The saltwater burns into me like wasp stings in every lash mark on my wounded body… yet the lust continues to consume me- I still don’t understand- but the flash of pain also bears the fruit of anger from my warrior blood!
I was a proud fighter - so different to the other girls in the village- I only ever wanted to be a shield maiden for our chief. Our ancestors blood courses through my veins and words like honour, vengeance, and duty were more important than the prosaic domestic focus of my friends.
So I played sports, participating with the boys, who used to laugh and tease at me but their attempts at shaming me only steeled my resolve.
Thus the stinging salt enraged me and I looked at you with fire in my eyes, my hatred was yet to be extinguished…
Honour. I must honour the fallen, and so I remain determined, even after my surrender, to carry myself as a proud shieldmaiden, even as you try to cow me further with the chest plate of rose thorns.
I dare you to make it worse, even as the thorns prick my already tortured breasts… even a slave can hold onto pride if it defies only in subtle ways.
So I stick my chest out proudly, even as I take the first steps of the Via Crucis with patibulum on my shoulders, I refuse to become a weakened coward- I am a captive, a prisoner of war… and so I shall be stoic, holding my hate deep, beneath the raging hormones which stir my loins under your brutality…
When you notice the flash of my eyes, you order my ankles to be shackled in chains.
“Your new jewelry! Now move it, slave! To your crucifixion!” As you crack a flagellum across my tortured back to dominate me once more!
I am a contradiction, deeply aroused to be so subjugated, yet an inner defiance still ripples through my soul like a terrible portentous your doom. Only my lust, pain, and your lash seems to keep it at bay.
I am a contradiction. slave and rebel- all in one!