Masochist's Farewell Love Song

[worthless fem]

I fell in love with you
even though everyone told me
you were a bad boy,
dangerous

so when you didn't take me on a date
but rolled me over roughly on the grass
beside the river-bank
I wasn't shocked

and the first time you hit me
I didn't flinch or cry or turn away;
somehow within my heart
I knew it was just your way

to have your love
meant that I had to be you slave

and since in my eyes you were worth
every ounce of the pain you put me through
I didn't mind

but even I
didn't expect
to see you standing over me
blood on your hands
staining your designer shirt
from where you'd stabbed me

and as my short life slowly ebbed away
I mumbled out a brief apology
for having failed to please you
and for soiling your nice clean shirt
with my own blood