In my crux fantasies I am crucified in a public space, or perhaps along a road leading into a town. I want people to see me: ordinary people going about their daily activities. I want them to stop and look up at my naked, nailed body as I hang exposed and violated on my cross. They'll shake their heads or perhaps even say something me. I'd see people I know, too. Some of the people around my cross can be the type of person who shows up at a woman's (or a man's) crucifixion and harasses her throughout the day: drunks, perverts, busy-bodies. I want to be harassed by women as well as men. l would hope the men (at least some
) would become obviously sexually aroused.
Others can be crucified with me; I would appreciate the company!
I might have a little loincloth, at first, for modesty's sake. But it would soon be lost and I'd find myself full exposed! Oh, the humiliation!
This has become more about what I want going on around me rather than where I'm crucified. I just want to be accessible to people -- all types. I do not fantasize about being crucified in a dungeon or other isolated area. Why suffer alone? Besides, an isolated crucifixion is more terrifying to fantasize about than a public crucifixion. Bartnel's dungeon crucifixion animations are awesome in realism but terrifying in that I'm isolated, alone. (Well, except for the demons!) The stuff of nightmares. I want to be out in the sun.
Now, I would also like to be crucified in real life -- like Makar's girls are. Perhaps out in the woods, or in a private fenced-in area. I want to know what it feels like to hang on a cross, bound, helpless, and naked. Feel the breeze against my sweaty skin and between my legs. This would be in private, perhaps part of a club consisting of like-minded people. For all practical purposes this also a fantasy.