A few days ago I decided to try something new in the self crux experience, something that again had to be completely safe yet potentially exciting, I decided to try anal penetration with a cornu. I strongly believe it happened & was part & parcel of crucifixion & the humiliation meted out, so it seemed worth trying just for research reasons.
I am not gay so all I have had up my backside is a suppository & once a doctor's finger which I found pretty horrible & uncomfortable, would the cornu be as unpleasant I wondered.
I have used a wooden senile, a rough hewn piece of timber two inches square & about seven inches long (it was longer but it got shortened when I wanted my balls to hang in front of it). I thought I could easily fix a vertical dildo onto this.
So using a piece of inch diameter dowel I shaped a penis onto this with wood filler - the type that uses a hardener to make it go off really solid. I modelled the thing on my own erection for size including the bulbous glans end. I sanded it down till it was really smooth - I didn't want sharp bits to cause any damage inside. When very smooth I painted it black with acrylic paint.
Now to fix it to the sedile I flattened small bracket so that I had a short length of metal with four screw holes, through one in the center I put a screw into the base of the dildo, then fixed the thing onto the top of the senile with screws through the other holes, it jutted up provocatively & looked pretty frightening. I was confident with it screwed on like this it would never get loose & remain stuck up my rectum, I didn't want any embarrassing visits to the hospital! Where to place it on the sedile was debatable, I decided near the front so that I had to thrust myself out from the cross yet still couldn't sit with it jutting up in front of me.
When I mounted up onto the cross & stood on the footrests I was above the thing but I knew it was there between my legs & threatening to transfix me, it was quite scary. I lowered myself until I felt the knob press into the area between my anus & scrotum, it felt alien & intrusive, & it hurt if I let too much of my weight rest on it there. I raised myself up, I really didn't fancy the thing entering my body, so I determined to remain above it as long as I could bear.
My legs ached so I lowered myself down, I shifted to the side so that I rested my buttock on the thing, yow, that hurt very quickly! Imagine doing that with lacerated buttocks from a scourging, it would be agony. I shifted sides, no relief. I thrust my body forwards to hang in front of the cornu & sedile, that stretched my arms to the maximum & I couldn't hold that for long, I stood up on the footrest again. I realised that there was no escaping the inevitable, I would have to lower myself down & let the evil thing enter my body.
When my legs ached & I began shaking with weakness I decided to let the cross fuck me. I lowered myself slowly, imagining the ribald shouts of a crowd watching this bit, the humiliation would be total.
I felt the knob against my anus, I hadn't greased it or applied any lotion to ease the entry, I figured that nobody on a cross would be allowed that luxury. The knob end seemed huge & far too big to enter, it just wouldn't go in. The crack between my buttocks was dry, the hard knob hurt, I lifted myself up & breathed heavily, this was a nightmare!
God my legs ached, I sat down onto the knob again, I was exhausted & wanted to actually sit astride the sedile, but I could only do that with the dildo deep in to its full length. I writhed about trying to find an angle that it would enter by & it reminded me of the sort of movement I have made when trying to pass a big stool when I was constipated, this whole experience was disgusting.
Writhing & wriggling about more I suddenly felt the knob begin to push its way in, wow it hurt! I let my weight bear down more & suddenly the thing entered my body, I let out a loud cry of pain & shock, it felt huge. It was only just a small way in, I let it slide in more, god it felt weird. I suddenly panicked & lifted myself up a bit, no, I didn't want that thing any deeper! I didn't let it out though as having to let it enter again would be pretty traumatic & painful.
I had to sit so I lowered myself down, like a huge snake I felt it slither deeper & deeper into the depths of my body, it felt terrifyingly big.
Finally I felt the sedile taking my weight, my lower body felt stuffed full, a feeling unlike anything I had ever had. I wouldn't have called it pleasant, far from that, it was damned frightening. It was however erotic. I raised myself up a bit & felt the thing slide down. I sat down again with it filling me again.
Soon I began the dance of raising up & lowering myself, the cornu slid up and down inside me with the same sort of copulative action I was only used doing when I fucked a woman. I really felt that I was being raped by the cross, it was both disgusting yet erotic & tinged with a spicy bit of pain. My own penis was jutting forward.
I let out a huge gasp when I eventually stood high enough on the footrests to let the dildo come out completely, the feeling again being very odd with the thing no longer inside me. The next thing I felt was a dire urgency to have a shit.
Later I mused how completely humiliating that would be for anyone up on a cross in front of a crowd of people. I am even more convinced that it was used to add to the sadism of the torture & to entertain a watching audience.
) it'll just slip into the nearest hole. But at what price? More agony and humiliation and much more time on the cross.
