I was standing. Standing on weak legs and exhausted, but standing.
The pain was massive, but not as great as the terror of being nailed to a cross as my executioners intended.
Standing, but I had to take a step.
I felt so much more lucky than my family who were already in different stages of crucifixtion. There was no hope for them, no escape, but I had hope.
My executioners were nowhere in sight.
My greatest concern was that the gawker who kicked my beam earlier would return.
I took a step. Oh God it hurts!
Then I took another, and another.
The wood rubbed against my torn back, but at least it is not laying on the hole the bird had ripped into me. How will I ever heal?
But first, I must get off this hill of death. I must get back to the safety and security of my home. At least it was safe two days ago. Now? I don't know. But where else could I go?
Home was near by way of the public street, but I wanted a more secluded way. Not that I care about being naked in public. I passed that shame long ago. I needed to evade capture.
Suddenly, before I could reach the pass, I saw the dog of a gawker who kicked the beam off me earlier. My heart was racing in fear that he would torment me again, but then I saw a greater fear in his eyes. He ran away from me in a great haste!
It was then that I noticed everyone was running away from me as if I were a leper. They didn't want to be accused of aiding a condemned person. My heart cried out that I was an innocent victim, but no one cared. The loneliness weighed heavier on me than the beam.
Hopefully home would be a better place.
I loved my life even though I was a slave, until that piece of dung, Hans, entered into our lives.
Our master Lucius was a very wealthy man but a good man. He was an official with the state and owned much real-estate and property. I was his property. He was also a Christian and followed the law and Paul's teaching concerning slaves.
In the eyes if the state slaves were his property, but in his eyes, though we were slaves, we were equal to him in his God's eyes. Therefore, we were comfortable, safe, and secure.
Except for Hans. Hans was a barbarian captured in battle. He had been severely wounded but recovered. Therefore he felt like a coward and was always angry. Master Lucius took Hans in thinking he could help him find peace in his God. But Hans only became more angry at his God.
Three days ago, Hans lashed out in a blind rage and killed master Lucius.
Hans was a true coward because after the deed he committed suicide to escape crucifixion.
The state policy when a master was murdered was that all slaves were to be crucified. That policy had been recently softened and the penalty was left to the state. Steven, the house servant, reported the death to the authorities, and a legion of soldiers soon arrived. There was much discussion between our widowed mistress and the officials. After some time all of us slaves were made to line up. There must have been over a hundred and fifty of us.
The soldiers began counting us, and every tenth slave would be pushed forward. They were decimating our numbers. I saw old and young servants and my pregnant friend Maria pushed forward.
As they came closer I tried to count ahead and realized that I was a ten.
I counted again and came to a nine.
Then, as the soldiers were near I watched them count 7, 8, 9, and 10 landed on me. Fear gripped me as I was pushed forward and led to the other unfortunate numbers. An iron collar was attached to my neck and I was chained to the person in front of me and another was chained behind me. The person in front of me was the 40 year old woman who was nailed to her beam but not lifted up yet when I escaped. I never learned her name. The first person was chained to a horse and we all followed in a solemn procession of the doomed.
None of us knew our fate, but all feared the worst.
We were all lead into a dark and damp prison cell, unchained, and left alone. Male, female , young, old were all locked in together with nothing but old straw and fear for us. Steven told us that he was near our mistress as she negotiated with the soldiers. They came to collect 10% of all the property and collect all the slaves to be held accountable for master's death. Our mistress was able to negotiate with some additional assets thay only 10% of the slaves would be taken and we would get a fair trial. So we were here awaiting for our trial in the morning.
No one came to care for us and we were looking dishevelled and worn by the time we marched to trial.
When my name was called and charges read, I started to speak in my defense. The judge sternly told me that women, especially slave women, were not allowed to speak in court. I started to protest, but was met with the blunt end of a sword to my head which stunned me.
Steven was appointed by the judge to speak on our behalf and he made an eloquent argument for our innocence and mercy from the court. The judge responded that this trial was about justice not innocence. He ruled that master Lucius was innocent but is now dead and deserved justice. The judge continued saying that the state has a right to all of his slaves, but in an act of mercy it decided that only one tenth would pay for the injustice. It was so ruled. One by one he called out our names and pronounced crucifixion or the arena for the next day as our sentence. Maria had been holding onto her ripe with baby belly, and when the judge pronounced crucifixion for her, her water broke and poured onto the floor. The stress and shock of crucifixtion had caused her to go into labor.
When the judge came to my name he said "Olivia, crucifixion, see the clerk." My knees went weak and a chill came over me, but I was quickly unchained and removed to the clerk. Parchments were placed before me and I was told to put my mark on three places. I asked what they were and was told that one was confirming that my trial and sentence was fair and just, one was my death certificate, and the other gave possession of my body to the state."
But I'm not dead!" I protested.
"My child," came the reply, "You were dead in the eyes of the state when you were sentenced to crucifixión. If you are incapable of signing, like you have lost all your fingers, then I can sign for you."
I watched as my guard started to draw his sword and I quickly marked the documents before my fingers were cut off. For the first time I felt that all rights to myself were taken from me. I had just signed documents giving my life and body to the state and stating they were just in my sentence.
"Strip," came the next command.
The shock and humilation of being forced strip in front of everyone further confirmed that the body I occupied no longer belonged to me. My hands were shackled behind my back and a lead around my neck. With a hard swat and grab to my ass, I was lead outside and through the streets. I felt the humilation of being condemned and naked in front of free and elegantly clothed people.
Several times my guard would lock my arms behind me pulling my shoulders back and forcing my tits forward to show his friends what they would see tomorrow.
When we arrived at the prison, I found things changed. Tables and benches had been brought in and there were several men drinking from the vats of alcohol placed in the room.
Maria was laid on a table and clearly in the midst of a contraction but with a cock shoved deep in her pussy. "It feels amazing!" said the brute to his friend who had his cock down her throat. "You should feel her moaning!" he said.
Steven was on his knees with a fat bald man's cock shoved in his mouth. Steven no longer looked as refined with another man's balls slapping his chin. I could see my other family members trapped in booze filled hedonistic acts, but could barely take it all in before hands grabbed at me and drug me into the melee. They passed me along to a table grabbing feels along the way until I was landed on a table with my arms still bound behind me. My flaying legs were grabbed and forced apart opening my virgin womanhood to the will of the deviants smothering me.
I had never seen a naked cock, but now one that looked too huge to enter me appeared hard and ready between my legs with the intention of opening me for the first time. He spit on his cock and my pussy, then with his large hands on my groins, his thumbs spread my pussy open while the huge tip of his cock pressed against my hole. I was incapable of stopping him and once again I was reminded that I did not control this body.
As he pushed his cock inside me shoving aside my virginity and filling me with his uninvited cock, I threw my head back in shame, sadness, and the loss of what I was saving for my husband.
That was a mistake because there was another cock waiting for my throat. As my body rocked to the pounding my pussy was taking, strong hands grabbed my throat and ordered me to open my mouth with a warning not to bite. I watched the underside of a cock enter my mouth and felt it going down my throat until I saw his balls touching my nose. Confusion entered my mind. Had I given him permission to violate my throat out of fear of the consequences? I was now making the same "gawk, gawk," sound that Maria was making on her table with a new cock down her throat.
We were just meat on the table as new men continued to arrive and take another piece of us, the condemned. I watched the 40 year old woman take a knee to the face which propelled her several feet into a corner where she landed barely concious." The brute walked over to her and kicked her face with his boot. She spit a few teeth out. Then he pulled out his cock and began pissing on her telling her that she is not worthy of his cum. She was soon the place to relieve their bladders and recieved numerous more kicks and stomps. I had no effort to feel for her as cock after cock took its pleasure in me.
After some time and cum had filled me, I saw that Maria's pussy had been abandoned. She was now to dilated and the baby's head was crowning. Her pussy pushed out her baby and liads of cum while she fought for breath around the cocks in her mouth. A brute grabbed the child from her pussy dropping it on the floor and stomped his boot on its body. "Oops I stepped on your baby girl." He said. "Here feed her," as he placed the broken body on her chest. "A dead woman gives birth to dead babies," he laughed. Maria could not even look at her broken baby as one cock after another entered her throat. I felt the latest cock in my mouth go soft, and it's owner began beating my face and blaming me for his loss of stamina. It made no sense and I knew nothing about pleasing a man, but to avoid more abuse I attempted to please every cock that entered me. It still resulted in several beatings as more and more cum was dumped inside me. Therevwas no rest and all night long we suffered whatever abuse a brute could inflict on us, but we feared then end because we knew what awaited us would be worse.