2 April 1951
Dear Diary:
This is my third entry, reporting on my second full day with the 4078th. Yesterday, as you know, was dreadful. Today was ... well .... different, as you will see.
I woke again at sunrise, just as I did the day before, but this time with a very bad hangover. To put it simply ... I felt like absolute shit! My first coherent thought was “What the fuck did Captain Tree put in those drinks last night?”
Then I noticed that I was stark naked. My second coherent thought was “What the fuck did I do last night?”
I opened both eyes and looked around. The tent was empty. The others were apparently gone already. I was alone.
Gingerly ... trying not to move too fast ... I sat up, swung my legs over the side of my cot and sat very still. I waited. Then when my head stopped spinning, I began to take stock.
I immediately found a folded sheet of paper pinned to my mattress. I picked it up and opened it. Inside was a love sonnet penned by Captain Wragg ... how sweet, I thought, until I read the verse and my face turned red with embarrassment. What the fuck did I do last night?
Looking up I noticed a wooden paddle over on Captain Goldman’s cot. Instinctively, I had to check out my bare bottom, which ... sure enough ... turned out to be quite tender to the touch. What the fuck did I do last night?
Then my attention turned to Captain Tree’s so-called trophy rack, and there among the copious display of lacy feminine underthings hung my own bra and panties! What the fuck did I let him do to me last night!
Shaken to the core, I turned to the cot of my fourth tent mate, Captain Jolly. It contained a folded note. Unable to restrain myself, I sprang to my feet, snatched it up and read, “Dear Lieutenant Moore. You passed out last night before it was my turn. But that’s ok. I’m the most patient doctor in the camp, and waiting always makes the final reward all the more enticing and enjoyable. I look forward to it at the toga party Captain Tree is organizing for the back room of the company medical supply tent this evening. See you there.”
Collapsing back on my cot, I buried my head in my hands and thought to myself, “this place is insane!”
After a good cry, I got hold of myself. Deciding I needed solace ... a comforting soul to whom I could confide ... and complain ... I dressed quickly, and eschewing a shower (I was taking no chances with Corporal Rodent and his camera) as well as breakfast (not a good idea on top of Tree’s booze and Joan’s horny potion), I went out in search of the company chaplain.
Eventually I found his tent back behind the latrines. The wooden sign over the door read, ‘Father Q. Paul, Chaplain’.
Opening the door, I stepped inside to find the front office space empty, but a rhythmic noise was emanating from the back room, punctuated at intervals by gasping and moaning. If I hadn’t known better ... the tent being a place of God ... I would have said it was the sound of two people copulating.
I hesitated, then called out, “Hello, Father Paul?”
“Yes, hold on ... just one moment!” came a somewhat out-of-breath-sounding reply.
I waited.
Several minutes passed before Father Paul appeared, with tousled hair and not fully hitched up pants.
“Ahhh, my child ... welcome ... what can I do for you?” he sang as he looked me up and down as though I was a piece of meat. “I don’t believe we’ve met? Are you new to the 4078th?”
“Yes, Father I am. I’m Lieutenant Barbara Moore. And I’ve come because I need to talk to someone about the unsettling things I’ve experienced since I arrived here yesterday. As you can see, I’m quite upset.”
“Oh dear. Do sit down my child. Can I get you something to drink? I just happen to have some of Captain Tree’s special brew on hand.”
“No, Father. Not that, especially not with Joan’s horny potion in it!” I exclaimed, rising indignantly from the camp stool on which I had perched. “Father, I’m shocked! I thought you were a man of God, and certainly not of the ilk of Tree and the other crazies here! Just a glass of water, if you please.”
“Yes, of course my child. Tell me now, just what is it that has you so upset?”
“Everything Father. There’s the bloody horror of the OR, of course. But I expected that. What has me really upset is the total lack of respect I have gotten from the camp doctors and from that little vermin, Corporal Rodent. Do you know that since I’ve arrived, and mind you it’s been scarcely over a day, I’ve been photographed without my consent while undressing and showering, groped by my CO, Colonel Phlebas, and drugged by Captain Tree so that he along with Captains Wragg, Jolly and Windar could strip me naked and take turns having their way with me. And on top of that I was terrified to learn that the Chinese have recently taken to crucifying captured nurses and that Captain Tree is organizing a toga party tonight in the supply tent, where I fear my humiliations are sure to multiply!”
“Well, that doesn’t sound all that bad to me, Lieutenant. In fact, I’d say it’s pretty much par for the course around here. This is a war zone and the Good Lord often looks the other way in difficult times. One piece of advice, though, if I may ... be sure to wear nothing under your toga tonight. It’s expected. Indeed it’s the rule. And breaking the rule may require a punishment.”
“I expected sympathy from you, Father. I’m truly shocked! Why you’re no better than they are!”
“No, really. I want to help you. What about the women? How have they treated you? They are a fine bunch, you know. Nurse Eulalia keeps them well in line.”
“Perhaps so , Father, but I really have only met a few and that was in the OR. Hardly a place for a friendly get acquainted chat, is it?” And besides I am billeted with the doctors, not the nurses!
“I can see that you are very upset and troubled my child, and that you could use someone of your own gender to comfort you. I have just the thing. If you follow me into the back room, I will introduce you to Messaline, the young French nun who assists me in my ministry here. I’m sure she will put you at ease and the two of you will get on famously ... and I will be nearby and ready to assist should I be ... uh ... shall we say ... uh ... needed.”
He took me by the hand and led me to the back room, holding back the flap so I could pass through. There, lying stretched out on her side on a bed, was a woman wearing absolutely nothing more than a wooden crucifix, hung from a string around her neck.
“Come in Cheri,” she purred. “Messaline has been listening to your troubles. Men can be pigs, n’est-ce pas? Come lie down beside me, yes? ... Slip out of your clothes, let us be comfortable ... “
“What? All of them?”
“Oui cheri. There is nothing like flesh on flesh and soft talk to soothe and comfort the soul, n’est-ce pas? ... Come now ... off with the clothes. Do not be shy with Messaline!”
“Well, I don’t know.”
Hurry! ... your Messaline awaits ... that’s right, cheri ... come lie here and place your hand on Messaline’s breast ... Is that not nice, yes?”
“Uh huh.”
“Now, slide your thigh between mine ... ahhhhhhhh ... tres bien ... that’s it ... you’re moving now .... and wet too ... mmmmmmm ...”
I really couldn’t believe what was happening!
But I was also powerless to stop it. I was in her spell.
“Oh Father Paul, join us now, s’il vous plait,” cooed Messaline in a throatily urgent tone. “We are nearing ecstasy and wish to feel the the sweet sting of the lash!”
Dear Diary, there were no incoming wounded today to draw me away from spending the day in bed with Messaline and Father Paul. It’s evening now as I write this. After breaking bread and drinking wine with Messa and Father Paul, I’m back in the tent dressing for tonight’s toga party. I have the place to myself. The doctors are away somewhere, so I’m able to fuss with the toga I’ve been fashioning from my bedsheet. I think I look smashing in it. And I’m not planning to wear a thing under it!
I promise to report on how it all went down in my next entry.