Finally the nail hit the wood and stops there, I’m crucified, nailed, held in the cross I carried, by nails on my hands and feets.
It’s around 09:00 a.m by what the centurions said, my four companions come near to my cross.
Finally, a centurion announces:
"This man, nailed in front of you, is condemned, for it's influence on other guys through the addiction of pornography and masturbation, reaching a state of deep necessity on both, and representing a danger to the young mans of our society, is condemned to die on the cross, the hands, that he used to give himself so much pleasure are now nailed, the feets he liked so much, are pierced to the wood, to show what happens to the ones who lose themselves into pornography and self pleasure."
Finally, a sign is nailed right over my head, great letters say: João Carlos, 19, chronic MASTURBATION ADDICTED, porn addicted and foot fetishist.
My friends look at me incredule, as I make the crucifixion dance, sweat runs through my chest and abs, and blood from my hans and feet, as I cry for mercy, in shame.
It’s just the beginning of a painful and humiliating execution, I look at the crowd, and see them pointing at me, laughing and cursing.
I feel the sweat running through my body, as the suns starts rising more and more, and I look at the sky and say:
- Father, I accept and endure my fate, and I’m ready to follow your plans, today, I give myself into the cross
(Images are from the short movie "My Last Day"