THE GRACEFUL ANIMAL
Monday, April 16th
I go down to the basement where the dance studios are. An oriental melody with a frenetic rhythm catches my attention, coming from the salle des étoiles, the one the ballet stars of use for their exercises. It is Borodin’s suite from Prince Igor, the Polovtsian Dances.
Moving aside the heavy curtain, I see a dancer dancing on the stage: pliés, développés, grand fouettés en tournant, dégagés, but also steps en pointe, small, medium and large leaps, turns on the ground and in the air, sequences of jumps, swing, landing on and off axis: the whole repertoire of possible movements, but also some impossible ones! It seems that for him there is no law of gravity. From the shadows I observe him without being seen. Madame Chloé has arrived during the night, with the new Romeo she has found in the Steppes of Central Asia! Who is he? I have never seen him in any photograp but he is certainly a true dancer, a breathtaking physique, musculature sculpted in the most precious marble. But a sculpture that moves, and looks like a panther. I stand watching enraptured; and shall I dance with this wild cat? I tremble at the thought.
'Do you like him?' Madame Chloé has surprised me again, she hugs me tightly from behind, kissing me on the neck.
'Madame ...'
'He's called Ruslan, Ruslan Sobolev, the best you can find on the market today! I struggled a lot to convince him, he’s a very special character.'
'He was dancing with the Royal Ballet in London?'
'Yes, just him. We spent a lot of time getting to know each other, sometimes dancing, sometimes simply walking, talking, going out for dinner together. I was interested in finding a way to discover the real Ruslan behind the confusing stereotypes that whirl around him - a party animal, a bad boy, a demon of the dance. Now he’s here, he will be yours - if you know how to tame him!’
'If he doesn’t destroy me first...'
Sobolev, соболь, means ‘sable’, the black marten of the Russian forests. In Eastern Europe, where dance is most popular, two types of performers stand out: gleaming and august as if with imperial heritage - and those moved by a destructive and rebellious Dostoievskian daemon, a fire that has flowed in the veins of heroes like Nijinsky and Nureyev. Ruslan is the new god of this pantheon... The music ends, applause interrupts his performance, he turns his eyes towards the back of the room from where he has been spied by inquiring eyes, he waits for us to emerge from the shadows.
As he approaches I immediately notice some details: a map of tattoos engraved in his musculature, his chest is furrowed by suggestive signs of scars. Yet what attracts more are his eyes, exotic, bewitched, mysterious, in the face of an eternal boy, a rebel without reason. At the Royal Ballet they nicknamed him ‘the graceful animal’, for his movement like a leaping lion when he rises into the air.
I am already bewitched by his charm, in front of him you feel naked, not only in your body, but right inside your soul, his gaze penetrates from his pupils down into the depths of your being. You cannot hide, nor lower your eyes, nor challenge that gaze - if you look down you have already lost, if you maintain your eye-contact with him, you cannot stop him from digging into your soul. If I want him I will have to resist him, and it will not be easy...
Madame Chloé performs the introductions, he shakes my hand as if he were taking hold of a sword, while I'm already lost in his eyes, I am not even conscious that Madame has invited us to the theatre cafeteria for a break, I'm moving like an automaton. His voice is kind, with that strange oriental tone, but his English is correct, he has lived in London for a few years. I have not mastered this language well, and that allows me to be silent or to respond with monosyllables - which, in this situation, can give me an advantage.
Regardless of form, he advances triumphantly, bursting bare-chested into the cafeteria, offering himself boldly to the eyes of a crowd of young dancers who have been awaiting him anxiously, they have heard of his arrival, he’s already making a massacre of small hearts.
At our table in a private room, he tells us of his life, a fabulous, nomadic life. I look at him, for the first time close up, my gaze is lost in his, in his very mobile eyes, in the sharp curve of his jaw, in his oriental cheekbones, in the shape of his full-lipped mouth. I cannot but observe the interlacing arabesques that run across the curves of every muscle in his body. This is a true male, not a freak puffed up in the gym, or worse with hormones.
A sentence from his speech awakens me from hypnosis caused by complicated tattoos:
‘... the reason why I dance are those few seconds in which my body glides through the air ...’
We shall be two who fly!
The dancers who are crowding the corridor in front of the hall bow their heads as I toss mine defiantly - now you understand who I am! You’re just the slavegirls of Zenobia, I'm Juliet!
We lock ourselves in the rehearsal room for hours and hours, while he teaches me the ballet, step by step, with a furious determination, as if he has already danced it a thousand times. Exhausted, I have to resort to the tender care of our masseuse.