@Gibbs505 ...I concur.
As much as I love and adore women,I'm always socially awkward around them,to the point that I'm perpetually frustrated.
I'm now in the Autumn of my lifespan and becoming resigned to the fact that I'll never achieve any of my sexual ambitions.
Although my thoughts are quite deviant,in reality I couldn't bring myself to commit an act of Rape (e
ven if it's consensual role-play)
nor would I raise my hand to a woman,i take my frustration out on inanimate objects...
I'm VERY conscientious and morally sound.
(try telling
that to my perverse thoughts !!)
Having been unsuccessfully married yeah we've had fights, arguments,and all that jazz.
Ironically in real life most of my best friends are female and yeah I love them dearly....
but still I go home alone and take my kink into my own hands,(you know what I mean)
I'm shit at finding anyone who's not accounted for,and who's willing to "experiment" in the bedroom,so to speak....
I get this syndrome in that women are an alien species,compared to me,(yeah bullshit I know....!!) but try being in
MY shoes,and putting up with a permanent feeling of inadequacy and zero-confidence....deafness & loneliness sucks !!
Its got to the point that I feel that I'm neither young,attractive muscular nor well-endowed,pretty pathetic really.
(which no doubt goes a long way to explain my fantasies revolving around being a near naked slave condemned to crucifixion??)
What I'd give to have a slow dance,a snog and a bit of fun afterwards....looks like that bird has flown,but I STILL have some small hope,that one day....perhaps ??
(sorry to ramble on,and hopefully it's not
too off-topic ??)
Ok I've said my bit,and I'll let you get on with things. Safe Crux...TX
Oh...and one more thing....
40 years ago this month I was sexually assaulted by an older Homosexual and was (whilst under duress) forced to commit Fellatio....Even though I couldn't finish him off (so to speak)...I can quite understand a woman's point of view regarding blow jobs,and it's unfortunately shaped my attitude towards certain members of the male population, as I'm not in any way that way inclined,I'm a strictly Heterosexual person.....!!
(this is the first time I've gone public regarding my experience.....ok ?? )