geolier
Tribune
it's very hard to explain - being a masochist does mean I probably get a more than normal endocrinal rush when I experience pain,
which I find sexually arousing, and fantasy thoughts can trigger a similar rush - I also find being stretched out naked -
or nearly so - is itself erotic, and in adolescence got similarly aroused hanging from bars in gym etc.
I'm not competitive with other people, but I like being tested or testing myself, that too arouses a strong hormonal response,
being tortured, especially crucified, excites me in that way, and certainly imagining myself into the passion narrative,
and stories of martyrs, brought together those developing physiological and psychological tendencies in me.
what about nudity?