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Crucifixions of Rufus

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Well this completes my presentation of my first time journey to the cross. Never though it will be possible. But after joining this forum I found many people with similar Interests which served me a great inspiration. It started with me as a little kid maybe 6 years old watching the Jesus movie where Brian Deacon played the Jesus role, I was fascinated with how soldiers strip his clothes off and nailed him to the cross, I also enjoyed watching the two thieves struggle on their crosses. Later me and my cousin played crucifixion scene where I lay on the cross wearing my briefs and he pretended to nail me. But then when I hit puberty the fascination of the cross started growing. I watched any Jesus movie or picture that I was able to find. I remember In High School going to the library and finding a book about Romans and looking for the crucifixion scene. When I was 18, one day I decided to record a video of myself, I took of my clothes and wearing only my briefs I stood with my arms stretched for couple of seconds. Then I came back and took the screenshot of the video. It was incredible sensation to know thats how I would look if I was to be crucified. From that point I started doing my own manipulations of myself on the cross. Later I build my own indoor cross. I made my own loincloth. What a sensation it was to be on the cross for the first time. But I always wanted more real stuff. Finally I build the indoor cross again and was able to hang stretched on the cross with only ropes that was a next level for me.

Then I decided to do an outside crucifixion. It was a scary though because I didn't want anyone to see me. I found the prefect three, prepared my Patibulum, made myself new loincloth, but ropes, made the titulus, got a phone stand, and prepared my phone to record. I was so eager to get on the cross that I did it one day earlier.

As I was carrying the pattibulm that was tied to my hands I though this was the way the prisoner was walking to his destiny, to the cross, what must been going through his mind? Many people probably watched him as he made his way, soldiers whipped him to make him walk faster.

As I came to the stipe, I lay down with my pattibulm attached, my hands are tied, I can see the blue sky, this would of been the time when the soldier would nail my wrist, that got me nervous. I can not imagine how painful it would be.

Then I got on the cross, first I put my hands through the ropes and then my feet. My hands was stretched my legs was bent and here I was CRUCIFIED! I looked at the clock that I set up to see how long i been on the cross, it was moving really slow, I started to feel pain in my legs muscles so I would lover myself and then i would feel the pain in my arms. I had to constantly move. I would stretch my body trying different position to relief my pain. I thought it would been a lot worse if I was nailed. Can't imagine hanging on the nails in my wrists and pushing up on the nails in my feet. Romans would sometimes tied people to the cross so they can suffer longer and a person can hand like that for 6-9 days. This was it, I was tied, just like the Romans time. The Time was moving slowly, but the pain grew. I looked around and could not believe that was really on the cross.
 
carloscruz said:
Did you experience any sexual arousal?
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Not while on the cross. I was more focused on relieving the pain from my hands and feet and find comfortable position (which there was none) I think is different to be on the cross rather then watch someone on the cross. However there three components that were missing at my crucifixion, 1. Roman soldiers 2. onlookers 3. other crucified victims. I think if I would see someone crucified next to me maybe it would been different.
 
Rufuss said:
Not while on the cross. I was more focused on relieving the pain from my hands and feet and find comfortable position (which there was none) I think is different to be on the cross rather then watch someone on the cross. However there three components that were missing at my crucifixion, 1. Roman soldiers 2. onlookers 3. other crucified victims. I think if I would see someone crucified next to me maybe it would been different.
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Totally agree, it will be different and emotional with Romans, other victims and spectators, but that will come true only as a manip.
 
Rufuss said:
Well this completes my presentation of my first time journey to the cross. Never though it will be possible. But after joining this forum I found many people with similar Interests which served me a great inspiration. It started with me as a little kid maybe 6 years old watching the Jesus movie where Brian Deacon played the Jesus role, I was fascinated with how soldiers strip his clothes off and nailed him to the cross, I also enjoyed watching the two thieves struggle on their crosses. Later me and my cousin played crucifixion scene where I lay on the cross wearing my briefs and he pretended to nail me. But then when I hit puberty the fascination of the cross started growing. I watched any Jesus movie or picture that I was able to find. I remember In High School going to the library and finding a book about Romans and looking for the crucifixion scene. When I was 18, one day I decided to record a video of myself, I took of my clothes and wearing only my briefs I stood with my arms stretched for couple of seconds. Then I came back and took the screenshot of the video. It was incredible sensation to know thats how I would look if I was to be crucified. From that point I started doing my own manipulations of myself on the cross. Later I build my own indoor cross. I made my own loincloth. What a sensation it was to be on the cross for the first time. But I always wanted more real stuff. Finally I build the indoor cross again and was able to hang stretched on the cross with only ropes that was a next level for me.

Then I decided to do an outside crucifixion. It was a scary though because I didn't want anyone to see me. I found the prefect three, prepared my Patibulum, made myself new loincloth, but ropes, made the titulus, got a phone stand, and prepared my phone to record. I was so eager to get on the cross that I did it one day earlier.

As I was carrying the pattibulm that was tied to my hands I though this was the way the prisoner was walking to his destiny, to the cross, what must been going through his mind? Many people probably watched him as he made his way, soldiers whipped him to make him walk faster.

As I came to the stipe, I lay down with my pattibulm attached, my hands are tied, I can see the blue sky, this would of been the time when the soldier would nail my wrist, that got me nervous. I can not imagine how painful it would be.

Then I got on the cross, first I put my hands through the ropes and then my feet. My hands was stretched my legs was bent and here I was CRUCIFIED! I looked at the clock that I set up to see how long i been on the cross, it was moving really slow, I started to feel pain in my legs muscles so I would lover myself and then i would feel the pain in my arms. I had to constantly move. I would stretch my body trying different position to relief my pain. I thought it would been a lot worse if I was nailed. Can't imagine hanging on the nails in my wrists and pushing up on the nails in my feet. Romans would sometimes tied people to the cross so they can suffer longer and a person can hand like that for 6-9 days. This was it, I was tied, just like the Romans time. The Time was moving slowly, but the pain grew. I looked around and could not believe that was really on the cross.
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Great description of your experience, you've done a hard but wonderful job:goodjob: many thanks for sharing this.
 
Rufuss said:
Here is some Manipulations I have done from my crucifixion
1. Get Up, Get Moving
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2. Arrived
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3. Nail him
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4. Raise him Up
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5. Nail the Titulus
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6. Soldier Mocking
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7. Before the Crowd
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8. Wife At the Cross
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Wow, very good work:goodjob: now it's what I like, classic Roman Crucifixion, your pics are a nice material for manips and illustrations. Wife at the Cross is amazing idea, I like your work very much.
 
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