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Let me talk about drivers, today!



First let me say, that I was a late bloomer. I never owned or driven a car until my early 20’s.

I had a few lessons before that but I wouldn’t count it as driving.



My father took me for a lesson in my teens but that was a redicuous disaster.

Instead of driving around the neighborhood, he took me out to the burbs. I understood the logic but I had no idea where I was and no I idea where I was going.



I felt even more inadequate than I thought I was.



Anyway!



People today are too afraid of hurting their previous vehicles than driving them.



They are afraid to make a proper turn. Afraid to pull in to a parking spot.



Afraid of a minor bump in the road.



And they wait endlessly to pull out into traffic!



Does the street really need to be empty!



I actually had someone hit their horn because I pulled out of a shopping center as they were going by in front of me!

What did they think? That I was going to T-bone them?



It’s insane.
 
Let me talk about drivers, today!



First let me say, that I was a late bloomer. I never owned or driven a car until my early 20’s.

I had a few lessons before that but I wouldn’t count it as driving.



My father took me for a lesson in my teens but that was a redicuous disaster.

Instead of driving around the neighborhood, he took me out to the burbs. I understood the logic but I had no idea where I was and no I idea where I was going.



I felt even more inadequate than I thought I was.



Anyway!



People today are too afraid of hurting their previous vehicles than driving them.



They are afraid to make a proper turn. Afraid to pull in to a parking spot.



Afraid of a minor bump in the road.



And they wait endlessly to pull out into traffic!



Does the street really need to be empty!



I actually had someone hit their horn because I pulled out of a shopping center as they were going by in front of me!

What did they think? That I was going to T-bone them?




It’s insane.
You obviously haven’t seen me drive :car:
 
There are serpents ... they can slither in between your thoughts.



Awake or asleep, conscious or in a simple day dream.



The window in the darkest night or the sunlight playing tricks with the particulates of dust in the early morning.



Memories, thoughts, dreams, things have consumed and amazed us.



There is more here than just a job!



I can feel it!!!




It frightens me.
 
I have spent days ... placing camera’s everywhere around the site.



The second bedroom is filled with monitors and hardware.



My birthday is tomorrow and I am here!




WTF!
 
It was like any other day, in April.



And then the comedy turned into disbelief.



I could always put scammer down and sneak a glass or pint with some untrusted sandwich.





But WTF!!!



This is Bull Crap!

Donkey Duo!

Dog Truds on your sidewalk!



And now!

I am here!



And it is turning out to be a forever dance with loneliness.



I patrol the area every night.



I plant tags and censers but there is nothing, other than a squirrel our rabbit.



James Born or Jason Bond should have presented themselves by now!



The countryside is lovely, though!



The other residents have been here for two weeks, minus a few.



They were the silly sort ... giggling and partaking of cannabis.




What am I supposed to find here?
 
What am I supposed to find here?


Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I will stop
Doesn't mean I will cross
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved
No better and no worse
I just got lost
Every river that I tried to cross
Every door I ever tried was locked
Oh, and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off
You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come a bigger one
And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you…

Coldplay .... :rolleyes:
 
Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I will stop
Doesn't mean I will cross
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved
No better and no worse
I just got lost
Every river that I tried to cross
Every door I ever tried was locked
Oh, and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off
You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come a bigger one
And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you…

Coldplay .... :rolleyes:
Never liked their songs but I get it.
;)
 
I have found myself. Such a freedom.
Each day I wonder why I am here.
I’ve bagged a rabbit or two and made a Brunswick stew a few times.
My wire transfers keep coming, along with instructions to stay in place.

Thank Goodness for sat phones and encryptions.
 
I have found myself. Such a freedom.
Each day I wonder why I am here.
I’ve bagged a rabbit or two and made a Brunswick stew a few times.
My wire transfers keep coming, along with instructions to stay in place.

Thank Goodness for sat phones and encryptions.
Sure that you aren’t a secret agent?
 
……………………………

The weather is insane!

I have actually been chatting with the others!



I am like the crazy local loco, that nobody can figure out what or why I am here.



And I am starting to think that they know as much as I do.



On a lighter note …



Just seeing the morning sun and making breakfast with the country air at dawn, it is becoming enjoyable.
 
Making a fresh caught rabbit stew.



A touch of Port and loads of carrots and parsnips … onions and celery garlic.

Potatoes and a pinch of thyme.



My mother made rabbit only once.



It was delicious and I had no idea.



The U.S. has had a silent interdiction on both protein sources.



Lamb or even Sheep … along with Rabbit.



The wool and the fur … I remember them well.



It was never a secret of the comfort.

 
Dreams tonight!



It is one that requirers …

Réflexion.



I bought a car with my own money when I was younger.



The landline phone rang me up at about 7:30 on a Saturday.



It was the Police telling me that they have found my car.



Since then, I have had numerous variations on and off of similar situations.



Not one was a resemblance to what is real.



Last night,

I was confused and confronted with the realization.



What the FUCK am I doing?
 
Dreams can do that to you. Take two aspirin and ring me in the morning, :rolleyes:
That can be taken two ways …
I’m out batteries, might have to go manual.

;)
 
So!

L’affiche !

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;)
 
Received a registered letter, today.



Assessed to Jonathan Steel.



Yes!



Completely redicuous!



Obviously, a final contact or a first stage in a trap.



Respond



Emma has a new car.



After all this time.

I am wondering …


if my mind has twisted and I am being overly careful.
 
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Can you see me as the sun is drifting

Just around the bend

Snap cap and ponytail flipping

In the distance so clear and true

I feel your gaze upon my back

It can't be real

Sweet drops of sweat trickling down

Quiet waves lapping gentility across the open shore

Is there truth or even deeper currents

I glow orange and amber and aware

Lost in this wonderful despair

She is ... She does ... She loves me

My blood, my skin, my joints and bones.

Floating like in my life never before.

I wish I could could stay forever wishing …

But I am so close to ecstasy

But the edge is the sweetest feeling

Drifting between knowing and not

Floating in a stream and drifting away

Seeing colors and breezes across the towers of my firmest points

The tornadoes will soon consume all my mental restraints

Joints and limbs are not part of me

And I serenaded and surrender in a moment of being forever lost
 
The strangest things fill my mind in this setting of wilderness.

There are moments when I expect a large white ball to bounce across the open field and follow me to my car.

Seriously! What the hell am I doing here!!!
 
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