Interesting - I think for me it's a mixture of both -
necessary if I'm to learn the disciplines of slavegirlhood,
pleasurable in testing myself, discovering how much I can take,
how I cope with it, even the movements of my body as I struggle and dance -
and exciting as well as fearful to anticipate and experience it![Devil :devil: :devil:](http://www.cruxforums.com/xf/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/devil.png)
necessary if I'm to learn the disciplines of slavegirlhood,
pleasurable in testing myself, discovering how much I can take,
how I cope with it, even the movements of my body as I struggle and dance -
and exciting as well as fearful to anticipate and experience it
![Devil :devil: :devil:](http://www.cruxforums.com/xf/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/devil.png)