Over the years I have written a lot of stories. Enough to notice a common element in my fantasies. I love fantasizing about pussies, more specifically, hurting pussies. Don't ask me why, I really don't know. Pussies are lovely, especially when wet and I have absolutely no reason to hate them. To me they even smell good. But I do not get aroused when I fantasize about being nice and sweet with pussies. I do get an erection when I think about torturing female genitalia.
Another returning element I noticed while rereading my old stories concerns the manner in which pussies are hurt. For instance, I never fantasize about burning, stabbing or cutting them. But I do have written many scenes about huge and painful penetrations. Impalations even. And also, from a very young age, I have fantasies about the inner parts of the female reproductive system, more specifically the cervix and the uterus. I love fantasizing about cervix penetrations and womb fucking. I also love to fantasize about forced impregnation and inflating wombs with liquids.
I have no idea where this fetish came from - I've had the fantasies since my early teenage years. They stem from dark parts of my subconscious that I cannot analyse. And the fact that it's all very impractical and destined to remain a fantasy forever (I definitely would never like to do this to any woman alive), is no reason not to have the fantasies.
Why am I telling you this? Not because I have a sudden urge to confess anything to anyone, that's not the purpose of this discussion. The reason I am bringing this on, has to do with my stories. I have posted several on this forum already and though I kept the womb torture in those stories to a minimum, it might already be obvious that it's a returning element in my fantasies. And when I began to consider publishing some of my old stories here, I realized they are often heavy with the womb torture element. That makes me doubt if I should publish those stories here on this forum. Like I am also not posting any of my bestiality stories involving horses, because it's too far off with the theme of this forum.
My questions are these:
1. What is your favorite part of the female reproductive organs? (see poll)
2. Does anyone have the same fascination as me for cervix penetration and uterus inflation?
3. Does anyone object to stories that have these elements in them?
4. Does anyone know of a website that focuses more on these elements, in case I should refrain from posting those stories here?
I am just a writer who is curious about his audience, if there is any - it's nothing personal.
I share your fascination towards pussies and hurting them, but for different reasons.
I have been fascinated by pain as long as I remember. I made some experiments on myself long before my puberty by whipping myself with a switches or such, mostly on my genitals. I didn’t do it hard enough to actually hurt or leave other marks or redness but just enough to make me feel funny. I didn’t even know what sex was at that time. I got my first orgasm after such experiment. Some might think I was sexually abused or punished as a child, but I wasn’t. My parents were close to perfect. That desire just was in me.
When I was 13, I was in an accident and got a nerve damage to my spine. It mostly healed but took away big part of sensitivity from my genital area, making it quite difficult to have an orgasm, especially from normal sex. I remember from the time before how sensitive I was. One of my masturbation method was to lay in a bathtub, took the showerhead off, put the hose under my foreskin and turn the water on. Sensations were overwhelming and made me cum in seconds. After that accident, I barely felt it.
When I started dating, my attention was always on girls. Aroused girl is the most exciting thing I knew and I had to change myself on the limit to be able to have orgasm from sex. I did it by reflecting girls pleasure to myself and that’s how my clitoris fetish was born. Rather than letting girls do things to me, I rather did things to them. Some liked it a lot but many didn’t.
My pain fetish was reborn when I find my first spanking stories and especially pussy whipping stories from the Internet. I like to think that girls are like me, getting highly excited by the threat of the pain and as women usually, they feel it even stronger than I did. So strong they can have orgasm from hard lashes to their pussy and their clitoris.
When I lick a woman’s clit and get her close to orgasm, I think about her getting that pleasure from severe whipping. It turns me on and makes possible to have orgasm from sex. My fantasies are tools for me. I don’t use whip in real life. At least with partners I have had, it don’t work for me.
So, this is my answer to this question and also for those who might be a bit frightened by the stories I have published here.