I think that's a very good analysis, Kasey. I can only say, being a masochist isn't boring!
I think there's a tendency to assume mascohist/sub/slavegirls like me are simply wimpish,
passive, playing no active part in our ordeals - far from it, for a start we have to be tough,
it's no game for softies, and what gets the juices pumping is psyching ourselves up for what's coming,
and responding to it, 'dancing' to it, struggling to cope with it,
discovering what depth of resources we've got to face up to fear and endure intense agony -
maybe the sight of us putting up a good fight excites and pleases the sadist,
maybe it provokes him/her to even greater cruelty, I can understand either reaction (or a mixture of both),
but I can't imagine many sadists wanting or getting much pleasure from a merely passive victim.
I think there's a tendency to assume mascohist/sub/slavegirls like me are simply wimpish,
passive, playing no active part in our ordeals - far from it, for a start we have to be tough,
it's no game for softies, and what gets the juices pumping is psyching ourselves up for what's coming,
and responding to it, 'dancing' to it, struggling to cope with it,
discovering what depth of resources we've got to face up to fear and endure intense agony -
maybe the sight of us putting up a good fight excites and pleases the sadist,
maybe it provokes him/her to even greater cruelty, I can understand either reaction (or a mixture of both),
but I can't imagine many sadists wanting or getting much pleasure from a merely passive victim.