Even with the suppressing and exciting effect of the pills, it is still a tremendous experience, is a continuous physical effort. I can just imagine how grueling and unbearable it must be without. I bet there would be little left of erotics and excitement!
That man Piraland has really invented the ultimate suicide pill! An exciting and pain killing way to go to the end! Most unfortunate, social morality would forbid it!
I imagine, suppose I would be hanging to this cross, by my hands, using grips, and standing on a narrow piece of metal. How long would it take, before my body weight would tire me and make me lose my grip? Not long, I presume! I would pull my arms, (over)stretch them, and finally, give way. Point is, I just feel the same pull on me, and it is like fighting against falling down, apart from the fact that I cannot fall, since I got nailed to the wood!
I cannot fall, but I am hanging to my weight, and I have not grip at all! Instead, there is the gnawing of the nails, inserted between – imagine : between! – my wrist and ankle bones. These bones fell as if they will be ripped apart, and there is nothing I can do about it, since I have no grip or foot support at all! So, instinctively, I try to pull up myself, working on my arm and leg muscles. But nothing can stop neither the gnawing nor the pulling down!
Despite all this torment, the maddest thoughts and feelings run to my head.
Being really crucified, in public, like a Roman criminal! It is hard to imagine! Being watched at by these greedy onlookers! Nothing to hide, hanging powerless to a cross! Painful, humiliating and exciting! And scary!
Yet, nothing seems to beat Martha’s joy!
“Exciting workout, isn’t it!? I should recommend this to all my friends!” she shouts.
Probably, my answer to that question did not sound enthusiastic enough, since she continued :
“You clearly don’t have enough exercise, Lox! This will be good for your condition!” (I her irony! Really!) “I used to do a ten miles run! Every week! Keeps me sharp, and fit and alert in my job!”.
Yet, no matter how she is pretending enthusiasm, I see her struggling! I can see it, on her facial expression! She writhes up and down, moving continuously, deeply breathing, just as I am doing! It is her character, I guess, to conceal her discomfort behind appearances. Of course, she is right, she looks more athletic than me!
“Look! She says! This row of crucificands! Incredible, isn’t it!? And you and me are part of it! Look! I told you! Those on the ground envy us!”
She is right! The curved line of crosses, carrying real, live, naked nailed people, as in a Roman mass crucifixion, is a stunning and exciting view! Knowing myself, I would envy them, if I would have been an onlooker! I would have wondered intensely what would go through their head, what they would feel and experience! I would have the desire to be one of them! And now, here it is! Me, crucified for real!
“There comes the Headmistress!” Martha says! “What is she up to with us now?”
The Headmistress walks along the line of crosses, closely followed by all the cameras. She addresses the condemned :
“I am proud of you. As I said before several times, you all deserve the execution!”
She walks to the end of the line, to Patrizio’s cross. Patrizio complains again about his denied request to be released. The Headmistress squeezes his cock! He thanks her.
Then she addresses Martha, while touching her pussy.
“Well, Martha, no regrets from your switch, I presume!?”
“No regrets!” she replies, enjoying the Headmistress’ teasing.
“Not easy, isn’t it, running a life along the borderline of dominance and submission, of being a ruler and a renegade!?”
“Comes the day, you topple, or, in my case, others make you topple to one side! It was lost anyway, home, so, why not the fate of a renegade!?”
Then it is my turn.
She stops in front of me, grabs my cock!
“Enjoying it, Loxuru!? The fate of a hopeless deviant!? Glad you realized last night that staying here and submit to what you deserved, was the best choice for everyone!”
She grabs my balls, in a way that it both hurts and excites!
“You should be grateful to us, that we finished you by that weird fantasy of you! And you even met a lovely wife, too!”
“Thank you, Headmistress!” I say, moaning.
“That’s what I want to hear you say, Loxuru! Carry on, give the people here a good show, don’t disappoint them, that’s the only thing you still are useful for, and make it the best for yourself!”
She goes on to Judith, then Messaline, then further along the whole line, giving attention to each of the condemned.
But then, unexpectedly, she surprises us completely with an announcement to all of us!
“Listen to me! I have decided to join you in crucifixion! Pete, my husband, will be my executioner. I condemned you to death and I am responsible for your executions. So I consider it is only fair for me to share your destiny and your grave. I will remain in charge. I will continue leading and giving the orders from my cross…as long as I can. Then, Pete will take command and finish with our executions and burial. And I won’t authorize any more crucifixions. 18 people dying are enough…and besides there are no more crosses left!”
Her announcement overwhelms me completely! If I had not been nailed so firmly, it would have made me fall from my cross!