth. I always wanted to fuck her, her helplessly nailed body which was sooo available turns me on full throttle. In the sketch I just finished cumming in her mouth. I want to continue the crux scene, any feedback on aesthetics is welcomed. I think I'll post my works as I work through developing the skills I need to satisfy others out there like me.
Ever since I was a kid I've been interested in crucifixion. I was born into a Christian family where crucifixion is a central concept. I don't know what exactly sparked its erotic interest in me, but I assume it was the constant mention and portrayal of it that might have jump started it. This has been and is weird to say but I have always found the concept of being nailed to a cross erotic. When I became older and fixated on the opposite gender, my fascination bled into my interest of the female form. For the better half of my teens I kept convincing myself I was odd or something. In my late hormone infused teens, I began combing the web for sites specific to crucifixion, I started to find pics of beautiful nude women tied to wooden crosses. I went on a masterbation rampage, going through hundreds of images of sexy models and amateur women tied to crosses outdoors. My mind finally seeing what It had fantasized about for so long.
But It wasn't until I searched YouTube for crux videos back in 2006 that I found one of Ramon Martinez's passion of a goddess 3D animations. This 3D animation was central to my sexually evolving psyche. I was hooked on for weeks, I saw it with my brother who at the time was also searching for porn, but it failed to captivate him. To him the only interesting thing was the fact the girl was nude. I discreetly downloaded the video so as to hide it from my siblings and parents. I remember using the PSP's (PlayStation portable) browser function to watch the animation in the bathroom while I beated off to it. It was weird, at that age most jacked off to generic sex stuff, while I took this one animation off the charts. While I did enjoy the other sexy porn I had a special place for the beauty of crucifixion. For the first time, In that passion of a goddess animation, I watched and heard a woman get nailed to a cross. I observed as she writhed in fast upward jolts, responding to the cruel and consistent blows of the hammer. I heard her yelps of desperation and pain that resonated in me and gave the hardest boners. All I dreamed was to be teleported to that nailing scene to pound that dark haired girl missionary style while she was nailed, to rub and explore every inch of her while she breathed heavily suspended between pain and pleasure. To cum in her over and over again. Ever since that animation, the internet was my fetish's place of asylum.
Later on, as technology progressed, and my education strengthened, I began to draw. At first, video game characters, then nude women and crosses. I was baffled by the absence of Crux videos in regular porn sites. Countless crucifixion searches on Pornhub, xvideos, xhamster yielded little to nothing. While some content was exciting, it never topped what I saw in my youth. Until I found this site. Here I saw forums of people posting their own crux fantasies and creating their own content. I felt intimidated at first, but when I saw the level of creativity and casual debate and conversations related to my fantasies, I felt at home. I made the attempt to join and have found belonging here. Now I want to contribute in any way I can. I'm an amateur artist, and my skills need much fine tuning, but it doesn't prevent me from conjuring erotic crux fever dreams in my head. I'm also beginning to delve into 3D animation, I hope to be proficient enough to flesh out full length clips featuring a lot of crucifixion. I want to marry mainstream porn concepts and make them the premise of the pre- nailing torment or pleasure scenes.
Now that I have the time to learn and explore career paths I want my career to include art and animation. All my crux fantasies are conceptual and are fictional. I like to think as the victims as consenting and exploring their own dreams of getting nailed as they are made love to.
I drew this in respect to the first 3D animation girl I saw crucified in my youth. I always wanted to fuck her, her helplessly nailed body which was sooo available turns me on full throttle. In the sketch I just finished cumming in her mouth. I want to continue the crux scene, any feedback on aesthetics is welcomed. I think I'll post my works as I work through developing the skills I need to satisfy others out there like me.
