So. I could. I could tell you everything about her and then tell you all about what we did and all about our train journey together to Berlin and I know in some ways you want me to. But I know that in some ways you don’t and that my travelogue, my little Baedeker bombing trip around the Reich might be getting just a teeny weeny bit annoying. Because it’s so lovely and the weather now is getting really summery again and every town is a perfect conjuction of water and stone and red tiles and half-timbered history that it just wants to make me weep.
And so, despite the fact that there’s lots to tell, I am going to skip all that. Because this morning, around eleven, I arrived at the wonderful, beautiful Hauptbahnhof in Mitte, and stepped out to the great plain of green and the concrete erections of bureaucracy that litter the heart of what was once the heart of an empire. I am sure that Frau whats-her-name loves it, but then she was an Ossie at heart and maybe still is and I can understand why the Greeks don’t love her. Or her finance minister. But I wasn’t staying there. I wanted to stay in Prenzlauer Berg because I thought that would be sexy but Romy had found a place by the K-Damm in Charlottenberg and I thought I better go to where she was. And it was really very nice and I’m glad, even after a few hours, that we’re here in this old corner of West Berlin, because it’s crumpled and lived in and real and the little Italian place around the corner in Goethestraße is just the most perfect little Italian place and I have no idea what it will become when the lovely old people who run it die because that can’t be that long off. But for now it was nice to sit and hear them talk and eat their perfect pasta. And of course to gaze into Romy’s lovely eyes. That was super nice. It’s always super nice.
And yes, we had lunch and then spent the afternoon in the room with the high grey ceilings and the lovely wide bed in the old apartment block in Grolmanstraße, the block with the great heavy door and the flight of stone steps and the hand-written name plates and the courtyard with the overgrown shrubs and the broken plastic chair. It was so perfect to touch her skin and feel her touch my lips. Here. And here. Both. Twice. With her lips.
Then we went to the little museum across the K-damm and it was still open and we wandered around in silence just absorbing how a mother could cry in stone. You should go. She’s amazing. Her work is amazing. And if you haven’t heard of Käthe Kollwitz then you better Google her. I really want you to. She understands everything. And we needed to cheer up a bit. Not really, because when you get an insight, even if it’s sad, you don’t need cheering up. But we wanted an excuse for a drink and we had one and it was hot and sunny and so we went back towards Savignyplatz and found a bar and bought some drinks and wrapped our wrists around each other's and pretended we’d live forever. Which was quite a big lie really, in the circumstances, and secretly I think we both knew that. Then we went back to the room and lay together some more and then I went out into the little enclosed balcony overlooking the overgrown courtyard and the broken plastic chair and I started to write and that’s where I am now. And tomorrow I guess we will go to see the sights. Because on Friday we’re leaving Berlin and we are going to a little place I know not that far from Hamburg. And I am really scared.