I awoke this morning with fear. Master has explained to me why I should be crucified but until now has omitted the graphic details. He explained to me this morning that the cross beam on my cross is a separate unit and that I will have to carry this heavy piece of timber on my shoulders for half a mile to the crucifixion site. I am not a large man - 5'9" and around 150 lbs. and don't know if I will be that strong. In my year of servitude to Master he has not allowed me any clothing and I have grown accustomed to being naked in his presence. Now Master has explained to me that I will be naked for the duration of all aspects of my crucifixion, a 3 day ordeal and that there will be invited guests, especially chosen by him. While I want so much to please Master I now wonder how I can maintain what is left of my dignity and suffer any physical pain and humiliation with grace.