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Eulalia said:
it's very hard to explain - being a masochist does mean I probably get a more than normal endocrinal rush when I experience pain,
which I find sexually arousing, and fantasy thoughts can trigger a similar rush - I also find being stretched out naked -
or nearly so - is itself erotic, and in adolescence got similarly aroused hanging from bars in gym etc.
I'm not competitive with other people, but I like being tested or testing myself, that too arouses a strong hormonal response,
being tortured, especially crucified, excites me in that way, and certainly imagining myself into the passion narrative,
and stories of martyrs, brought together those developing physiological and psychological tendencies in me.
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what about nudity?
 
For me the fascination is two-fold and is split between participation and fantasy.
Participation: As a sub, far more along the BDSM lines rather than the actual process of execution. The reading of the sentence, the stripping, the whipping (nothing too damaging) the humiliation of the nudity, the helplessness as you're tied to the cross and exposed for all to see and to torment as they see fit.
Fantasy: this is the obsession with the whole execution process - whether imagining it happening to me or watching the scenes play out. Picturing the agonies of the victims, the brutality of the executioners.
 
cruxlover said:
So - it's all Eulalia's fault? Do I believe you? Thousands would not as the saying goes.
You can't escape responsibility for your actions so easily Ms Yupar - Eulalia just (at the most) aroused what is in you already.
(For myself I am just a kinky masochist and have been since my early teens).:flipa:
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u can believe me or no but its 100% truth i no have any reasons to lie
 
Eulalia said:
it's very hard to explain - being a masochist does mean I probably get a more than normal endocrinal rush when I experience pain,
which I find sexually arousing, and fantasy thoughts can trigger a similar rush - I also find being stretched out naked -
or nearly so - is itself erotic, and in adolescence got similarly aroused hanging from bars in gym etc.
I'm not competitive with other people, but I like being tested or testing myself, that too arouses a strong hormonal response,
being tortured, especially crucified, excites me in that way, and certainly imagining myself into the passion narrative,
and stories of martyrs, brought together those developing physiological and psychological tendencies in me.
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Well said Eulalia , I share your feelings and fantasies .I imagine myself along those same lines. I have some real life experience with BDSM so I understand how pain brings sexual pleasure.
 
The trouble with this particular kink,is that it's not exactly something that's discussed in polite social society,or at the dinner table... :(
"So,xxxx,how was your day ??"
"Oh,not too bad,thanks,I had a good crucifixion and wanked off with gusto !! How about you ?? "
Good thing this forum exists....!! Lol.
 
An interesting thread ..
My view has been partially described already by Bad Boris and Typhor2423.
It the excitement of "dark eros", crucifixion as most exquisit form of BDSM far beyond "Shades of Grey" mainstream, enduring the beauties of pain while being naked, bound with spread arms and legs, very exposed to spectators, being helpless and humiliated. And also the ritual before, the whipping, being stripped, being fixed on the crux.
 
Roberta said:
The fantasy of being crucified for me is being punished for the dark fantasies that excite me. Being tied to a cross nude and totally humiliated by a list of my self pleasure exploits posted above my head. Secretly enjoying the pain of my punishment.
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You're right, Roberta!
All the ritual of the crucifixion is for me exciting at the highest point!
The public flagellation, the "via crucis", the attachment to the cross, the erection of this cross and all that naked in front of a crowd that does everything to humble you.
This humiliation and suffering are for me unequaled erotic power.
 
cynthia the inocent said:
I am trying to understand the mind set of wanting to be crucified. If done with ropes it is really just bondage play. If you wish to o it with nails it is another realm all together. Do you wish to imitate or honor Jesus ? Is it a quest to find a pathway to salvation ? Are you really sure you want to do all that damage to your body ? I am a lover of role play, bondage and sexual torture. My leaning is toward lesbian love but I don't mind heteralsexual experiences also. To be strung up on a cross, vulnerable and exposed is so exillerating. Some pain adds to the pleasure.
Before finding this site I had no idea people viewed crux as a passion. I love hearing your comments and especially the fantacy manips.
I am struggling to understand how someone can go past the fantacy of it all. Please feel free to comment and enlighten me. I don't mean to take anything away from anyone's desires.
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I am trying to understand it too!:confundio1:

Not the kind of thoughts one discusses openly.:icon_tfno:

Growing up, from early childhood with such bondage fantasies, with an erotic base, long before one even knows there is such a thing like 'erotic' or 'sex' or all that kind of things!:baby2:

And, yet, curiously, from the earliest times being aware it is a taboo, something to keep for yourself!:nono:

Hormons that go wrong from the earliest years? And why? There was another thing that has taken shape very early in my mind : death! Maybe erotisation of death, in a somewhat weird way? Pushing the prospect of death away like that?:eek:

Or is it a very common process, but do most people project it on religion? I don't know.:worship2:

Whatever, erotic execution fantasies are part of 'me' all my life. Why crucifixion? There is not only crucifixion, point is, I prefer fantasy of a long proces, and crucifixion is one of these that take long. Hanging nailed to cross creates a brief sort of 'afterlife', that creates a lot of psychological opportunity of living the 'erotisation of death' fantasy (in contrast to eg beheading or hanging). Maybe that explains (part of) it.:enamorado::idea:
 
windar said:
You might be interested in this story, which explores the psychology of erotic hanging in the guise of a crime story/mystery http://www.cruxforums.com/xf/threads/noosed-nude-nyc.6749/

As for why crucifixion holds no great attraction for me personally, it's hard to explain why something holds little interest for someone. Take golf (please). Many millions love it, but it bores me to tears. For me, the religious aspect gets in the way of any possible enjoyment (crucifixion, not golf). Or it could be that as a kid, I took piano lessons with the nuns, despite not being Catholic and was terrible, so I associate the crucifix they had on the wall with torture of a definitely not erotic nature...
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No religious aspect to golf? The late archbishop Paul Marcinkus, who presided over the Sindona-Calvi Banco Ambrosiano scandal at the Vatican Bank, loved to play golf. He had a joke (I may have told this before, but it's good). A priest and a nun are on the golf course. The priest misses a shot and swears. The nun upbraids him, warning that God will exact vengeance. A lightning bolt appears out of the blue and kills the nun. A thunderous voice booms out in the heavens: "Christ! Missed again!"
Crucifixion fascinates me because of the nudity. The pain is only a factor when it contorts the body. This goes way back to my early school days (before puberty, if I recall). I have no real explanation for it. I think the continued fascination has something to do with Catholic repression of normal sexuality: sex as ALWAYS a grave sin, even masturbation, so one couldn't explore, even platonically, and sort things out. From a scientific prospective, I think people vary naturally and widely in their hormonal regimes, and I think it tends to change over time. Social factors are certainly a huge influence--basic biological drives like hunger and pain can certainly be conditioned (some people like being vegetarian, even if once they were carnivorous). All that really matters is that your hormonal regime gets passed on to offspring. Since people have sexual feelings after menopause and in old age, it is clearly possible to pass on your genes and still see your sexuality "evolve" as your life progresses. So all kinds of sexuality can survive in our species. (An interesting book, by the way, is "Doctor Tatiana's Sex Advice for All Creation", by an English female biologist, exploring all the various sexual regimes in nature. ) Biology doesn't care about you or your desires--if you do enough to pass the genes on, that's all that counts.
 
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